THE BIG FIFTEEN
Don't kill me D:
I never have time for my fanfics anymore, and I can never find the inspiration to finish the chapters most of the time :(
BUT, I will NOT, I repeat, N O T be abandoning these stories. No matter what I go through, I will keep updating this fanfic and my other one until they are done.
…and maybe posting more…
I hope you guys can forgive me, but updating will be significantly harder for me now, since now I have to work my ass off in school because it's my senior year and I can't slack off for ANYTHING.
I'll try incredibly hard to post more often, but I sadly can't make any promises
Sorry? :/
Anyways, time for reviews.
ClarkLover1: You know cliffhangers are the best kind of endings though, and you liked it too so WOO FOR ME :D
kori and Richard grayson: sorry for the looooooooooooooooonngg wait, but here ya go!:) and thanks, I appreciate that :))
kimminightwing: aww, don't blame Marie, she's just doing her job at being the adorable 3 year old daughter she is ad interrupting her parents haha :)
I made you cry?! Oh I'm so sorry honey, don't be sad, it'll definitely get better soon :)
TriniPrincess: I'm glad for that too, I wanted to do it after the tenth chappie, but thought it was too soon. And last chapter was the perfect opportunity so it happened.:) that's not exactly going to happen soon, sadly. It'll happen later on, of course, but not so soon.:/ Guess you'll just have to keep reading, huh? :)
ashwater: aww thanks.:) sorry for the long delay, but enjoy.:)
robstarfan504: oh well thank you *bows* haha. You're welcome, I hope you have fun on this site!:) Oh trust me, they were BAD. Thankfully I passed that year, so I'm good now, nothing but bad memories now :) I was happy to review to all of them, you made me smile with each one haha. So sorry for the loooong delay, but here it finally is, so enjoy!
lalala16: School was keeping me busy sadly, school is STILL keeping me bus *sighs* Nah I'm not in college, still in high school *sigh*. I'm a senior right now, I was a junior last year, which was when I had all that work :/ No it's fine, I don't mind the questions :) Thank you for reviewing!
Magicchalkdust: so sorry, school isn't letting me :/ Here's the new chapter though, enjoy!
Chapter 13:
robstarfan504: aww, no problem sweetie, all your reviews encouraged me to write it, so you did deserve it. :) Well I'm glad you're not gonna die, I don't want a murder on my hands lol :p Enjoy!
Ok, that's all for the reviews, thanks to everyone who reviewed, and to everyone that still read this.
I love every single one of you for still reading this even though I never review as often anymore, you all hold a special place in my heart :)))))
Ok, enough with all the mushy stuff, time for a new chapter!
Chapter 15
As soon as we had gotten home, Marie skipped over to her room, sensing that I wanted to be alone.
"I'll be in my room, mommy!" I heard her call out over her shoulder as the door closed shut behind her. I chuckled briefly before sighing and throwing my keys and bag on the arm of the couch, slumping on the couch right next to them. I put my head in my hands and berated myself with the questions that had plagued my mind as soon as I had finished telling Robin everything.
'What did I just do? Why did I tell him all that? Why?'
In my distressed state of mind, there was only person I could talk to this about. I found myself whipping out my phone and dialing the number before I could even process what was happening.
"Hello?"
"Raven, help me," I immediately said, not even thinking about it
"What's wrong Kori?" I heard again, this time more concerned. She only called me Kori when there were other people around; Gary must be close by, the back of my head noted.
"I told Robin," was all I could say, the panic and increasing fear of just the thought of Robin putting all the pieces together and figuring everything out preventing me from saying any more.
There was silence on the other side of the line for a minute before I heard shuffling and a door being closed.
"Starfire you did what."
And then the dam of emotions just broke. "I told Robin about Marie's father, about himself, and why she doesn't have her father around and why I never told him and—"
"Star, Star, calm down! I'll be over in a few minutes, just breathe and do something besides freak out, alright?"
I nodded but then realized that Raven wouldn't see it, so I hummed my consent and got up and started pacing.
"I'll be there in a few minutes, don't freak out," she repeated for emphasis, to which I just hummed again to.
"Okay, I'll be waiting then," I told her, still pacing. I hung up then and went to the kitchen. If I was going to be jumpy, then I might as well do something productive and make some snacks.
Rachel's POV
As soon as Starfire had hung up, Rachel immediately went to the door of her room, where she had gone into to so they could talk properly, and opened it. She swiftly went to the door, grabbing her keys and making sure she had her wallet and phone in her purse, and made to open the door, but stopped by the sound of her husband's voice.
"Where you going, Rae?"
She turned around to face him and raised an eyebrow. "I'm going to visit Kori, why?" she said slowly.
He didn't answer right away, instead he just looked at her, kind of like he was analyzing her. "You and her are really close aren't you." Answered a question with a question.
Rachel crossed her arms, her raised eyebrow not moving an inch. "You could say I'm good friends with her I suppose, yes. What's with the questions?"
Gary just continued with looking at her as if he were trying to figure something out, and she hoped that whatever he was trying to figure out was nothing related to Starfire. After a few seconds he spoke again, and he said exactly ten words that startled her.
"You treat Kori the exact same way you treated Starfire."
Rachel felt all the blood drain from her face, but either way kept up with the act. She got into a defensive body position and raised both eyebrows, staring at her spouse.
"What? How in the world do I treat Kori like how I used to treat Starfire?"
