(Italic – Charlie Italic underline – Paul)
"Why Paul? Why did you do it?"
"Charlie, I didn't want to. I love her. But it's for her own good"
"How is it for her own good? You tore her heart to pieces!"
At that I rammed my head into his side. He yelped from surprise and then he howled in pain. I snarled and clawed at him. Digging my paws deep into him, satisfied when I saw a wound forming. I howled in victory. He didn't fight back once. He didn't deserve to fight me back. He whimpered beneath me in pain as I bit down hard into his shoulder. I wanted him to feel the pain that Bella was feeling right now. He caused that. It was his entire fault. I growled and bit down harder and clawed at him. That was until Billy came out in his wheelchair. I glanced up and I was shocked.
Billy heaved himself out of the wheelchair and phased into a wolf! How was that possible? His fur was mainly black but had tints of reddish brown. His wolf form was huge, then again he was Alpha. But how could he phase after all this time being in a wheelchair? I looked confused. He growled at me.
(Italic – Charlie Italic underline – Paul Bold italic – Billy)
"Charlie let him go now"
"But Billy, he broke my little girl's heart. You should have seen her face! You weren't there!"
"Charlie, I didn't want to. I had no choice"
I snarled at him at that thought. I went to jump at him again. That was when Billy Alpha ordered me.
"Charlie. You WILL NOT attack Paul again" He ordered. I tried to fight against the order but my body refused to co-operate with me. My body fell to the ground. I growled in frustration.
"Billy, I want him to feel the pain" I whined. He snarled at me in response.
"Charlie, he doesn't deserve to feel any more pain than the pain that he feels right now. You have been in this situation before remember?"
Oh I remember alright. I remember when I had to leave Louise when I became a wolf. I thought she was the love of my life. I had to break her heart; I had no choice but to do so. I was so depressed, I wanted to go and see her. She could have been my imprint. That was until I met Renee, I didn't imprint on Renee but she knew about me being a wolf. I phased into a wolf and she seen. She confronted me and we were together until everything went downhill after Bella was born. She was upset and didn't want to be with me anymore. I found out that she had a toy boy somewhere. I was devastated. She wasn't my imprint but I still loved her. Even though I will never love anyone as much as I loved Louise. I had no choice but to break Louise's heart, I couldn't risk hurting her. I guess I understand what Paul was going through. I went through the same thing. I shouldn't have taken it out on Paul. I was being unfair on him. I overreacted. Bella is my one and only daughter, my princess. The thought of my little princess getting hurt time and time again tore my heart to pieces. I couldn't help but feel guilty, and I hated the fact that he had hurt my little girl's heart.
(Italic – Charlie Italic underline – Paul Bold italic – Billy)
"Paul, I guess all I have to say I'm sorry and I know what you're going through. I've been through that and I'll help you the best I can. It's the least I can do. I just hope Bells can get through this too again. It's gonna take some time for her to heal this time. You need to get your fire under control and then you can see Bella. You might imprint on her. You never know."
"Charlie, I understand that you're furious with me and that I broke your daughter's heart, but you know I didn't mean to. I wish I could turn back time. I never wanted to hurt Bella, but sometimes things can't be helped."
"Now that we have that sorted out. Phase back. Charlie go home and see how Bella is doing. Paul go home and get some rest. You have patrol in the morning."
We phased back and Paul was lying on his side propped up with his right elbow. He seemed to be struggling. He had a deep gash in his side and it was dripping with blood. I instantly felt guilty. But you could see the skin merging together and starting to heal but it was still quite bloody. Billy was sitting back in his wheelchair glaring at me. I ducked my head down. Anyone could figure out that he wasn't happy with me.
"Charlie, what the hell was that? That was quite uncalled for" Billy growled.
"But…" I started.
"No but's Charlie. Now apologize to Paul. He didn't deserve to be torn to shreds by someone" he reasoned. I grumbled an apology under my breath.
"Charlie speak up, all I can hear is you mumbling" he hissed, staring me down.
It made my skin crawl out of fear. My heart pounded in my ears. Looks like there's no way I'm getting out of this, I thought bitterly to myself.
"Alright, alright. Lahote. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have jumped on you like that" I sighed.
Paul looked up at me with a grimace on his face, still holding his wound together for it to heal quicker. I really didn't mean to hurt him. Just something inside me snapped like an elastic band when he mentioned my little girl.
One look at him and I could tell that he was battling with himself about whether or not he should accept my apology. Or maybe he was wondering if he was going to take a bite out of me or not. I really didn't want to take any risks at all. I guess better safe than sorry is the way to go. I suppose it wouldn't hurt to just apologize. What would my Bells think of me if I couldn't work up the courage to just simply apologize? I shuddered at the thought. I took a deep breath and thought oh well here goes.
