The past few months have been a little crazy. I'll start from the beginning.

This village is so peaceful. The people are all kind and helpful with anything I need. Everyone has a specific skill, and are always willing to teach it to each other. A young boy who likes to be called Feli taught me how to make basic but effective portraits and drawings, Francis's nephew Matthew is teaching me how to cook flat bread cakes, he calls them pancakes. The ladies here are so sweet, they accept me rather than curse me from coming from another lifestyle.

At first I was searching for a way to escape. I actually found one, but by the time I found it I got attached to this town. It was a little empty space in the forest where I could potentially set up a camp and get away in the night. That wouldn't be right though. Gilbert housed, fed, and entertained me. He was a great host, and turned out to be a great friend. I couldn't put him through the worry of missing me.

I settled into this town for good after that. I decided that if Roderich was ever planning to save me, he would have done so by now. He's probably remarried someone, like my friend Bella. Thoughts like this used to upset me, but now I'm just calmly happy for them. I mean, I probably never had much of a chance marrying him anyways. He seemed interested in me, but judging from the last minutes we had together it might've been more physical than emotional for him. I don't need that, I need someone dependable, a little unpredictable but easy to understand. I guess someone like Gilbert.

I'm not quite sure what I feel for him. I know it's positive, but I don't know if it's really love or not. I thought I loved Roderich but now look at us, it's probably been half a year already and we have had no contact. Gilbert is with me everyday, he knows my favourite color, food, probably most things about me... What if I'm wrong, though? I was probably wrong about Roderich, he could just be really friendly and I could be misreading his intentions. Oh God, I can even trust my mind anymore because it's controlled by my heart.

I've been keeping track of my daily life in a diary. I've written the events in bold and my thoughts about them lightly so I can remember how long it's been and what's happened. Lately there's been several entries involving Gilbert, heh. I've written down all my thoughts and feelings. On paper it's easy to see I'm at least smitten, and I can think more about what to do. I usually keep it close under my bed. I'm a little worried, it disappeared a day ago, but I've probably just misplaced it outside. Not much is happening lately, anyways, so it's okay.

The future looks warm. I wouldn't say it looks bright, but definitely warm.

All this time and nothing. It's like he disappeared off the earth with her. We've searched as far as animals will go, now we're headed back and we're going to search thoroughly through every little town, village and cave. I will find her.

It's been so cold and lonely without her. I didn't realize exactly how much I love her until recently. I always knew I liked her, started to feel like I love her almost a year ago. I've been cursing myself every day for being so forward on the last day we were together. Before that incredible asshole kidnapped her. I know what he's doing, and it's not fair. How could I have caused his downfall? I loved him as a brother. His actions are entirely childish, and it's almost making me hate him. I know he can't help it though, his homelife can't have been great after he left.

I still want her back though. Broken childhood or not, she's mine.

I took a little nap earlier, it was so warm outside and my bed is so comfortable. To work the rest of the comfy sleep out of my system, I stretched my arms over my head. Hearing someone enter, I called out "Gilbert? You there?" and got a mumbled reply. This is kinda odd for him, he'd been so loud lately, that I got up and went to check on him. He had a strange look on his face, like he's hiding something.

" Hey, are you okay?" I ask, concerned. Now he's shuffling, not looking me in the eye, and he's got something behind his back. I lean forward to see it and he pivots, keeping it out of my sight.

" I'll answer that after I ask you a question, Liz. Well, I'll show you first." He brought the item out from behind his back and instantly I feel my face heat up. My diary, so that's where it went. My eyes widened slightly and I struggled for an explanation. Surely he read it! That would mean he knows my feelings... "Uh, did you read it?" Still clinging to the hope he'd ignored his curiosity, even though I knew that was unlikely.

He nodded and smiled, not his normal cocky grin, but a warm smile. "I did. I was looking for a sign the affection is mutual, I finally found it." He hugged me tight suddenly and I responded slightly, mind racing.

... What? He likes me back...? I always figured he'd kidnapped me to spite Roderich, there was no way he could like me. He barely even knew me! Granted, we've had a bit of time now to know each other, but that's still not nearly enough knowledge in the beginning! Oh the gods, and he knows I like him! I made an effort to keep that little book hidden. True, I was more vigilant at first but I still thought it was a good spot! Well, what now?

Ahhhhhh! I'm so so sorry it took me forever to update, got insanely busy thanks to finals and then too excited to type thanks to con. Anyways, sorry for such a time skip! I don't want to put a lot of those in, just saying, only one or two and then the prologue-time. I'll try to update more often but 1.) gotta type up essays for scholarships and junk and 2.) the class I used to type this up in changed, I got bumped up a level and now have no free time in that class. I'll update more than once a month, though. Happy recent New Years and hope you had a pleasant December 25th(my family does Christmas but whatever is cool :D ) . As always, hope you enjoyed reading this, and review pleeeease? I absolutely love reviews and they tend to motivate me to update. Have a nice day/ a good night!