Gary shrugged. "I don't know really, it's just how you acted around Star. You never had patience for any of us, we all knew that, but with Star you at least tried to not be annoyed. You were just closer to her than anyone else is what I'm trying to say."
"And you're saying that I act that same way towards Kori?"
A nod. "Yes, that's exactly what I'm saying."
Rachel shook her head and chuckled. "Gary, did you really just stop me so you could point out that I treat Kori the same way I used to treat Starfire? Really?"
He resumed his analytical stare, which disconcerted her slightly, but she didn't let it show. "No, I didn't bring it up only because of that. Rae, I brought it up because Kori acts like Star too. She reminds us all of her too. I honestly don't know what's going on here since we all know that Star is dead now, whether we want to admit it or not. She has been for four years now. There's no possible way she would've left, and if she got kidnapped, there's literally no chance she's still alive. Like I said, four years. But one thing I know for sure is that you treat Kori like she's Starfire 2.0."
In the back of her mind, she thought 'If you just gave into the possibility that Star could be alive, you'd realize that Marie's age and the time Star has been MIA are the same. Still not smart I see.' She rolled her eyes, both at the thought and as a response to Gary before she spoke.
"I do not treat Kori like she's Starfire 2.0 Garfield. I treat her like the person she is, and excuse me for trying to become friends with someone for the first time in years, I didn't know there was a rule forbidding me to ever be friends with someone like how I was with Starfire. But I honestly don't care; I can be friends with whoever I want." She grabbed her purse again, keys dangling on the tips of her fingers. "Now, if there's nothing else you want to tell me, I'm late to go visit my friend Kori." She opened the door and slammed it behind her, taking a few deep, calming breaths before walking to her car and driving away, completely aware of the eyes staring at her as she left the house.
~*WAYN*~
As soon as she arrived at the door, Marie opened it and squealed.
"Auntie Rae!" She launched herself at the woman, who caught her in her arms easily, having gone through this enough times before.
"Hey kiddo. Where's your mommy?"
Marie pointed over to Kori's door and looked at Rachel again. "Mommy's in her room," she said helpfully, nodding to herself, suddenly serious. The joyful expression was gone; instead a troubled and slightly worried one took its place.
So much like her father.
Rachel sighed. She shook that thought out of her head and unread focused on what was at hand.
Bouncing Marie slightly on her hip, she told the three year old, "Go play in your room kiddo, I'll be with you in a minute." She put her down on the floor and she skipped over to her room with new enthusiasm, waving at Rachel with a childish grin on her face before shutting the door.
Rachel chuckled and then sighed. And so much like her mother, too.
She could feel the rising anxiety coming off Starfire in waves walking to her door, the intensity rising as well. She knocked lightly.
"Star? Can I come in?"
"Yes." Came the curt reply.
Rachel opened the door and stepped in, closing the door silently behind her. She turned around to see Starfire pacing back and forth, looking so stressed and annoyed at herself that it propelled her to pace faster, going too fast for a human.
"Star, come here," Rachel said, sitting down on the bed. Said person sighed and sat down next to the other woman.
"I don't know what to do Rae," she said, looking flustered and stressed.
"How about you start from the beginning and then we go from there?" Rachel suggested, waiting for the other to begin.
Starfire looked over to her, her smile teasing. "From the very beginning?"
Rachel just rolled her eyes. "Quit stalling and tell me Starfire."
Realizing her attempts to stall weren't working (when have they ever worked on her, she thought to herself), she sighed and nodded.
"Fine. From the very beginning."
~*WAYN*~
Kori's POV:
"… and now here we are, with me freaking out and mentally kicking myself for even saying that, nevertheless to him. The one person I vowed to myself that I'd never tell." I looked next to me and sighed. "Well, one of the four people I vowed I'd never tell. That definitely failed on me, didn't it?"
Meanwhile, Raven was quiet the entire time listening to my current issue, only nodding every once in a while to let me know she was still listening. When she finally spoke, it was simple what she said.
"It wasn't your fault."
I had been looking at the door, listening to make sure Marie wasn't trying to eavesdrop on mommy and Auntie Rae. She's tried it before. Once I heard those words I had whipped my head towards Raven, confused.
"What?"
"You heard me," she just said, looking at me. This just made me even more confused.
"Care to elaborate Raven?"
"Simple. It's not your fault you told him that. Repressed, bottled up feelings like that and held down for as long as you've been keeping them were bound to come back up sooner or later. It just so happened that the person you talked all of those feelings to was Robin. Something triggered you to open up and confess it all to him, and from what you told me, it was because of how he is with Marie, how easily he fits into her life and how he acts like the potential father he can be whenever he's around her. As long as you don't give him a reason to suspect who you really are, all that you told him will pass through his head as you being a single mother by choice that had her child at sixteen. Nothing more, nothing less. You'll be fine Star, stop freaking out over nothing."
I just stared at her, open mouthed. "Are you a psychiatrist?"
Raven chuckled at that. "Oh no, it's just these empathy powers doing that. I'd never be able to deal with all the emotions and jumbled up troubled thoughts that job brings on a daily basis. I can barely keep up with all of you."
I just laughed at that. That was true; we were a pretty weird group. We stayed quiet for a few seconds, just thinking to ourselves, before Raven spoke.
"So," She said, breaking the silence with what I already knew she was going to say and what I dreaded to be faced with.
"What are you going to do now?"
I know I know, it's a filler chapter and it's not enough after the incredibly long wait I made you guys suffer through, but next chapter is going to be better, trust me. :)
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