"I'm sorry Lahote" I said shoving my hand out with a determined look. He glanced up at me and then looked down at my hand. Like he was debating with himself. After what seemed like hours, he hesitated and stuck his hand out and shook my hand with a curious look in his eyes.
"Apology accepted" he grunted with a weary look on his face. Staring back at me like he was trying to tell me something. But I couldn't quite put a finger on it.
It was starting to make me feel uncomfortable, but I just couldn't build up the courage to stand down. We stood there just staring each other down, hands still clasped in the handshake. Just standing there seemed like hours. It may have felt like hours but it was only a few minutes. That was until Billy snapped us out of our trance.
"Alright you two. Now that it's dealt with. Off with you two. I need some peace and quiet. Too much drama. Paul you have patrol tomorrow, so go home. I'll see you tomorrow. Charlie, go get some sleep. You look like hell my friend" he chuckled wheeling himself back into the house and letting the door screen close behind him, leaving us standing there staring after him with our mouths hanging open. We turned to look at each other and then back at the house. Then I decided to go home and turned away from the house and walked back to the car without a glance back, leaving Paul standing there awkwardly on his own.
Billy's POV
I sat there in my wheelchair burying my face in my hands. I used to love phasing. But now it didn't have the same effect on me. It brought back memories of when Sarah died.
Flashback
It was a beautiful day in La Push, with the sun shining and the birds singing from the trees. I was going to take Sarah out shopping. Rachel and Rebecca were old enough to look after their brother Jacob, who was 4.
We walked hand in hand to the car, it was a warm day. Sarah loved her flip flops; she would say she feels uncomfortable if she had to wear any other type of shoes. She was weird, but I loved her for it.
We were going to Port Angeles for some shopping. Retail therapy as Sarah likes to call it and she loved it. Most ladies do, I think. I put the radio and we were off. Sarah was singing along to the songs, her voice was beautiful. Whenever the kids were throwing tantrums, she would sing them a song and they would stop and stare at her with a curious expression.
I glanced at her in the passenger seat and saw her singing and smiling in my direction. Her smile always makes my heart skip a beat. We stopped at the traffic lights and she moved to the centre of the car and snuggled up to me. I wrapped an arm round her shoulders and kissed her temple.
We waited for what seemed like hours for the traffic light to turn green. When it finally turned green, she moved back and we were off again. But then it happened. A car from another direction rushed through a red light and smacked into the side of our car.
Sarah screamed as the car went straight into her side of the car crushing the door and her head smacked into the side window. Blood gushing from her head. I panicked. Another car from another direction slammed into my side of the car and my legs were trapped between the seat and the door. I felt the blood trickling down the side of my face as my head hit the steering wheel.
"Sarah! Baby, come on wake up" I nudged. She didn't move. I nudged her again. "Baby, wake up. It's not funny." Still nothing. "HELP! SOMEBODY HELP!" I screamed looking around for help. There were cars crashing into each other. I grabbed my cell phone and called for help. I was worried about Sarah. Please don't die, please don't die I chanted in my head. I turned as much as I could and grabbed hold of her hands, gently rubbing them. Thinking that it would wake her up. Her hands were started to turn cold. I tried to warm her hands up. She started to stir.
"Billy" she said weakly. I glanced up at her. She was weak; I refused to think that she wasn't going to make it.
"Baby, you're going to be ok. Help is on the way, just hold on" I soothed. She shook her head.
"Hunny, I know I'm not going to make it. I love you baby. Look after the kids for me. I'll be looking over you guys. I will always love you" she wheezed.
"Sarah! Stay with me baby. Don't leave me. I need you. I love you. I need you so much baby. Please don't go" I pleaded. She took a shaky deep breath and brought a hand up to my face. I leaned into her hand and covered her hand with mine as I looked into her eyes.
"Babe, I'm going to miss you. I love you. Forever" she said with her last breath and I saw her life fade from her eyes. Her hand cradling my face went limp. I grabbed her and hugged her body close to me. I rested the side of my head on top of hers and gently rocked us back and forth. I sobbed. My heart was ripped to pieces.
I heard the sirens of the ambulance. I didn't want to let her go. I wanted her back. She was my world. My love. She wasn't my imprint but I loved her just as much as an imprint. I just cried even more. I won't be able to hear her cute laugh anymore. Or her beautiful singing voice, her sweet smile that makes my heart melt. I heard them trying to pry the doors open and free us. I didn't want to be freed. I wanted to stay right here, with my Sarah. But it didn't happen. I was carried to a stretcher and into the ambulance away from my love.
