I went back inside and collapsed on the floor, N turned his head round, walked over to me, got down on both knee's and gently lifted my head up, oh no Touko, what happened, i'm in pain N, i laid on my side, shaking badly, N laid a comforting hand gently on the side of me, it hurt's me, i can't stop it, pain coursed through my body as it became more painful, i screamed as loud as i could, pain's trying to pull me apart, but i can't be pulled apart by pain, shh i'm here Touko i won't go anywhere, N's gentle words were comforting to me, N rubbed his warm hand side by side softly and gently against my side, trying to calm me down, i know it hurt's you Touko, but try to hold on, i turned my body on my back, N placed a soft gentle hand against my chest and it was comforting, it's like N was healing me and he was, i had enough strength to rub N's hand softly which was placed on my chest, N looked down at me, he took his cap off and placed it on my chest, i wish i would hold you in my arm's again Touko, i wish i would take the pain away from you Touko, N placed his face in the crooks of my chest, i gently open my eyes a little, N what happened i said weakly, Touko, N looked at me, i sat up and huddled real close to N, i laid my head softly against his chest, N looked down at me, i need a blanket N, he took the blanket of the bed and put it over my body, he gently wrapped his arm's around me, making me feel warm, oh N your so warm