Jade

"When is mamá, coming home?" Cadence asked, "Did she go on tour again?"

I looked at my eldest and frowned. "Soon." I stated. It had been two weeks since she had that stupid accident. Holly has seen her, Trina has seen her, and David has seen her… My daughters and I… well I'm not allowed. Holly, David and I have tried to get the girls to see them, but the doctors stated that it would be tough on the girls because their precious mamá can't remember them. Laila and Carolina were too young to understand and would overwhelm Tori.

Cadence sighed and came up to me and wrapped her arms around me. "I wish she were here." She mumbled. "Our birthday is so much more fun when she's home."

I smiled, "You don't think you'll have fun with Aunt Trina?" I asked. My sister-in-law has been awesome through all of this. I almost like her now… Almost.

"HELLOOOOO!" There was a voice at the door. Well speak of the devil. "Is it someone's birthday today?"

Cadence smiled and went toward the front door and I went back to trying to get Laila dressed so that they could go on their beauty day and let me sulk alone about how to get to have a birthday without Tori.

"She's having memory flashes," Trina stated from behind me. I turned to face her. "Like in her sleep she dreamt about when Kay was born… and how she was in an incubator."

"What did you tell her?" I asked turning to her.

She looked into the living room where the girls were getting ready and came closer. "I asked her who she thought the baby was, she just changed the subject and said it was just a vivid dream nothing more."

I sighed and kind of slumped down against the counter. "Nothing about me?"

"Maybe she is embarrassed… she's supposed to be with Andre," Trina stated. I ran my fingers through my hair and gripped at it. It was already getting thick from pregnancy. "How are you feeling?"

I turned my head toward her and shook it. "I was spotting this morning, I think I am too stressed."

Trina placed a tentative hand on my shoulder blade. "I'm sorry,"

"What's one less little girl huh?" I stated, and it broke my heart. My face crumbled and I actually cried. Trina held on to me.

"It's gonna be okay." She whispered. "Go pamper yourself and relax… have a happy birthday."

"I miss my wife."

"I know… I miss her too."

Trina took the girls and they decided to stay at her house the entire weekend. I did go to the doctor, and I was again placed on bed rest for a week. My phone rang at around nine that night of my birthday. "Hello?" I answered.

"Jade?" My uterus contracted at the sound of my wife's voice.

I almost hissed in pain as my stress meter shot up. I muted the TV and sat up slightly. "Tori?"

"Yeah… um I heard it was your birthday… From Entertainment Tonight?"

"You still watch that show?" I asked with a smirk on my lips.

"It's a good show." Then she was quiet for a little while like she didn't know what to say. "Happy Birthday."

"Thank you."

There was a sigh at the other end of the line. "I want to take you out, will you come out?"

"Tori I can't." I said.

"What are you already in bed?" She said with a chuckle.

I looked around. "I am."

"Come on, get out of bed! You just turned twenty Seven, not a hundred and seven."

"I can't… " I stated. I really wanted to jump out of bed and go to her, but our baby was too small to withstand a whole lot of walking, she was on the verge of exiting my body as it was. Her placenta detached.

"I'm coming over…" She stated.

"I'm okay with that… you might need some of your things." I stated as a matter of fact.

She was silent again. "I live with you?"

"For the past Ten years." I stated.

"Wow…" She stayed quiet.

"You sleep with your boyfriend yet?" I asked venomously.

"Oh Jade…" She moaned at the other end of the phone. "I did… I thought it would make it better, but he was avoiding me and he was drunk. I just needed to be held and I kind of forced the issue."

"I'm sure he really fought you off." I said through gritted teeth.

Jade I was so sure sex would totally jog my memory; I couldn't believe I had been with him for ten years and have never actually been with him. But then, when we woke up the next day… he freaked out and left, I think he's gay!"

I didn't know whether to laugh or cry. So I kind of did both. "Andre is not Gay… You are."

"What?"

"It didn't get better Tori… because you used him… and now he's dead because I'm going to kill him."

"What?"

"You can't seriously… Oh my God I'm gonna kill him."

"JADE! Explain yourself." Tori stated.

I took a deep breath. "We were not supposed to overwhelm you with information. You and I have been married for Ten years. We have… Three … maybe four daughters who miss you like crazy by the way."

"Maybe four?"

"I am pregnant with our fourth child… I am also on bed rest. This whole situation… Has me a little stressed apparently."

"My god… I can't… Stop please." She plead with me. I complied and listened to her incoherent rambling… the only thing I did get was. "No wonder he wouldn't touch me. But he told me he loved me…"

"Andre has been in love with you for years, but… he's our friend..." I stated. "Well, your friend."

"I'm coming home… I want to see the girls."

"Tori… They are not here… I can't take care of them."

"I'm coming home," she whispered… "How do I get there?"