Ichigo had willingly allowed Katsu to take control over his body during the fight. He could see the fight, and it felt like he was the one fighting, but Katsu was actually doing such for him, well towards the end. He saw no reason not to trust Katsu, sure he had been terrible to Aizen in the past, but he had helped him. Hell he was him, so why would he not trust himself? Ichigo could still see the image of Aizen lying dead. It haunted him.

Ichigo opened his eyes. "Come on, this way" Aizen said as he pulled him down the hallway.

"Where are we going?"

"We need to get out of here, they are attacking."

"Who are they, we defeated the enemies."

"No" Aizen got out. He opened his mouth to say something else. However the words never reached Ichigo's ears, blood started to drip from Aizen's mouth. The older man cougher, and Ichigo could see the blade coming out of his heart.

"No!"

He tried to draw his zanpakutō, but he couldn't get it lose. Aizen collapsed to the ground, a shadow surrounded him. Ichigo ran, he couldn't fight, he could only run. He opened a door, only to find that the corpses of his friends and family were lying lifeless on the floor.

"No! You can't be dead too" he choked out the words. He was surrounded. His knees gave out from under him.

"You will live, you will be alone, and you will have no one" the deep voice hissed at him.

"No!" Ichigo screamed out.

He jolted upright in the bed. Aizen was staring at him with concerned eyes. "What did you see?"

"Death and isolation" Ichigo got out wrapping his arms around himself. That had felt so real. Yet Aizen was very much alive and in front of him.

"Who's death?"

"Everyone died, the only death I actually saw was yours. Can we not talk about this" he got out. Aizen nodded and moved to take Ichigo into his arms. "So is it actually over" Ichigo got out.

"The members of Wandenreich surrendered, well the ones who did not die. From what I was told, it is over. Though everyone is still staying here, well until you woke up at least."

"Would you tell me if people I knew died?"

Aizen sighed. "Would you like to hear who died?"

"So there were deaths on our side" Ichigo got out, a scowl formed on his lips.

"Not everyone is a force of nature, we were fighting the leaders, but the members of both groups weren't powerless. To have war, there must be death."

"Except when you were the villain. You never killed anyone, well no one I knew."

"That is cold Ichi" Gin said standing in the doorway.

"You didn't die. The only real deaths of that war happened before the actual war. Sure people got injured but no one died."

"Have ya told him who died" Gin questioned.

"Just one of you tell me. I'm not going to like the answer regardless if I wait or not."

Aizen sighed. "Most of the deaths happened in the Seireitei and not here. I'm not sure if you were familiar with the lieutenant of the 1st diversion, but he died by the hands of Wandenreich. The past Captains of squad three and nine died, you would have known them as Vizards."

"Who, which ones?"

"Rojuro Otoribashi or Rose and Kensei Mugumura."

Ichigo tensed up as he recognized the names of two of the Vizards that had helped trained him. "What about Shinji?"

"Shinji did not die, but he was wounded. The list of the wounded is great. Though there is one death in the Seireitei that no one could have predicted. The Head Captain's."

"The old man died?"

Aizen nodded.

"The list of the wounded here, included many of the Arrancars. The tenth or rather the cero Espada Yammy was killed. Orihime is taking cared of the wounded. The girl is very useful to have round" Gin said.

"Who got hurt here? No one died here that I knew personally?" There was silence. "Answer me, damn it!"

Ichigo didn't even wait for anyone to answer him, he took off running for the room. He followed the smell of death that hung around one room in particular. He saw Orihime healing various people, though a few unfortunate people were beyond saving. The already quiet room went silent when he entered.

Ichigo tried to find all of the people who he cared about that had come to Los Noches. His mother and father were fine, Yuzu and Karin. Uryu was with his father. Chad was off getting healed. Rukia was trying her best to help Orihime. Momo and Rangiku were sitting together, but they both looked pretty bad. Byakuya was with Renji. The only people he couldn't find were Yoruichi, Kisuke and Toshiro.

