I stuffed the letter in my pocket and erupted into a fit of uncontrollable sobs and tears. After a while of crying I stood up "pull yourself together" I scolded myself…I was falling apart. I collected all of my weapons and scrolls and headed out the door, I was going to find Deidara one way or another. I ran over to Kagome's house and knocked on the door; Ibiki answered. "Oh hello Kira" he greeted me as he turned around "Kagome!" he yelled behind him and soon walked away. Kagome came to the door and greeted me with a hug which I quickly brushed off.

"What's the matter Kira? You look like you've been crying" she said. I looked down "they took him" I said quietly. Kagome tried to hear what I was saying "hmm?" she asked. "They took him Kagome! The akatsuki took Deidara away!" I yelled with tear-filled eyes. She gasped "when?" she asked. I handed her the note that 'Pein' left sitting on the table "it was either today or yesterday, I don't know because I was passed out." She read the letter and looked at me with serious eyes "are you going to find him?" she asked.

"Of course I'm going to find him!" I exclaimed "the only problem is, I don't know where the akatsuki base is." Kagome nodded "hmm, well then we'll have to find it" she replied. I smiled slightly and nodded "ok" I replied almost silently. It was going to be tough for me, not having Deidara around, but I had to try. Kagome disappeared inside her house and came back out several minutes later with all of her weapons. Our #1 priority was to get permission from Lady Hokage so we could leave the village.

Kagome and I ran to her office and we found her outside of the building. "Lady Tsunade!" Kagome yelled. Tsunade stopped and turned around "well, what do you girls want?" she asked sort of impatiently. I shuffled my feet and handed her the note that Pein had left. She read over it with wide eyes "and I suppose you want to go find Deidara?" she asked without looking up from the note. I nodded quickly "yes, yes I do" I said in a confident voice. She looked up at us "when do you decide to return? Do you have any idea where to find him?" she asked.

I shook my head no "no ma'am, I don't know where he is." She gave me an irritated look "so how do you suppose you're going to find him?" she asked. I shrugged "I'll look until I find him, then I will bring him back." Tsunade sighed "well I'm not sure…" her voice trailed off. "Please Lady Tsunade! Kira really loves Deidara and she wont rest until he is with her again" Kagome added. Tsunade nodded "I suppose you may go…but gather a small team of shinobi to assist you" she insisted. I nodded and bowed "yes Lady Hokage" and with those words, Kagome and I quickly looked around the village for people who might assist us.

"ooh! I know! Lets get Ibiki to help!" Kagome said excitedly. "why? So you can stare at him the whole time and be distracted?" I asked. She gave me a blank look "ya don't have to be so negative." I sighed "maybe I'm negative because I don't know where my husband is!" I exclaimed. She patted my back "it's ok, it's ok" she said in a quiet voice, I was at the edge of bursting into tear-filled sobs. I shrugged her hand off of my shoulder and turned away from her "no, it isn't, it really isn't" I said quietly.

"Kira, I should tell you…that I was right" she said in an almost emotionless voice. "Right? About…what?" I asked as I looked at her. "I told you that getting into a relationship with a member of the akatsuki would be trouble…you should have settled for a shinobi of the leaf or the sand…" she replied to my curious face. "Kagome, how could you even say that?" I asked "Deidara and I love each other, you've said it yourself…it doesn't matter about if he's supposedly an enemy, it's only about love" I retorted. She opened her mouth to speak, but I halted her "Kagome, you should know about love since you love Ibiki so much…" I said in complete anger

"you know what? I don't need you, I could find him myself!" I exclaimed as I ran towards the front gates of the village. "No! Kira! Wait!" Kagome yelled behind me. I ran out of the village with tears in my eyes; I was going to find Deidara…no matter what. I walked for hours on end, not knowing where I was heading to. I had heard rumors about where the akatsuki base was, but that's all they were…rumors.

I searched for one and a half months and I found…nothing. I asked all around every village that I came to, and nobody knew where the akatsuki base was. I missed Deidara terribly, and I always wondered if he was alright. I was determined that I would find him some day. I had gotten a letter from Kagome telling me that she was worried about me. She stressed that she thought that if I found Deidara had been killed, that I would take my own life. Every day, my mind refused to believe he was dead…I just couldn't stand that thought.

I started to get more information on where the akatsuki might be. I went to where I had heard that it was, and I found utterly nothing. I sat on a boulder and hid my face into my hands "no…no, no, no" I said to myself as tears threatened to stream down my face. "A bit lost aren't you?" I heard a familiar voice. I sighed and looked up a bit, I didn't look far enough up to look at their face…but I knew by the black cloak that it was one of the akatsuki. "Yes, I may be" I replied as I put my head into my hands again. "You look sad" the voice replied.

I heard footsteps coming closer to me and I sighed "you seem…unhappy" the voice seemed closer to me now. I looked up and was face to face with Kakuzu. "Yes, I am unhappy" I replied with another dreary sigh. "You miss Deidara, don't you…" he asked while resting his hand on my shoulder. "Yes, I do…and you took him away!" I snapped as tears again stung my eyes and dared to fall onto my cheeks. "It was an order, I had to…I didn't want to" he replied as his eyes trailed downward to the ground. "Where is he?" I asked as I clasped the hemline of my vest.

He gave me a blank stare and was very silent. "Where is he? Is he alive?" I asked much louder. Kakuzu sighed almost silently "Yes, he is alive…and he is currently on a mission with Tobi." A small smile spread across my face "really?" I asked. He nodded "yes, they are on a mission…" he replied as he grabbed my small map from my hand. He opened it and pointed to a certain area "they should be around here."

