Authors note: I am so sorry for taking a million years to update. There's been a lot going on and who knows if people are still reading this but if so, I'm so sorry! I'll update more often I promise!
Dan was worried. Scratch that, he was fucking terrified. Phil didn't come back in the morning. Or afternoon. And still wasn't back by evening. He hadn't answered any of Dan's calls or texts and that wasn't like Phil at all. Especially when Dan was in the hospital.
Dan sighed frustratedly as he hung up the phone for what seemed to be the hundredth time he heard his lover's voicemail.
"Phil will be okay sweetie.. He's probably just asleep..." Diane, Dan's mother, said in an attempt to calm her baby boy's nerves.
"If that's the case, he's been asleep for over 24 fucking hours." Dan replied.
Diane sighed before kissing his forehead and stepping into the hall while Dan checked his texts for the hundredth time.
She dialed Phil's number and got voicemail yet again, but this time, she left a message. "Phil Lester, I know this is hard for you to see Dan like this, but if you think it's hard, you try being in my position. I raised that sweet boy from a baby and now I have to face the fact that my darling boy will leave the world before me. I am his mother. You are his boyfriend, and he needs you. If you're going around doing things so get your mind off it, fine. I get it. But if you hurt my baby, I will hurt you a thousand times worse, and if you don't get here soon, I will kick your ass."
"Listen.. Charlie. I fucked up. I was unfaithful. I'm sorry I did this to you, but I can't stay. I need to get back to Dan. MY Dan, that is laying in the hospital. Please. Give me my phone so I can leave." Phil pleaded.
"No! You always do this!" Charlie sobbed while holding a death grip on Phil, and his phone. "What does that freak have that I don't?! If it weren't for you, he would've been dead a long time ago. You deserve someone you don't have to take care of.. Not some depressed charity case like him."
Phil lost it. He screamed profanities like there was no tomorrow because for Dan, there might not have been.
After Phil finished yelling and was just a mess, he curled up on the bed and sobbed. He sobbed for the fact that after six years, he slept with a man other than Dan. That he promised Dan his love and ruined it. That he would never see Dan walk down the isle with that big smile on his face. That he would never see Dan hold their child for the first time. That he would never grow old with the person he loved most.
Phil sobbed until he had no energy. He passed out not caring where he was or what would happen to him. Charlie pitied him. 'Why would such a great man end up with such a fuck up?' He thought. He smirked. He already had Phil's phone, what difference would it make if he send Dan a little message of what Phil actually thought of him?
He clicked the texts from Dan and read all of them. Pathetic. He began typing, letting every emotion out.
'Dan. I can't do this. Why the hell would I want to date you? The only reason I'm still here is cause I felt bad for you. You ruined my life. You're just a fuck up and I'm glad you're getting what you deserve. I can't date a cancer patient. You're going to die anyway, why put myself in that position? Plus, it's not like I'm getting any. Where do you think I've been? I'm at a real man's house and he has shown me what real pleasure is. Have a good life! Well.. What's left of it.
- Phil .'
And send.