He quickly located Yoruichi walking out of the room. His eyes scanned the room for Kisuke and then Toshiro. He found Kisuke first. He went towards Momo, if the asylum reality was any indicator, Toshiro should be somewhere around Momo. That was when Toshiro approached him. A sad look on his face, yet he didn't say anything. Shit where was Grimmjow?

He didn't try to call out the Espadas name, he hope he could find him. What about Yuzuki and Norio? "Ichigo?" Orihime's voice was soft and it sounded like she had been crying recently. "That means Aizen" she started.

"Orihime" Rukia got out.

"It means Aizen's did what?" Ichigo questioned.

He noticed something, Rukia also looked like she had been crying. Aizen and Gin came into the room. "Ichigo come on" Aizen got out.

"What did you do?!"

"Calm down Ichi" Gin got out.

"Someone answer me" Ichigo got out making a scene.

"You really should be ashamed of yourself" Yuzuki said.

"Your one to talk" Ulquiorra told her.

Ichigo's head was spinning. "Someone tell me" he got out.

"I couldn't save you" Orihime finally got out and tears started to roll down her eyes.

The words echoed in his head. He died? He was the death that Aizen nor Gin could tell him about. Now that he thought about it, Aizen's eyes had been trying to shield something from him.

Ichigo was shaking, he knew he had died before. Though Orihime had brought him back, or his inner hollow had stopped him from dying all the way. There was no way he could be dead. No this wasn't real.

He didn't have a physical body when he was here, how could he die and still be alive? Ichigo went towards his family, he half expected to see his body there. No nothing was there, they were just together.

"Explain" he got out his voice was shaking as he looked at Aizen.

"Katsu told me to catch you. When I did you didn't wake up. I took you to our room, and it was there that I realize you weren't going to wake up..." Aizen didn't look at him.

"What did you do to me? How did I wake up?" Aizen didn't look at him. "Answer. Me" he got out.

"He used his own Hōgyoku, however he knew ya would hate him so he tried something else drastic. I never thought I would see Captain Aizen like that. He used the Hōgyoku as a base to share his spirt energy with ya."

"Wait so that is possible?"

"It is if it was my will. My will was for you to live, I would do anything to achieve that."

"I don't understand, there is no way this could be real. You told me I would either become a full Shinigami or a hollow upon my death. I don't remember dying a human death."

"Well maybe that is what helped" Aizen got out.

….

Ichigo sat up coughing. So it wasn't real, that was really odd. He began to panic when he couldn't locate Aizen. The door to the bathroom open and Aizen came in shirtless.

"Sōsuke" Ichigo got out leaping out of the bed and tackling Aizen to the ground.

"Ichi….go" Aizen groaned at first but it became a chuckle. "Did you miss me that much? You haven't been out that long, the way you act it is like you are surprised to see me."

Ichigo got off of him, and helped the older man up. "At first I thought you died, then I woke up only to find myself in another nightmare. I then found out I died, please tell me that isn't true. You brought me back by using your spirit energy or something."

Aizen frowned, his hand going under Ichigo's chin and making him look into his eyes. "No you didn't die, nor did I. You have been out for about a day, there were deaths but mostly in the other team. A lot of people were wounded, but no one you truly carried about died. Well not the people you TRULY care about. I no longer know who is on the truly care about list."

"In the reality where I died, you told me the head captain died, as did his lieutenant. Then two of the Vizards who helped me. Rose and Kensei. Then that Espada named Yammy died. Out of those deaths the head captains shocked me, but I wasn't really close to him. I was closest to Rose and Kensei."

"Well those people did die. Izuru Kira also died."

"I am familiar with that name, but I can't place who he is."

"He was my lieutenant in squad three. Blonde hair" Gin got out.

"Toshiro and Rangiku were wounded severely, but they lived" Aizen got out.

"Are you not concerned the least about your past lieutenant" Gin got out.

"Momo? What happened to her" Ichigo got out. He had gotten more familiar with the girl as time went by.

