"Where are you Ivan?" I called out Russia's name multiple times and there was no reply. I searched everywhere in my house except the kitchen. When I walked into the kitchen Ivan was there. "Ivan there you are. Why didn't you answer me when I called you?" He still didn't reply. "Answer me, please Ivan answer me. Why are you ignoring me?" I begin to cry. "GOD DAMN IT NOTCIE ME!" there was still no reply. "Why won't you notice me? Why doesn't anyone know I exist? Please someone notice me." I fall to the floor bawling and Ivan stands up. "Ivan?" But he just ignores me and walks right past me to all the other countries that have gathered into my house.

"You need to cut yourself to be noticed. You need to commit suicide to be noticed. Remember that's the only way you can be remembered."

"Who are you? Why are you telling me this?"

"Because it's the truth. Remember that mark above your heart? You had to self inflict that to gain someone who would notice you."

"I promised Ivan that I wouldn't do it again." I felt fresh tears well up in my eyes.

"He doesn't care anymore. As you can see he is happy over there with everyone else who doesn't notice you. Not even your own fathers and brother notice you. Come on injure yourself so people will care." I slowly stand with tears still streaming down my face. I wondered what would happen. Would they really notice me this time? What if this was the last time they would ever care? Would Ivan still be there even though I'm going to break my promise? Why did he leave me? Why do I need to be painted in blood for other to notice me? Why do I need to be masochistic to be noticed? With all those questions in mind my tears began to grow bigger and it seemed as if my eye were replaced with waterfalls.

Through blurry eyes I grab my favorite knife. The only friend that cares about me no matter what I do. I bring the sliver object to my arm and look around. "No one notices me yet." I say in my head. I begin to cut my wrist. Across the street I go and no one sees me. Then I begin to cut deep. This time I cut down the street. My blood gushing out with each heart beat. Still no one sees me. I re-open old scars and no one sees me. What wrong with me? Am I really that pathetic that no one even cares to notice me? I start to feel woozy at the blood loss. I look at Ivan, Alfred, Francis, and Arthur. None of them were looking at me nor were they looking my way. I fall to the floor because I can no longer keep my balance.

I crawled to where everyone stood, a blood trail following me. My blood that was a dark thick red is now becoming thinner and thinner. It now looked like an orange marker was dipped in water. The rusty copper smell and taste filled the air and still no one noticed. "I love you Russia." I could feel my body going limp and growing colder. Just before I closed my eyes Ivan looked at me and tears started to stream down his face. "I'm sorry Matvey." He whispered and before I could give a weak smile I went into total darkness and I felt as if I was falling.

My leg twitched and I jolted awake. I began to cry when I realized it was all a dream. It was so real; I could feel the blade against my skin and the blood flow from my body. I could feel my body grow cold and limp and it just felt so real.

"Is Matvey ok?" I nodded with tears in my eyes.

"It was just a bad dream."

"That was not just a 'bad dream' it was something more."

"I'll tell you when we get home." He didn't say anything more. After a few minutes of silence I started to talk. "Don't ever forget me."

"I would never forget you Matvey. Where did this come from all of a sudden?"

"In my dream you forgot about me and I had to die and say your country name for you to even look at me."

"That would never happen."

"Promise?"

"I promise I will never forget you." I leaned in and gave him a kiss on the cheek. A blush crept upon both of our faces. A few seconds later he pulls us into a parking lot and we start to get out. It didn't take me long to realize where we were at.

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YAY two chapters uploaded in one day. My inspiration is back, will it last? I don't know read to find out. Oooooh please review peoples I would like to know what you think about the story. And I still apologize about the short chapters.

Love, DarkenedAngel95