Jade

The next morning, I woke up The smell of Tori cooking, I didn't smell coffee… right cause she wouldn't make me coffee…because she doesn't know I like coffee… almost as much as I love her.

I had to pee, so I sat up. But as soon as my foot touched the floor, Tori was in there. "Babe, what are you doing?" She put the trey she had down and ran over to me.

"I have to take a wazz." I said as she helped me up out of bed. I wondered if she knew about her friend. Her Mami. I would think she would have said something. She came to me and helped me into the bathroom. Then quickly left the room closing the door behind her. sure…she was affected, but that bulge in her pants never came up, and I would have been able to tell because she was wearing yoga pants.

"I got you breakfast!" She said from the other side. "I am not sure if you are the one that likes Pancakes or if it is the girls, but I made some just in case."

I finished what I needed to do and I flushed and watched my hands as I listened to her ramble on about breakfast. But my brain won't even allow me to concentrate on what she is saying, because I just realized either my girl isn't gay anymore… or something is wrong with her. "The four of us like pancakes." I finally answered as I stood by the door. "Thanks."

She stopped mid-ramble and sighed in relief, then came over to help me back to bed. "Great!" She stated. She looked at me a little pensive, "Does this happen to you a lot?"

"What? Bed rest?" I asked as I arranged myself on the bed ready to attach Tori's pancakes. " She nodded. I sighed and shook my head. "Only with Kay, but that was later. This is new."

"A messenger came this morning… and I took the package. He nearly passed out when I took it, but it was for you." Tori said handing me a big manila envelope.

It was a script, A big heavy script I could tell, it was either a movie or a couple of little scripts which meant a series. I looked at the name. It's the audition I had gone to before Tori's accident. I opened the package. There was a post-it on the first script. "Welcome Aboard Dr. Stone… Don't worry about the baby it's all good."

I laughed out loud. "Is it good news?" Tori asked.

"Big packages almost always mean good news." I said to her. "I need to go to the doctor today, see about getting a circlage… you should come, check yourself out." I stated because I had a feeling I wasn't going to like the reason why my Mami didn't come out to play today.

"Yeah, I…" She bit her lip. Maybe Mami did come out to play, Maybe Tori isn't having a lady issue; which is the only reason Mami would hide.

"Spit it out Vega!" I said anxious to hear what she hand in her head.

"I think I may have forgotten how to… be with another woman." Tori kind of whispered and I was taken aback. Because, truthfully that was something I would never in my life have considered. Tori was so good at it. "Why are you looking at me like that?" she asked.

I guess I was staring, I blinked and looked away. "It will come naturally, but you and I can't be together like that for a little while so don't worry." I reassure her.

"Why not?" She asked, almost looking alarmed, and I didn't know if this desperation was because she really wanted to be with me, or because she wanted to force herself to remember. "You know… we have the rest of our lives right?"

"Tori… You will remember before you touch me." I stated. "I don't want to be a catapult. I want to be your wife. I will be that in every way but that one."

She looks at me, really looks at me. Her eyes linger in all of the same places that they always did, but it wasn't the same. It was almost vacant. She doesn't find me attractive. Did she knock the gay out of her? Is that possible? Then she said it. "What if… What if I'm not gay anymore?"

I didn't think that would hurt but it did. It was one thing for me to think it, it was quite another for her to say it. I pushed the pancakes away I was no longer hungry. "I'm… Going to go shower for my appointment."

"Wait, Isn't it Saturday?" She asked reaching out to me to help me up.

"Well I'm not in shape to argue that fact with our daughter." I stated and clamped my mouth shut.

"What makes you so sure this baby is a girl too?" Tori asked as she let me go at the threshold of the bathroom.

"Genetic predisposition." I answered and closed the door in her face. I wasn't about to change because she couldn't actually remember what a gank I am. She will fall in love with the real me.

Pregnant… I couldn't help but laugh when she got that stupid result. Now Tori is crying like a fucking baby and I have to drive us home. I'm supposed to be rational and forget the fact that my wife slept with someone else and live on.

"You know you can always take care of that," I stated bitterly.

Tori looked at me then down at her belly then back at me. "Have I ever done this before?"

That caught me by surprise and I looked at her once we stopped at the red light. "No."

"I don't think I'd ever get to have another chance…" She said looking out of the window. She wants to have a baby, she has never… has she? She never seemed to want to do this before. She never suggested it. "I'm just sad that I cheated…"

"You didn't … not really, " I said softly ready to go back to bed as I was starting to cramp up again.

"Jade, pull over, I'm done crying."

"You don't know the way home." I growled.

"Shut up and pull over." Tori said. I blinked. I guess the initial shock is over… she is reacting a lot like I did with Cadence. So now I guess she is literally thinking about how this baby could fit in our lives. Seriously it wouldn't be that hard. Except he or she would be a constant reminder of this stupid time of our lives, and of a friend I used to have.

I watched as she drove us home, while I gave her directions I noticed that she was automatically driving home. The last few turns I didn't say anything, and watched as she typed in our gate code and drove into the drive. "Don't things look different in the day light?'

"What?" she asked. She had done it instinctively like muscle memory.

"You remembered how to get home." I stated.

She looked shocked. "Yeah!" She smiled. Then she frowned. "I'm keeping this baby… I have a feeling… that's what your Tori would have done."

I nodded. "Probably… she would also be living alone." I stated stepping out of the car. Trina 's car was parked in our drive. There is chaos in the house once I opened the door. I saw Trina in the kitchen making something for the girls to eat. "Trina… I need one more day."

"MOM!" Laila said running up to me. Trina caught her before she could jump on me then handed her to me gently.

"Hi baby girl." I said to her and the other three came to hug me. "There is a surprise for you in the garage." I said sending them out there and turning to Trina.

"What happened at the Doctor? Where's Tori?" She started.

"Your sister is carrying a child I did not put in there… you talk to her, I'm going to bed." I stated walking past her and up toward my room.

"She What?" Trina said standing in the kitchen dumfounded.

Two hours later my three little girls came into my room and said goodbye to finish out their weekends at aunt Trina's. Apparently they had heard Tori was back and wanted to spend time with her.

Tori came up the stairs with some food Trina made, and I gagged. "Your sister is a terrible cook, I'm not eating that."

Tori smiled and set it aside and lay next to me in bed. "You knew I'd keep it."

"Tori, do you see how many children we have?" I shook my head, "It would have felt wrong to have an abortion. It doesn't change the fact that you slept with Andre and it's not the baby's fault."

She let out a sigh of relief; one of the millions of questions in her head has been answered. "Will you try with me? Can you be patient with me?"

"Tori," I said and I looked at her seriously. "divorce isn't an option. We can't make it an option or this isn't gonna work."

"What do you mean?" she asked.

"There are times when neither one of us wants to be in this marriage, but because before we got married, you made me promise that Divorce wasn't an option, we work through things and come out on the other side better than before. We can work through this." I said softly.

"How many times?" She asked.

I laughed. "I've lost count. Tori I love you and that has never changed." I turned to face her I needed to see her eyes as I said softly, "Now if you can no longer be with me because of this, you can tell me, I'll let you go."

This was the first time she reached out to me herself and held me and kissed me. "I'm sorry I slept with Andre." She whispered and kissed my face. My body responded with a shiver, and I reached out and touched her where I know she likes. She moaned out softly, and I bit my lip keeping myself from making this go any further. I pulled away.

"It's okay don't mention it anymore." I said and turned my back on her.

I felt her kiss my shoulder blade. Then she whispered. "Yup, I'm still gay."