"She was stabbed, but somehow she keeps living "Aizen said somehow showing no emotion in his voice.

"Same ol' Captain Aizen. You really don't care about her life do ya?"

"No war can end without suffering and death. "

"Except the war you caused, you didn't directly kill anyone that I care about."

"You're cold Ichi" Gin got out. It was like he was experiencing deja vu.

Ichigo looked at Gin. "You didn't die, I told you that before I'll tell you it again."

"Ichigo, what is wrong? You're not acting like yourself" Aizen was looking at him with concern.

"He is acting more like ya, check for Katsu."

"I'm not him, but you try living through death, so many deaths. Then tell me you are okay" Ichigo said and left the door slamming it behind him.

Isolation.

The word hung in the air, he hadn't meant to think it out loud to Aizen, but he had. Aizen sighed looking at the door.

"Ya not going to go after him" Gin asked looking at Aizen.

"No. I can imagine what he has gone through. The boy is strong but he is still a boy. He was thrust into power, into war, and he was forced to take it. He may share a soul with someone who is only two years younger than I am, but he is still a boy. He has seen so much blood, he has killed. He protects, even though he knows that it will bring him sorrow in the end. I can only imagine what it is like for him, I know how he is thinking though."

"Why do you look so sad then?"

"Isolation and sorrow are sometimes the same, Gin."

…

Ichigo took the same route he had in his nightmare. There were people being healed, but no one reacted the same upon him coming in. He jumped when someone touched his shoulder. "Ichigo, do I need to heal you" Orihime asked.

"No, I'm, fine Orihime. Not unless you can reject memories, you can't help me" he got out. He found his family, he gave a weak shielded smile to Orihime before going towards his family.

"Did that bastard hurt you" Isshin said upon seeing Ichigo upset.

"No, Sōsuke did not hurt me."

"Ichi, what is wrong" Yuzu asked.

"I'm fine" he had to stop himself from snapping at his younger sister.

Yuzu scurried away after giving him a hug. He noticed she was going to stay by Karin's side, who was by Toshiro.

"Honey, what happened" Masaki asked.

"I dreamed two separate nightmares. Both felt so real. "

"You do realize Aizen controls illusions, he could have…" Isshin started.

Ichigo glared at his father "he wouldn't hurt me. Just listen, damn it."

"Isshin, just listen to your son for once. Go ahead Ichigo."

"The first one, everyone I ever cared about died. I mean everyone, I was left alone and alive to suffer. The only person I watched die in front of me was Sōsuke. Then the second one, I woke up from the first nightmare and was asked what it was about. I was then told who die in the war. Except Gin and Sōsuke wouldn't tell me who had died on this side. I came into this room and it was here that I found out I had died. "

"That is terrible" Masaki said hugging her son.

"Your keeping something to yourself, what is it Ichigo" Isshin asked.

"Dad, is it possible for someone to share their spiritual pressure?"

"There is, but the technique is one of the forbidden kidos" Isshin started.

"You take everything so literal, don't you Isshin. The Hōgyoku can do that, if that is what you're asking" Kisuke said coming up to the little group. "Also it isn't a forbidden kido, there are multiple ways to do it. You could link two bodies together, but that is an extreme case."

"Are you asking about a Quincy technique" Ryuken asked as he and Uryu joined them. It was nice to know that everyone was eavesdropping on his conversation with his family.

"I still can't believe you lied to me about that" Uryu said.

"Now Ryuu, what did you tell your son now" Masaki asked.

"He didn't tell me that Ichigo was related to me" Uryu said.

"How could you Ryuu" Masaki said.

"Coming back to what you ask, is it a Quincy technique?" Ichigo was a little curious now.

"It is a rare technique, and doesn't have much success."

"I doubt that would be the answer I'm talking about."

"Ichigo, who were you asking about" Isshin asked.

"Well in the nightmare Sōsuke said he used his own spiritual pressure to bring me back."

