I started spending more time with Paul. I would meet up with him to do trigonometry revision and others times I would meet him to chat about what was on our mind or something like that. He was really good company. He was funny but was being serious at time when he wanted to be. The more time I spent with him, the more I felt this weird feeling toward Paul. I felt like I couldn't live without him. He was like my new best friend. What would I do without him? It was like we had a unique connection and nothing could break us apart. I was slowly starting to heal, because of Paul. I would be lost without him.

Over time, we started to get closer and closer. It was great. I think I was starting to fall for him, my best friend. We would occasionally hold hands or I would lean my head on his shoulder. He made me feel so alive. Teasing each other, it was fun. Then it hit me. Oh shit, I was falling for my best friend. I was falling for him hard. What do I do? How would he react? Should I tell him? Did he feel the same way? Ok, back up a sec Bella. Chillax. Calm down and just push it aside for now, unless he makes a move first.

"Yo Swan! You're in deep thought again. Stop thinking so much" he smirked.

"Haha real funny Paul. I was just thinking about something that's all"

"Swan, you think too much" he laughed.

Did he like me that way? My feelings for him grow more and more every time I see him. We were close. Sometimes I would glance at him and would find him glancing at me too. I would look away blushing. I really needed someone to talk about it, but who would I talk to? Mike is too sulky. I would never go to bitch 1 and bitch 2. Where's Alice when you need her? I sighed. Angela is too busy with her boyfriend Ben, so that's a no too.

Should I just go for it? Ah fuck it. I'm going to tell him how I feel. If he feels the same, I'm going to be jumping for joy inside. But if he doesn't I'll be disappointed but I'll deal with it. I blew out a breath I didn't realise I was holding.

I walked up to him and sat down on the edge of the cliff. I was nervous. My palms started to sweat. He seemed to be deep in thought. I nudged him.

"Now look who is thinking too much" I said teasingly. He didn't seem to hear me. I nudged him again.

"What's wrong Paul? Paul?" he looked at me with such a defeated look, it broke my heart.

I hated to see him like this. I grabbed his hands and started drawing circles with my thumb. It was the only comfort I could give him at the moment. He turned and glanced at me with a grateful look. I hesitated and let go of his hands, I missed the warmth already. I swung my legs back and forth with my hands pressed into the ground.

I looked out into the horizon. The sun was setting above the water. The waves were calm. It looked so beautiful.

"What's wrong Swan? You seem a bit too quiet" he said with a concerned tone.

I shook my head. I didn't want to tell him, but I wanted to know if he felt the same way.

"Seriously Swan, I know something is up. Tell me, we're like best friends. No secrets" he pressed.

My hands were shaking slightly. I was stubborn. Was I read to tell him?

"Honestly Swan, if you're not going to tell me then I'll go" he said standing up to walk away.

I panicked and yelled "NOOO!" grabbing his hand, like I was holding onto him with my life. He stopped and turned to look at me with a confused look. I started to whimper. He can't leave. What would I do without him? I felt the tears slowly trailing down my cheeks.

"Please, Paul don't go. I need you. I need you because I…I love you" I whispered. He looked confused.

"I know Swan, I love you too but what is really on your mind?" I grabbed his arm and pulled myself up.

I was crying, I couldn't see through the tears. I started pounding my fists on his chest.

"I just told you! I…FUCKING…LOVE…YOU! I love you so fucking much, so much it hurts. I can't lose you" I grabbed a fistful of his shirt and buried my head into his chest and sobbed.

Suddenly I felt my lift my chin with the tip of his finger. His warm brown eyes staring at me. He leaned in, foreheads touching. His breath fanning across my face, my lips parted slightly with my eyes closed. He leaned down and kissed away my tears. He was so tender.

His warm lips brushed against my lips. It felt tingly. I opened my eyes and the love I saw in his eyes made my heart melt. He cradled my face with his hands, this kiss was more intense. Our tongues battled slowly. Nipping his bottom lip, I sighed. I felt so happy. We came up for breath; he was still cradling my face.

"I love you too Swan. I couldn't leave you unless I had no choice" he whispered.

I wrapped my arms around his waist and nuzzled my face into his chest. I felt like I was home. I sighed happily.

"Swan?" he asked. I hummed in response.

"Would you make me the happiest guy in the world and be my girl?" I didn't respond.

I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him with all I had. Showing him my love for him. He grinned and wrapped his arms around my waist and spun me round. I squealed. I felt on top of the world.

Things between me and Paul were going great. We became closer over time, even closer than before. If that's even possible. We were joined to the hip. It was great.

But I had this feeling that something bad was going to happen. I started to feel scared. I can't lose my Paul. I can't live without him.

And then it happened. He disappeared.