I lay there in my own little world. The paramedic was talking to me, but I couldn't hear them. I saw them but my mind wasn't functioning for me to reply. I just wanted to be with Sarah.
At the hospital, I was transferred to my own hospital room. I sat there leaning against the pillows and staring off into space. I thought I saw Sarah's face staring back at me and blew me a kiss. I blinked for a second, and she was gone. I shook my head as there was a knock on the door. The doctor came in with a clip chart.
"Mr Black, how are you feeling?" he asked concerned.
"Call me Billy. I'm not sure at the moment" I replied in a puzzled tone.
"Billy, I'm sorry for your loss. Your wife died at the scene. I have some other bad news for you though" he spoke in a serious tone. I sighed.
"So, what's the bad news? It's not like I've had a good day so far anyways" I grumbled.
"I'm very sorry to say this. But Billy, due to the accident when your legs were trapped between the seat and the door. Your legs were damaged by the impact and you are paralysed from the waist downwards. I'm really sorry" he sighed. I looked at him and gaped.
I was paralysed. I could never walk again, run around chasing Jacob and the girls around the front yard. I went into shock. My mind shut down and I felt like someone had hit me in the back of the head with a bat. The next minute I know, I was unconscious. But I was dreaming.
I looked around. I was in the forest. What was I doing here? I glanced around again; I thought I saw a white wolf. I looked in that direction again and the wolf was gone. Was I imagining things? Why was I here? I was so confused. It was then when I heard a voice.
"You are here for a reason, alpha Black" a sudden voice spoke. I turned in that direction and saw the white wolf. It was the spirit wolf.
"Why am I here, oh wise one?" I bowed.
"You are still of use alpha Black, you may not have the use of your legs in human form. But we the spirits grant you a gift. You may have the ability to use your legs, but of course only in wolf form. You are to help guild the next pack generation. You will become part of the Quileute Tribal Council as well as Charlie Swan, Harry Clearwater and Quil Ateara Snr and help guild the next generation. Teach them about the legends and help them gain control of their wolf when they first phase. This is your duty." He informed.
"Why was Sarah taken away from me? Why didn't I imprint on her? I loved her like an imprint" I questioned.
"Son, you are alpha of the pack. For every generation, the alpha of the pack does not imprint. He doesn't have the ability to imprint. The alpha's duty is with his pack. If he imprints, then he will be troubled. He will not make the correct decisions as he will be torn between the pack and his imprint. That would cause problems in the pack. That is why the alpha does not imprint. Your female being taken away from you was not our decision. It was fate. Now go back and fulfil your duty to the pack." He responded while turning back towards the forest.
He disappeared into thin air just as he hit the trees of the forest. The forest started to blur and everything went pitched black. Before I knew what was going on, I was knocked out again.
Where was I now? I heard the beeping monitor next to me. Then I heard people talking in a hushed voice in the background. I took a breath and nearly gagged. I had just noticed that I had an endotracheal tube attached to me, to help me breath. Maybe they attached it when I was unconscious. How long had I been out? I was struggling to open my eyes. What was wrong with me?
"Billy? I'm sure you can hear me. But being in your situation now, I think your mind is still recovering from the shock. It's quite normal. It takes some time to recover, just relax and give your mind some time to wrap around the fact of what happened and you will start to feel better" the doctor said.
How long would I need to wait till my mind wrapped around the fact that I'm paralysed? I felt like my body was unattached to my head. It felt weird. I heard shuffling around the room and then the door closing lightly. Who else was in the room?
"Billy, we're really sorry about Sarah. We all loved her, she was a star. We will cherish all the memories forever. I remember Sarah singing in the kitchen when me and Harry came over for dinner, she would scowl at us if we were a minute late and get hit over the back of the head. She never could keep a straight face" Charlie chuckled. It sounded forced, I don't blame him. None of us would be in the mood to laugh. My beautiful star was taken away from me.
"Billy, the doctor said that you can go home when you wake up. The kids are with Sue at the moment, you know what the kids are like. They love Sue. We haven't told them yet; we thought we would leave that job to you since you are their dad" Harry added. God I missed the kids already. They must be worried I thought, as I drifted back into unconsciousness.
It was the next day when I woke up, my eyes started to flutter and I squeezed my eyes shut tight. I was momentarily blinded by the sun shining into the room through the blinds. Who opened the blinds a little? I took a deep breath and slightly opened my eyes. I felt better; I didn't feel a shock from the bright light that I had to shut my eyes again. I looked around the room and saw Charlie sitting on a chair in the corner leaning his head back on the wall asleep. Harry was sleeping on the pull out couch snoring gently. I chuckled at their faces. Charlie was sleeping with his mouth half open, it was a funny sight.