"Ooooh that is interesting, wasn't expecting that" Kisuke said. Yet hadn't he been the one to say the Hōgyoku could do it?

"First the bastard wouldn't do anything to save anything. I'm, still convinced he is using you for something "Isshin said. Masaki hit him. "It has to be true, you don't know him like I do Masaki."

"Isshin, Ichigo is not stupid. I think he has enough sense to know if Aizen was doing something like that."

"I am standing right here. He isn't that bad, you do realize that right. Oh forget it, you're just going to see him as a villain." Ichigo turned around and left the room. He went to the one place he could think of. He went to the room he had only visited once. He raised his hand to knock, before he could the door opened.

"I could feel your reiatsu before you even stopped outside my door" Grimmjow said opening the door wide to let Ichigo in. Ichigo went into the sexta's room and sat on the bed. Grimmjow closed the door.

…

"Ulquiorra again?"

"No nightmares again. The first one everyone I cared about died and I was sparred to live isolated without anyone around me. The second one I found out I died and I was brought back."

"Wait you became an Arrancar in the second one?" Grimmjow sat down on the bed. Ichigo shook his head.

"The Hōgyoku was involved, but it didn't turn me into an Arrancar, because I wasn't a hollow. Though Aizen used it to save me regardless."

"Why aren't you with him?"

"He left me alone so I could go check things out myself. I left him when I was upset and then I went to go talk to my family. Who didn't understand. I know how you feel about him, but with you it is somehow different. You at least let me talk, you don't go on and on telling me how much of a villain he is, and how he is fooling me. How stupid I am for falling in love with him."

"Ichi, what else is bothering you?"

"How did you know there was something else?"

"There is always something else."

"Do you remember your human life?"

Grimmjow raised his eyebrow. "Not what I was expecting. Though no I don't. What is this about?"

"Do you remember dying? Do you remember your first moments as a hollow?"

"What is this about, Ichi?"

Ichigo bit his lip. "I want to know. I feel something bad is going to happen. Don't ask me how, but I just do. Aizen said if I were to die I would either become a full Shinigami or a hollow. I want to know what both sides are like."

"I don't remember dying, but if I was anything like I am now, I didn't go down without a fight. As for my first moments as a hollow, I don't know how to explain that to you. In Hueco Mundo it is eat or be eaten, you have to keep going or you get killed. I had to work hard to get here. Ichi, why are you wanting to know this? I mean what are the chances that you would become a hollow."

Ichigo undid the sash holding the top part of the white uniform up. It fell down revealing a mark above his heart. "Oh because I was a Shinigami in a past life, that Shinigami part is now inside my mind along with my inner hollow and my Quincy side. "

"That isn't a hollow hole though, does Aizen know about this?"

"No, and he won't. If he does find out, I will have to see how well I can lie to him. I don't know what is happening, so it won't be hard to lie about that." Grimmjow touched the mark, he hissed as he snatched his hand back.

"A your skin is boiling hot. B that mark was not left by anything harmless. C I doubt you will become a hollow. "

"What do you mean?"

Ichigo was watching him, Aizen must not have complained about his skin being boiling hot before.

"I mean that your skin hurt me. That mark isn't something I have seen before and it isn't anything made by a hollow" he said.

Ichigo sighed and laid down on Grimmjow's bed. "How do you know I won't become a hollow?"

"Ya are a different kid, ya know that. The way you talk make it seem like ya want to be one. "

"No, I just want to know why you don't think I would. I mean it is the only situation I would most likely find myself in." There was a silence that lingered between them. "Thanks for helping "Ichigo said and sat up on the bed putting back on his upper half and tying the sash back. He kissed Grimmjow on the check, the Espada went bright red at that contact. He hadn't expected that.

"Bye Grimm" Ichigo said and went towards the door.

"What was that?" Grimmjow voice wasn't stable.

"A kiss" Ichigo said innocently and left the room.

Grimmjow looked at the door. That wasn't Ichigo.