I started to worry. Where was he? Did he not love me anymore? He called me a week later after disappearing. I was cleaning the house while singing to the radio. I was cleaning up the living room. That's when I heard it.

Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get

I knew it was him.

"Hey baby, where you been?" I asked.

"Hi Swan, I've been busy" he replied cooly.

"Oh right, when can I see you?" I questioned.

"Erm, Swan" he sighed. Uh oh, that can't be good. "I got something to tell you. I love you but I need my space. I want to break up" he said coldly.

"What? Paul? Was it something I said? Or something I did? I'm sorry if I did something wrong. Babe, I love you. Don't leave me. Please don't" I whimpered.

"Don't make this harder that it is Swan. Just give me some space. Yeah I love you but I need time out. It's for your own good" he pressed.

"But Paul, you are good for me. Please don't break up with me" I cried.

"Sorry Swan. Look, I gotta go. I guess I'll see you around" he said hanging up.

I stared blankly at my phone. Please tell me this was a dream. I leaned against the back of the sofa, slowly slid down to the floor. Elbows resting on my knees and I buried my head in my hands, heart breaking sobs choked from my chest. "Breathe me" was playing on the radio in the background.

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame

Hearing those lyrics made me sob even harder. Paul had left me. Fuckward left me too. I thought I couldn't live without Fuckward. I had Jacob, until he disappeared. I was hurting and then I met Paul. Now Paul has left me too. He was the one that broke me the most. Who was going to pick up the pieces?

I'd never felt so lost. What would I do without him? He was my best friend. I needed him just as much as he needed me. He slowly started to heal me; he held the key to my heart.

I didn't know how long I sat there sobbing my heart out. I didn't even hear Charlie come back home from work. I didn't realise until he tapped me on the shoulder and I slowly raised my head to look at him. My eyes were red and puffy. He looked at me with a confused look.

"Bells? What happened?" he questioned. I hesitated.

"He left me… he broke up with me, saying that he needed his space. But he loves me. He said he loved me dad. I can't live without him" I cried. He looked pained.

"Ok Bells, why don't you go shower and then head off to bed? I need to go and see Billy for a little chat" he said.

I looked puzzled but I slowly rose to my feet and dragged myself up the stairs. Charlie sighed and grabbed his keys before heading out the door.

Charlie's POV

I stomped onto the gas to get the La Push as quick as I could. I wanted answers and I wanted them now. How dare someone break my little girl's heart? Her heart has been crushed three times, it wasn't fair. Why my Bella? I gripped the steering wheel till my knuckles started to go white.

Once the little house came into view, I killed the engine and slammed the door so hard the glass windows shook from the force. I wasn't in the mood to car. I stormed toward the house.
"BILLY! I KNOW YOU'RE IN THERE! GET OUT HERE NOW!" I snarled. "BILLY!" I shouted banging on the door.

I heard the floorboards creak and then the door unlocking. The door opened slightly to reveal a tired looking Billy with a stressed look on his face.
"Charlie, what brings you here?" he looked confused.
"Cut me the crap Billy. Tell me what is really going on. I know you know, since you are part of the elders" I snapped. Billy's eyes widened.
"Erm… come on in Charlie" he sighed. He opened the door and wheeled himself into the living room. I followed him closely, closing the door behind me.

I wasn't expecting to see what I saw in the living room. I saw Paul Lahote on the sofa leaning over with his head in his hands. To say I was angry was an understatement. I was pissed. I stood there shaking slightly, glaring at Paul. Billy just sat there watching us.

"Paul Lahote! What the fuck did you do to my little girl!" I screamed. Paul's head snapped up.
"Charlie" he gasped. "I can explain"
"Ha! You can explain? Ok then. Give me your best shot kid!" I glared.
"Calm down Charlie. I'll explain" Billy soothed. I glared at Billy but I sat down still fuming.
"Paul is Quileute, so you should know what that means" Billy explained. I looked at him raising my eyebrow.
"I'm sorry Charlie, but it's for her own good" Paul whispered. That set me off.

"For her own good? You grabbed her heart and ripped it in two! You tell me that was for her own good?" I barked. Billy and Paul flinched at my tone. I was past caring; I wanted to know all the answers. I started shaking.
"Lahote! Outside. NOW!" I growled storming out of the house into the back yard. He followed with his head down. I heard the back door close. I turned around glaring at him; he still had his head down. I was furious. Just seeing him my anger increased to me shaking so bad that I phased. He still had his head down, I was pissed. I barked at him to get his attention, his head slowly rose to look at me. I gave him the 'phase now or else' look and he phased on the spot. Charlie's brown wolf snarled showing his canines. A silver wolf was in place of where Paul was standing.

A/N: Ooooh! Getting a bit more action now. Hope you guys enjoyed the chapter!