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FAQ's

As Bella is with Alice who is also a girl, wouldn't it have worked out better not to get the change?

Why would it?

We need to understand that there is a huge difference between Gender Identity and Sexual Identity.

The second one is about with whom a person wants to be with. The first one is about who Bella wants to be as a person. Her being transgender has zero to do with her sexual orientation. I hope that explains things a bit better, if not, feel free to ask questions.

**13**

Alice

My fingers are numb from her tight grip around them. She cries and each time her chest heaves with another sob, my heart breaks a little bit more. We shouldn't have come here. Not to Forks and especially not into this house that holds so much of her past.

"Why do you think it's your fault?" I manage to ask my wife's father after a few moments.

He sighs, wipes a bit of smeared mucus from his moustache and clears his throat. All the while he speaks his eyes stay focused on a small cupboard at the side. I bet that's where he stores the hard stuff of his alcohol supply. Crap, I hate the thought that Bella will get in trouble because of her drinking.

"Easy. I was a crappy drunkard of a father. If I hadn't been like that, if I had been a better role model for you, Brian, you wouldn't have turned out like…like that."

"For the last time now, Mr. Swan, her name is Bella." I tell him, forcing myself not to yell hysterically.

"Be..lla," he croaks out the name, like the two short syllables cause him an immense pain. Maybe they do. "I should have stopped with the drinking before everything went downhill around here. I'm sorry."

"I'm not the way I am because of you. Stop feeling guilty about it."

"I don't feel guilty. I'm just…fuck, I had a son and he's dead. You, I don't even know who you are. You're a stranger."

He grabs a silver-framed picture in that he and Brian are fishing on a small boat. There is a bottle of beer in his hands and Brian's eyes, Bella's eyes look sad like in every picture of her before-life.

"What would you do if someone took away your son? How'd that make you feel?" he asks, dropping the picture on the table with so much force the glass breaks.

"Andy will always be our kid. No matter what choices he's going to make in his life. We will love him." I tell him, wrapping my arm around my sobbing wife next to me.

I pull Bella up from the couch and try to shove her towards the door. We need to wash her face before the little one see's her like that.

"We're leaving. Come and visit us in Seattle, if you care to become a part of Bella's life again. If not, well, it's not like we need you."

With that I pull her outside the house, running straight into Edward's arms.

"Crap, what did he do to you, princess?"

"Leave me alone, Cullen." my wife mutters, wiping some mascara all over her cheeks.

"Alice, she looks bad, like she's about to faint. Let's get back inside the house."

"No," Bella whispers. "I don't want Andy to see me like this."

"Backdoor it is then. Andy is in the attic with my father, searching for some old toys."

He helps me to bring Bella up into the guest bathroom of my aunt's house. Then he leans back against the frame of the door.

"Do you want me to go over and knock some sense into Charlie's thick scull? You know, I'd love to do that."

"Care for getting arrested? I don't want you to end up in prison because of me."

He kneels down and wipes some cloth underneath the faucet before pressing it gently on her face.

"It won't come off. What the fuck did you smear around your eyes?"

"It's just eyeliner. Stop smearing it around, Edward, you are making everything worse."

Then she clears her throat and whispers huskily.

"I want to be alone for a few minutes."

"I'm not leaving you on your own when you are in this state of mind." I protest, leaning forward to press my lips against her hair.

"Alice, please. I want to be alone. I need to be alone. Just five minutes. Okay?"

Edward nods his head and pulls me out of the bathroom, over to this old room. There he makes me sit down on the bed and sighs deeply.

"That was a bad idea, Alice. Charlie could have hurt Bella. I've heard that man threatening her more than once."

"He thinks it's her fault that she's transgender. Did you know that?"

He walks over to the window, pulling the dust covered curtain to the side.

"Charlie is a very unhappy man. He wants Bella to be something she never was. But it's him who needs to change that attitude not her."

"You're right. I'm just so sorry, that her father is so against the choices she's made. It's not like she's asked for being the way she is."

"Hmm,"

He crumbles a sheet of paper from the desk between his fingers and throws it into a corner of the room.

"Don't leave her again. She won't survive it, if you do."

"I did not leave her." I hiss through my teeth. "I just needed a break. Things between me and her were getting difficult."

"Get some counseling or shit like that. I was scared for my life, when she called me to say that you moved out. I thought she was going to do something stupid."

I freeze and for a few moments I can't breathe properly. Do something stupid? She wasn't going to hurt herself, was she?

"Alice, are you still here with me?"

"Yes, yes, sure. It's none of your business, but Bella and I are seeing a therapist."

"That's good. I hope it will help you sort your problems out."

"Yes, I hope that too."

I take a deep breath and ask him if he would be okay letting Andy stay here with him and his parents for two days. Bella and I need some time for just the two of us. He agrees, and I make him promise that he won't let the boy come close to Bella's father again. As long as he doesn't accept his daughter, he doesn't need to have a grandchild from her.