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Ok so I'm mostly done editing the next chapter and I possibly may have no. 19 up by the end of next week, and chapter 20 is in the works right now and should be finished by… the second week of June?
I'm incredibly sorry for the wait people, but hectic life = hectic schedule = no time for anything. This is a small one, I'll admit that, but there was no other way to cut this humongous thing I had written without giving you guys a bigger cliffhanger than it already has. I promise no. 19 is gonna be bigger than this, and that it's gonna come out very soon!
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Chapter 18
~*2 weeks later*~
"Star, we should tell Gary about all of this."
I just looked at her blankly. I can't say I didn't expect it, that I wasn't just waiting for her to bring it up, but if I'm being honest, I don't know what she was expecting me to say.
"I don't know what you're expecting me to say."
She just sighed and started carding her hands through Marie's hair. I looked down, forgetting she was there. She had suddenly laid down on both of us while we were talking in our living room and promptly fell asleep, her head in Raven's lap and her feet in mine. She was out cold, since it was already noon, I realized. I took her hand in mine and just stroked it lightly, getting lost in how peaceful and calm she looked.
"Telling Gary would mean he'd tell Victor, and I honestly don't know if I'm ready for that," I told her truthfully, still looking down at my daughter. I glanced at her when I finished talking though, and to my surprise I saw her smiling.
"Star, that's why I'm saying we should tell him. He can't keep a secret from his best friend if it saved his life, and the more support you have the better. I know that you appreciate the help I'm giving you to protect you and Marie, but I alone can't help you completely. You'd have two more eyes on Marie keeping her safe, and right now we need all the help we can get. My magic is powerful, but not enough to do it all." she smirked suddenly, her expression turning knowing. "Plus, I know you miss them both. You can't deny it, I've seen how wistful you are whenever you think they can't see you." She patted my knee and toned down the smirk, changing it into a small smile. "You know they miss you too, you've seen how they get when someone mentions you. And yeah, they'll be a little upset with you —and me too, honestly— in the beginning, just like I was, but they'll get over it quickly. The fact that we miss you wins overall."
"But what if they tell Robin?" I whispered, looking at the ground as I said it. It's what's always plagued my mind, Robin finding out. And after that, the uncertainty of how he would react. He's not the same teenager I fell for years ago, he's different now, and even though I've been working with this new Robin for almost half a year, I honestly don't know that much about him. And that scares me.
"They won't tell him, trust me. They may not be able to hide secrets from each other, but from others they're champs at it. And even if they did, Robin wouldn't believe them." She rolled her eyes, "He has Starfire back now, remember?" The sarcasm clear in her tone.
My fury was renewed yet again at the mere mention of the current situation. I tried to contain it since it wouldn't be wise to do anything with Marie right in my lap. I must have not been doing a great job though, because a corner of Raven's lips quirked and she chuckled.
"There we go, there's the furious rebel inside of you." She pointed to her eyes, quirking her eyebrow. "You might want to put in some new contacts though, you got so furious that your eyes started to glow and they melted the contacts."
My eyes widened and I brought a hand up to my eyes, looking down at my daughter in my lap. Raven gently took her legs off my lap and gestured toward the bathroom.
"Go ahead, I've got her." I nodded gratefully and rushed to put more contacts back in.
Once I had gotten a hold of the little container, I leaned in front of the mirror to put them on. Instead of doing that though, I found myself just staring at my reflection, and my mind started racing.
When did I turn into this? Into this… scared, anxious shell of a person? I used to be fearless and always so happy, and I never shied from anything. How did I turn into this without even noticing it?
I lightly rested my hand under one of my eyes, just looking at myself. My glowing green eyes stared right back at me.
I stayed like that for some time before determination began taking over me. Determination that had my eyes glowing brighter than before. Leaving the contacts on the counter, I walked out the bathroom and into the living room, seeing Raven look up as soon as she heard me. She furrowed her brow slightly at the fact that I hadn't put in the contacts yet, bit didn't say anything.
"We're telling them both, at the same time." I looked down at Marie, who was now curled up in the spot I was sitting in moments ago. "But first we're telling Marie."
Raven's eyes widened. "Star, are you sure? That's huge but—"
"I know and I don't care, she deserves to know that she was right about Starfire and I being one and the same." I smiled slightly before getting back on track.
"Let's do this," I murmured, walking over to the couch and shaking her gently awake.
"Marie, c'mon wake up sweetheart," I told her, a small smile starting on my face when she grumbled and moved away from me in an effort to sleep more.
"Baby, come on, get up," I encouraged. "I have a surprise for you" I sing-sang, smirking when she finally sat up.
"Momma? What's the surprise?" She said sleepily, rubbing at her eyes with tiny fists.
"Open your eyes and you'll see," I said, looking over to Raven. Her expression was somewhere in between impressed and proud, and she just nodded in Marie's direction. I nodded back and turned just in time to see her open her eyes. The first thing she saw was me, and immediately her eyes narrowed. She reached out a little hand to touch my face and her head titled to the side.
"Mommy, your eyes are green," she stated. The question in her eyes was clear. Why?
I chuckled. "Yes honey, they're green. Want to know why?"
Marie nodded seriously, still looking into my eyes.
"You have to promise me and Auntie Rae that you'll keep this a secret okay? You can't tell anyone. Not even your friends or anyone at daycare okay? Especially not Mr. Richard, alright?"
She nodded but her brow furrowed at the mention of Robin's name. "Why not Mr. Richard mommy?"
"Because he will find out about it later, okay?" Another nod.
I turned to Raven and smirked. "What do you think Rachel? Should we tell her?" Marie also turned to her and nodded frantically, bringing out the puppy eyes for emphasis. I held back a giggle.
Raven smirked back. "I think we should Kori." She replied, playing along. I nodded and directed my attention back to my daughter, who was looking at both of us pleadingly. I gestured for her to come closer to me and I leaned in to whisper in her ear.
"I am Starfire."
What happened next was a blur of black hair running all over the living room and endless squealing. After a while she managed to stop bouncing around enough to look at me, her beaming smile lighting up her face.
"Can I see mommy can I see pleeeeeaase?"
I smirked and closed my eyes, focusing on the power that had been dormant for so long. I hadn't used them since I went into hiding, and it just felt so nice to do it.
I heard muffled squeals and I grinned, opening my eyes again and looking down to see Raven holding Marie in her lap while I hovered a few feet in the air in front of them. Raven was grinning, and sent me an approving nod, something akin to pride in her eyes. But I could also see the underlying negative emotions just beneath the surface.
The apprehension, the worry, they were constantly there, just tucked away far enough away from prying eyes. I know that the same thing occurs to me, and instead of focusing on them and spending time making myself miserable with the possibilities of whatever could go wrong, I just tucked them far away and smiled back, directing my attention to the here and now, where Raven and I were left to deal with an overly excited three year old.
I hovered down to look Marie in the eye and kept my grin in place, crouching in midair. "So, what do you think Marie?"
"My mommy is Starfire!"
I laughed, throwing my head back, and Raven grinned, chuckling at Marie as she caught her in a hug. I came back down to the floor and ended up hugging them both, Raven and I laughing and Marie mumbling "my mommy is Starfire" under her breath.
THERE IT IS WHAT DID YALL THINK
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