Chapter 20

Thank you for all the reviews and couples feedback!

Of course I'm going to keep on updating this story, I took my time with this chapter. To be honest I was a little afraid to post it lol

Someone said in the reviews that Adrian's being indecisive but I don't really think so, I think she is trying to protect herself and give her heart time to make the right decision for her. Someone that has dealt with major heartache would take their time.

Adrian POV

When I get home I go to my room and change out of my dress into a t-shirt and a pair of jeans. When Omar gets to the house my parents let him in and he comes up to my room.

He gives me a big hug and a kiss.

I ask, "I thought you were too busy with your meetings to come?"

He replies, "That was last night, I'm here for you now. I couldn't spend another minute away from you."

I say, "Yeah, you sure rushed over here when you got the chance. How'd your meeting go?"

He says, "Please don't be like that, I'm just following my dreams and wanting to take care of us. Make things easy for us when we have a family. Work hard now so I can have more time with you in the future."

I say, "Okay, I understand."

He says, "I'm going to take a quick shower and then sleep for a while because I was working on stuff during my flight and didn't get any rest. Do you want to join me?"

I say, "I'm actually exhausted and need some rest because I don't feel well."

He gives me a kiss on the cheek and says, "I'm sorry, hope you feel better. Do you need anything before I go?"

I say, "No."

I lay in bed and I have this guilty feeling take over, I know I should tell him about last night but I can't bring myself to do it. Omar is a great guy and he may love me more than any guy. I don't want to hurt him but I'm still in love with Ben. Everything with Ben feels so right but I'm too afraid to give up Omar and what if things don't work out with Ben again. What if we suffer another tragedy that tears us apart? All of these things have run through my mind constantly. What if we lost Mercy because we weren't meant to be together? The hardest part of losing a loved one is the fear of losing again. I don't think I could survive if that happened to us again or if I lost Ben. Fear is so powerful that it keeps you from actually living.

I fall asleep as tears roll down my cheek.

I wake up close to dinner time because I need to shower and get ready.

When I get out of the shower, I get dressed and go back to my bedroom.

Omar is awake now and he says, "Now that we've had some rest we need to talk."

I say, "About what? Did something happen at your meeting with Chris?"

He says, "That's what I needed to talk to you about, a huge corporation is interested in my software and to get it started my partners want me to spend a year in Florida. Starting in January, the money offered is life changing."

I say, "I already moved to New York, I'm not going to Florida. I have college."

He says, "We will be married soon, can't you just take one year off college or we can find a college there for a year?"

I start to cry and say, "How fair is that to me? I didn't want to live in New York in the first place! I want to be here with my friends and family. Here where I can go visit Mercy at the cemetery when I feel like talking to her!"

He says, "I'm sorry Adrian, I never thought of that. I can't pass this up, we can be together and do the long distance thing and I will visit every chance I get."

I say, "I need some time to think about all this, but I already made plans to meet with Amy and Grace for dinner tonight. I will be back later."

I leave to meet them at the restaurant; we get a booth in the corner so we have more privacy. They notice right away that something is wrong with me.

Grace asks, "What's wrong?"

I say, "Where do I start? First up I'm still in love with Ben, I love Omar, I slept with Ben last night, and Omar is going to spend a year in Florida working."

Grace says, "Wow, why are going to marry Omar?"

I say, "Because Ben and I had our chance and look what happened to us. If something like that happened like that again, I couldn't deal with it. Maybe we aren't meant to be and that was the universe's way of telling us. Someday I'm sure I can love Omar the same way I love Ben."

Amy says, "Sad and unexplainable things happen but fate wouldn't be that cruel. I don't think that would happen again. I understand your fears, but don't let it dictate your life."

Grace says, "I agree, you deserve to be happy."

I say, "I can be happy with Omar, we were happy before. I just need to let go of Ben once and for all."

Amy says, "Letting go of someone you love that deeply is nearly impossible."

I say, "I know but I don't want to risk bad things happening again."

Grace asks, "Maybe you should talk to Dr. Fields about these feelings?"

I say, "Maybe… Anyways, enough talk about me. What's going on with you two?"

Amy says, "When I was packing stuff the other day Ricky was in the butcher shop apartment talking to Clementine. It just makes me a little uneasy because I know he is attracted to her and she wants him so bad."

I say, "He isn't going to do anything with her, if he really wanted to be with her he would of when you left or at least when you started seeing Jay."

Grace says, "Yeah I agree with that too."

Amy asks, "So what's going on with you Grace?"

