Chapter 3

I woke up in the sunflower room with someone lying right next to me. I looked and saw that it was Ivan. I sighed a little bit and then everything came back to me all at once. I looked down and saw that I was still completely naked and then I looked over at Ivan and saw that he too was in the nude. What happened after I blacked out? Did he? No he couldn't have that would be so unfair.

"Доброе утро Kanada."

"Good morning Ivan, what exactly happened when I passed out in the shower?"

"You fell before I could catch you. When I picked you off I carried you to the room so I could dry you off and put you to bed.

"Oh, well thank you Russia." He gave me a look saying that he didn't like me calling him that.

"Matvey, what we said in the shower did you really mean it? Would you really go out with me?"

"Of coarse Ivan, I would never lie about something like that."

"Well it's just that when I tried to open up to other before they took advantage of me."

"Is that why you keep to yourself? Is that why you always have Vodka near you? So that if you keep to yourself no one will be able to hurt you and if someone does hurt you, you drink Vodka to numb yourself. And if that's true is that why the Baltic nations are scared of you because you get angry when you drink?"

"Da, not only that. I drink the Vodka because of my nightmares that I have every night. The nightmares of what Russia has done without my permission and I, Ivan feel as if I have betrayed myself."

"It's ok Ivan." I go over to comfort him. "I can honestly say I know how you feel."

"How does my Matvey know my pain?"

"I'm never noticed and when I am it's only because there is something someone needs me to do. I feel like that doll that everyone has but they don't play with unless they absolutely have to and it hurts because even then the doll is hardly played with." I say fighting the tears that are making there way to my eyes.

"Aw Matvey don't cry. I'm sorry if I would have known you felt that way I would have talked to you sooner to save you from those scares you caused yourself."

"My scars….. You knew they were self inflicted?"

"At first I thought they were just battle scars until I heard your story. The battle scars are the smallest aren't they?"

"Yes they are." Regrettably a tear streams down my face. Warm hands cup my face as his thumb wipes the tear away. Our eyes meet and he kisses me gently on the lips.

"I love you Matvey and I don't want anything to ever happen to you again self inflicted or not, I won't allow it."

"I love you too Ivan and I don't want you to feel like you need to keep to yourself anymore. That also means you can't have any alcoholic drinks to numb yourself either." We smiled at each other as he leaned down for another kiss. This time the kiss deepened and I/ we finally felt whole again.

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Yea for short depressive chapter ^.^ I don't know when but soon Ivan and Matthew will do the boom boom pow. I want you all to think back to the prologue. Now that you thought back to it I forgot to say that I made myself cry writing it. It was that depressive to me.

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