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I stared at myself naked in the mirror. My belly round my nipples dark. Six months of the stupidest ailment, and I was still clueless about myself and my family. The label was ecstatic to find out that I was having Andre's baby. Andre nearly turned white.

I must admit it was funny to look at his face when I walked into the board room after being away from him for months. "What the?"

"Hey Andre." I said sitting next to him.

"Is it…"

"Your son, yeah… I have to admit it will be good to have some testosterone in my house." I whispered under my breath.

"My son…" he said dazed.

"Yeah." I stated

Just then, Gary from the label walked in. "Tori, so good to see you again. Wow, you've been busy."

"My wife and I have decided to expand our family." I stated letting him know I knew some about who I was.

"As long as you found a good donor, one that looks a lot like your friend here…"

"Wrong." Andre stated. "I don't want to lie anymore. That is taking it too far. We have never confirmed or denied a relationship, this pregnancy will not be an excuse to perpetuate a lie."

I looked at Andre and smiled. "I want to be out." I stated. "Makes my life simpler."

"And you discussed this with your wife? Because this will change her level of celebrity, and therefore the paparazzi becomes a bigger problem for her, and as I recall… she is not a fan."

I hadn't thought of that. Not at all. "I… will get back to you on that." I said. I don't know much about celebrity. I don't really remember. I have been followed by the Paps, but I never paid it any attention anymore.

"This brings us over to the Album. You have tour dates set for an album you will release in six months. I trust you don't need memory to sing songs." Gary said looking at me. I shook my head. "Maybe that will help jog your memory, we can't put it off any longer."

"Fine, but I live my life as I feel. I am not hiding anymore." I said.

Gary nodded. "The two of you are huge, something like this will just be media fodder and you will have to do a media tour about it eventually." Andre groaned I had a feeling this would be horrible.

I got home with the kids later that evening and Jade was already home. She was resting on the couch. She had brought home takeout, and I was so glad because that meant I didn't have to cook dinner.

We had fallen into a really great routine, and we did everything as we normally did it. Or so she said. Only she won't sleep with me. And I have a feeling that I need sexual healing. I snorted at the thought as I plopped down on to the couch next to her. Jade is seven months along, and she is so big. I still don't know anything about this donor. I don't know who it is. "Jade, who is our baby daddy?" I asked finally.

She looked at me with her brow furrowed. "How many dudes did you sleep with Tor?"

"What?"

"I thought it was Andre's baby." She answered.

I groaned. "Jade… I am talking about our little Amber over there."

It was Jade's turn to groan and just as she was about to open her mouth Cadence walked into the room. "Can Rory sleep over tonight?"

"No!" Jade said immediately.

"mom… why not?" Cadence whined.

"Rory wants…" Jade started.

"Jade, don't put the girl out like that." I said.

"What?" Cadence looked absolutely confused.

"Cadence, have you ever had a crush on someone?" jade asked bluntly causing our daughter to blush and stammer a yes. "Was it a boy or a girl?"

Kay looked at me then back at her Mom. "a girl…"

"Rory really likes you Cadence." I stated, "she can't sleep over. The two of you are only ten."

Kay looked freaked out. She didn't know her best friend loved her apparently. The look in her eye gave me pause. And I flashed on Jade. She used to insult, berate, and sometimes hurtful both physically and emotionally. When I came back around Jade was looking at me, "You remembered something." She said softly

I nodded and looked straight at her. "You hated me so much." I said softly.

She shook her head. "I was in love with you, and I hated feeling weak, so I lashed out."

Cadence wrapped her arms around herself a blush began to creep up her neck. Then she groaned and held her head in her hands. Jade focused her attention back on her. "she wasn't your crush." The girl shook her head. Then both Jade and I groaned.

"she's okay, I guess… but…Oh, that's why she's always looking at my boobs." I snorted and began to laugh. "mami, para!" she protested at me. This made Jade laugh. "forget this." She said and stomped away to her room.

"And it begins." Jade stated calming down.

"babe… I want to be your wife in public." I blurted, her smile lift her and my blood ran cold.

"What about the label?" she asked.

"They were fine with it. Only warned me that you might not like the increased attention."

Jade nodded and was thoughtful. "Lets do it."

I smiled and leaned in to kiss her. "what's my reward for remembering you?"

Jade smiled and wrapped her arms around me, kissing me. As she pulled me closer, we bumped bellies and she let me go. She's been hot and cold like that. I sighed and looked down. She got up and walked to the kitchen. I sighed too a heavy and frustrated sigh. "I Didn't know." I growled under my breath.

"But he, did." Sh said grabbing a mug from the cabinet.

"He was drunk!" I shouted.

"You should have been home." Jade screamed and threw the mug she hand been holding into the sink shattering it. I jumped a bit. Startled. "You should have never been made to believe he was your man. He knows you better than anyone, and he loves you more than anyone besides me. He wanted you for himself and he had you."

"Jade…" I said the stress of this argument getting to me again. Every time we did this I'd begin getting contractions. I never told her that, but it was happening again.

"You are a horny little nymph I should have known you'd figure out a way if you thought you were in a committed relationship with someone. You have no problem being physical if you have permission to be." She continued destroying our dishes in the sink. I think her rant has stopped being about Andre, and had turned to be more about my nature. She knows I wont cheat I refuse to but I will be intimate… what is wrong with that? I know that not being with her is killing me. "He was willing to fuck you so you fucked him simple as that."

A sharp pain went through me and there was a pop inside me. "Oh my god." I whispered. The clatter had gotten the girl's attention and they stood staring at Jade over the counter. "Jade… the girls." I groaned in pain.

She stopped and looked up at our teary girls she had been lost in her own rage. She took a deep breath. Then she looked at me. They all did because I'd just shrieked as a contraction gripped me and my water gushed out of me. "Tor?"

"It's too early, I…" I said not able to summon up the strength to fight for this little boy. Jade sprung into action calling out for my parents who lived close by. Dad would stay with the girls mom would come with her and I.

As she came out of the bedroom the front door opened and Dad walked in his face worried. "I suggest you get your ass to the hospital if you ever want to see this kid." Jade stated as she and mom helped me to the car. "I'll drive." Mom said.

Jade didn't argue she just sat in the back seat with me and held me. "Why didn't you say anything?" she whispered.

"you were in the middle of something." I whispered back.

"I'm sorry." She said.

"Seemed like you were having an epiphany." I snorted, "There is nothing wrong with wanting to be with the one you love. I thought he was that person. Everything happens for a reason. This little boy has a purpose."

Jade nodded and kissed my cheek. Then I was gripped with another contraction. "Too bad the water broke. Could have probably put you on bed rest." Jade stated regret on her features as she reached out and felt my rock hard belly.

It seemed like ages before they were helping me out of the car. Mom had gone to get a wheel chair and was there by the time Jade helped me out of the car. "Jade go park the car, you shouldn't be doing so much heavy lifting or you'll be in the bed right next door."

Jade nodded and kissed my lips in front of everyone at the emergency. Flashes of light around I smiled she smiled back at me and walked out to get the car. I looked around the emergency and people had their phones held up at me. I waved and Mom and the nurses rushed me away from prying eyes.

It wasn't a long wait. By the time Jade got to me in the labor room, The room was flooded with people, and I was pushing. This little guy was in a rush to come out. And oh my god it hurt like a bitch. Just then I remembered coaching Jade through Cadence's birth. Jade was so young. She was… I never thought… how… I couldn't think anymore. I had to push.