"IVAN WHAT IS THIS MESS?" I point angrily at a cupboard.

He looks in the cupboard and says "Nothing."

"NOTHING? You call that nothing? That is not nothing that is nasty things that kill you faster. I will not allow them in the house no matter what you say." Ivan just chuckled at me. "What's so funny?" I almost scream

"Nothing it's just that you sound like a wife nagging at her husband. It's funny, Da?"

"I suppose it is…Hey, what are you implying?"

"I'm not implying anything I was just stating the fact that you are acting like a woman. Which is really cute and it makes me just want to hug you too keep you safe and warm." That made me blush a little and I forgot that I was angry at him for a moment. When Ivan reached for the items in the cupboard I flipped.

"What the hell do you think you are doing?"

"I'm going to dispose of the things that make Matvey sad." I didn't reply, I knew words weren't needed all I needed to do was walk up to him. "Matvey…" Without further words from Ivan I gave him a hug and cried into his big strong chest, which did in fact make me feel safe and warm. He didn't say anything he just held me there until I broke the embrace.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to….I mean…I- I just can't keep myself together right now." With that I ran off into the Sunflower room crying like a baby. After a couple of hours I heard Ivan ascend the stairs.

"Matvey, come with me please. I want to take you somewhere."

"Where would we be going?"

"It's a surprise."

"Alright I'll get ready." Even though I was still depressed I figured it would be good to go out and maybe take my mind off of it. I put on my clothes from the other day and headed to the kitchen where I knew Ivan would be. "I'm ready." I said with a sad tone in my vice.

"Is my Matvey still upset? We don't have to go if you don't want to."

"I'll be alright." He nodded and then led us to his car. He was driving for quite some time and then I began to recognize things. He was taking me home. "Ivan, why are you taking me home?" My voice cracked a little bit thinking that he was going to ditch me.

"Don't worry Matvey I'm taking you home so you can get a couple changes of clothes and Kumajiro's bed so he doesn't have to sleep on the floor anymore."

"Oh Kuma I forgot about him. Did he get fed? Where did he sleep? Is he alright? Do you have any food out for him? If you don't have any food out for him he will tare apart your kitchen…."

"It's alright." Russia said cutting me off, "I have enough food out for him to eat and last night he slept in my room." I sighed in relief. The only thing that bugs me is that I never forget about him. Normally Kuma is on my mind 24/7 mainly because he is normally the only one to notice me and because he has been my companion for years.

When we got to my house I invited Ivan inside to look around while I was packing some clothes. I know I don't want to go home after the meeting Monday so I made sure I packed another weeks' worth of clothes and grabbed Kuma's bed off of the floor. After I changed my clothes I walked into my kitchen I saw Ivan looking at the knife I used to try and kill myself multiple times. Did he know that it was the knife that almost punctured my heart? Did he know that, that knife was the very same one that I used to cut my wrists (down the street)? Did he know that it was my favorite knife and I would never part from it because it was full of so many memories, even if they were bad ones? No, he wouldn't be able to know there are no signs of it being anything other than a regular kitchen knife.

"Are you ready Matvey?" I jumped a little bit; I didn't expect to hear his voice.

"Yeah, I'm ready let's go."

"Matvey," he called my name with a loving tone.

"Yes Ivan."

"Don't ever use this knife again for anything other than cutting steak." I just froze for a minute. How did he know? Did I tell him? "Come on we are going to be late." I followed like an obedient dog to catch up with him.

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Just so everyone knows this is Saturday evening in the story. I apologize for my short chapters. I also apologize for not having much of anything going on but that might change in the next chapter. Thank you everyone who has been reading this I appreciate it.

Love, DarkenedAngel95