Then the doctor knocked gently and came into the room. He was looking at his clipboard again. What was so important on those clipboards anyways? He looked up and saw that I was awake, he smiled at me and looked around the room and laughed. Full on laughing. It was hilarious. It woke them both up. Charlie looked gormless when he woke up; he looked around with that expression that you just had to laugh at. Harry was startled and he rolled off the pull out couch and landed on his butt. Me and the doctor were laughing so hard we had tears. It wasn't that funny, but it was more of their expressions that made us burst out laughing. You just had to be there to understand what I was on about. We finally sobered up after a while.
"So Billy, how are you feeling today?" he asked sincerely while doing some tests.
"Well, I'm feeling a bit better. I still feel a bit out of it to be honest. But that's normal right doc?" I questioned.
"That's quite right. Well your vitals look good. No signs of any concussion or anything. I advise you stay for a week just as a precaution" he smiled.
I sat in the hospital bed for a week before I was released from the hospital. Thank god! The hospital food wasn't exactly tasty and I wasn't allowed Harry's famous fish fries either. I was disappointed. Now that I was out of the hospital, I could eat whatever I wanted. Wow what a relief.
I was starting to dread going home. A nurse came in with a wheelchair. My heart dropped. That meant I couldn't drive anymore. I would become a burden to the guys. They must have noticed my hesitation. They came to both sides of the bed and patted me on the back, before helping me into the wheelchair.
They helped me into Harry's truck and we were off back to La Push. I missed the kids. I needed to clear my head. The journey back to La Push was quiet. I had this feeling that something else was going to happen and that I would be the one to deal with it.
I complained to the guys that I wanted Harry's famous fish fries and they just chuckled at me. I defended myself that I hated the hospital food and wanted to eat my favourite types of food again. They laughed when I see hospital food tasted a bit like cardboard.
Once I got to the back yard of the house, I phased. I needed to take some time and figure out how to tell the kids. They were so young; Jacob will suffer the same fate as me. He will have the wolf gene and will become alpha one day. I was pacing back and forth in the forest. Then I decided to go for a run, the wind threading through my fur. It was relaxing. I ran and ran until I couldn't run anymore. I collapsed to the ground exhausted.
I heard a howl. I remember howling like that when I first phased. I knew then that someone knew had phased. I felt this pop and someone's panicked thoughts were running through the pack link.
"Oh my god! What's going on? I have paws! And a tail! Holy shit! I'm a wolf! WTF!" a young male voice panicked.
"Son, don't be afraid. My name is Billy. Tell me what is your name?" I soothed.
"The name is Sam. Why am I a wolf?" he said pacing back and forth.
"You're a wolf because you have the wolf gene to state the obvious. You phased because you were angry. That's what triggers you phasing. Plus the fact that there are cold ones around the area" I sighed.
"The cold ones? What are they?" he asked cocking his head to the side. I howled for the pack to phase.
"We will explain to you about the Quileute legends"I told him while waiting for the pack to phase.
The pack phased and was confused until I told them that we had our first pack member of the next generation. We spend hours telling him about the legends and about our mortal enemy. He sat there on his hind legs absorbing everything. We guided him into controlling his wolf so that he wouldn't phase in front of humans. We told him that he had to cut off all ties with everyone. Girlfriend, friends, family. He had to use the excuse that he had mono so he wouldn't be in with the public without being in control of his wolf. We were going to teach him everything that we knew, and then he would pass this information down to each new pack member that would phase.
Since Sam phased first, he would become alpha of the next generation pack until Jacob took his rightful place as alpha.
End of flashback
I hadn't noticed how long I had been sitting there in my own thoughts, until Jacob placed his hand on my shoulder. It knocked me out of my trance.
I blinked and Jacob was looking down at me with a concerned expression. I gave him a reassuring smile. He looked a bit unconvinced but shrugged and headed for the kitchen.
I looked out the window and it was getting dark. I must have been thinking of the past for a while. I looked at the kitchen and seen Jacob rummaging through the cupboards. I chuckled, shaking my head at him. I understood how he felt. Constantly hungry. Stupid werewolf high metabolism. Bottomless stomachs ha! Poor Emily, she had to feed the pack.
Our cupboards have to constantly be filled with snacks, we would always stock up every two days. The food would be gone within two days. It was ridiculous. I'm sure the people at the supermarkets would be confused with the amount of shopping we do each time. It was enough to feed a whole army. That's how bad we werewolves are when it comes to food.
A/N: Sorry if it's a bit too much