We spend a couple hours at dinner just chatting about different stuff; it really helped take my mind off of everything I'm going through.

After we leave I get in my car and text Ben

Amy POV

I spend a couple hours at dinner with Grace and Adrian and when I realize it's starting to get late I tell them I better get home. Yesterday I was a little upset with Ricky about the whole Clementine thing with her coming around but I'm going to just let it go. We have been back and forth trying to make the other break on our no sex deal. Last night I wore a teddy to bed and he couldn't sleep the whole night, he was tossing and turning.

But he still didn't give in, so I'm wondering who is going to win this bet.

When I get home and go in our bedroom Ricky is still wet from the shower with just a towel wrapped around his waist. His tone chest is wet and so damn sexy, I want him so bad. He knows I'm staring at him so he smirks at me. He removes his towel to dry his back and chest then he throws the towel in the hamper. Then he puts on his boxer briefs while I'm just enjoying the show and trying not to drool.

Then he gets in bed with his back against the headboard so he can sit up and study.

He says, "It's kind of stuffy in here because of the heater, I think I will sleep in my boxers."

Two can play this game so I slowly take off my blouse and skirt, I'm left there in my blue lace bra and matching thong. I go through the dresser to pull out some nightwear. I make sure to search the bottom drawer to stick out my backside so he has a perfect view.

I can feel his eyes on me.

I turn around and he quickly looks away as if I don't know he was watching me.

I give him a devilish grin and say, "Well I need some special me time, and I'm going to take a nice long hot bath."

He looks like he wants to break.

His breath is a little shaky when he asks, "What kind of me time?"

I laugh and say, "Wouldn't you like to know?"

I sit on top of his lap and I can instantly feel his erection, I give him a quick soft kiss on the lips. I start kissing the side of his face along his jaw line and then to his neck.

He lets out a growl.

I say, "That's all for now honey, not until I'm Mrs. Underwood."

I'm about to get up and he pulls me back down and says, "You can't do this to me!"

We start kissing passionately.

He tears off my panties; I'm out of breath and so horny but I have to stop this.

I say, "No, we can't. I haven't had my birth control shot and I threw away all of our condoms so we would have to wait until our wedding night."

He says, "I know I noticed last night when you were teasing me, so this afternoon after work I bought some."

I say, "Ricky! You are supposed to support this decision."

He says, "Baby, I support you. You might be saying you don't want to do this but your body is telling me otherwise."

I say, "Yes, you did this on purpose being in here all wet and naked Ricky."

He kisses my forehead and says, "Fine, if you want to wait we don't have to do anything. You won this battle but no more teasing because I can't take anymore."

I giggle and say, "It's a truce and no more teasing."

I place myself in his arms with my head resting on his shoulder. He looks down into my eyes and says, "You are so beautiful Amy."

I smile and say, "You are so handsome."

He pushes the hair out of my face and gives me a sweet kiss.

Ben POV

When I woke up in the morning Adrian was gone, last night was the best night I've had in a long time. I woke up inspired so I decided to get up and do some writing on a new novel I recently had an idea for. After writing a few chapters I decide to text Adrian.

I say, "I hope you are doing alright."

She replies, "Sorry didn't mean to leave without saying anything, Omar called when I had woken up and I didn't have time to say bye. I am doing alright"

I don't reply because I really don't know what to say. I think to myself she had to feel what I felt last night. Although maybe she didn't feel the same. She didn't even wake me up to tell me that she was leaving.

A few hours later after dinner…

Adrian texts me again, "We need to talk I'm outside your house."

I say, "I'll be right out."

Once I get in her car she says, "Ben I'm sorry about last night, it was a mistake. We had our chance and it wasn't meant to be. We will be friends but we can't drink together again and of course we should hang out in public places so there is no temptation."

I say, "Wow, you are still going to marry Omar after all this. I'll be here if you ever need anything but we can't be the kind of friends you want to be. Yes, we had our chance but there are second chances, the heart wants what it wants. I know you felt the same way I did last night."

She says, "I know but I'm doing this for us. I'm trying to save us from more heartache."

I open the car door to get out and before I leave I look into her eyes and say, "I don't think there is anything that can hurt more than a life without you."

As I'm getting out of the car she says, "I'm so sorry Ben."

4 more chapters till the season finale! I'm excited to role with the ideas I have. Got some big stuff coming up in this story. Thanks for all your support and reviews, it really means a lot! Updates will come faster with reviews left :)) Have an amazing weekend!