I nodded "thank you so much Kakuzu!" I exclaimed as I gave him a friendly hug. He pushed me off of him "just go" he said. I nodded in understanding and I ran off to where Kakuzu said they would be. About a half an hour later I was in the direct area where Deidara and Tobi were supposed to be. "Tobi would you shut up un!" I heard Deidara's voice exclaim over the sound of the rustling leaves of the trees. I hid behind a tree and looked at them, Tobi and Deidara were walking either to or from a mission. It was great to see Deidara again, how I had missed him!

"Let's just get this damn thing over with" Deidara said in an angry voice. "Sempai?" I heard Tobi start to speak. "What is it Tobi un?" he asked. "Sempai, do you miss Kira?" he asked in his silly innocent voice. Deidara nodded and took something out of his pocket, it was a picture of me; he smirked at the picture "I do Tobi, every day" he replied quietly. They both stopped walking "Tobi, I wish I could just see her face again yeah" he said. I got the bravery I needed…so what if Pein killed me! All I wanted to do was to feel the comfort that I did when I was in Deidara's arms.

I took a step forward and apparently, they heard me. "Sempai, I think there's someone out here" Tobi said as he looked around. "I'm not an enemy…" I began as I took another step forward. I was in eyesight of the two of them now, I knew this because Deidara's eyes widened. "Kira? Is that you?" Tobi asked as he walked over to me. I nodded "hi Tobi, it's been awhile hasn't it?" I asked. Tobi nodded solemnly "Kira, Tobi's sorry for what he did…Tobi had to.." he began.

I gave him a slight smile "don't worry about it Tobi, I know it was what you had to do." I sidestepped him and looked at Deidara who was standing there in utter shock. I walked over to him and placed my hand on his warm cheek. "I've been looking all over for you" I said in a soft voice as I held back tears. We stood in silence for a few moments before Deidara wrapped his arms around me in a tight embrace. Tears ran down my cheeks and I clung onto him as if it were the last moment I would ever see him. I started to sob and cry as I was in the comfort of Deidara's arms.

He pulled back away from me, not letting go of me. He studied the happy, yet distressed look on my face and gave me a small smile. He hugged me again "shhh, its ok Kitty…you don't need to cry, I'm here un." He wiped the tears from my eyes and I smiled at him "I missed you so much!" I exclaimed. He kissed my forehead "I missed you too yeah…after I was dragged away from you I was kept under constant watch; I couldn't leave anyone's sight." I smiled slightly "as soon as you were taken away, I immediately set out after you…I haven't been home in a month and a half."

He gave me a quick kiss on the lips and I smiled; I had missed those sweet kisses so very much! He held me in his arms and put his head near my ear "Kitty, I cant come back with you today…but go home and wait for me, I will be there after a couple of days un" he whispered so only he and I could hear. I nodded "ok, I understand" I whispered back. He kissed my forehead and hugged me again. "Tobi's sorry for interrupting, but we have to get back to the base" Tobi said as he tapped Deidara on the shoulder. "Tobi…why? Why cant we have just five more freaking minutes un!" Deidara exclaimed. "Tobi's pushing it by letting you two see each other…we have to go" Tobi replied.

I sighed and Deidara let go of me "Well I-I uh…guess I should go home now…" my voice trailed off. I didn't want to let Deidara out of my sight. "Tobi suggests you go home, before leader finds out" Tobi said. I nodded "I guess that would be the wise choice" I said in a sad voice. While Tobi wasn't looking Deidara winked at me and nodded, and I nodded back at him. "Well I guess I'll see you" I said in a solemn voice. Tobi gave me a friendly hug "bye Kira!" he said in his excited voice. "Bye Tobi" I managed to mutter as I was being squished. Tobi let go and I ran over to Deidara and he held me in a warm embrace. "Kitty, this wont be the last time I see you…I promise un" he said.

I nodded and he put his head close to my ear again "remember what I told you yeah" he whispered. "Ok" I said weakly as I clung onto Deidara for a moment. "I love you" I said as I let go of him and held his hand. "I love you too" he replied before giving me a sweet kiss on the lips. We let go of each others' hands and I watched Deidara and Tobi walk off into the distance. The last thing I heard was Tobi saying, "Sempai is happy now…right?" which made me sort of inwardly giggle.

It took me a week, but I FINALLY got home. I walked through the front village gates and saw Kagome and…Gai. As soon as I walked into the village, I was immediately attacked with questions from the both of them. "Did you see him?" "Is he dead?" "Is he alright?" I finally got them both to back up away from me and shut up. "Yes, I found him, no he isn't dead…" my voice trailed off angrily as I glared at Kagome who had asked the second question. "And yes, he is alright…he instructed me to wait at home for him" I finished.

Gai grinned at me "I'm glad you're ok!" he exclaimed. I patted his head and laughed "thanks Gai" I replied. I nodded to the both of them and then ran all the way home. As soon as I walked in the door, Yuki was at my feet. I picked her up and stroked her soft fur "missed ya little kitty" I said. I put her down and went over to her food bowls and I gave her food and water. I sat on the couch and stared off into the distance in wonder. "how long do I wait?" I thought to myself. I soon shrugged it off and walked into the bedroom I sighed and laid down on the bed; I quickly fell asleep.

I was excused from missions for a week, to recover from the sadness of Deidara not being with me. I thought it was pointless, but Lady Tsunade thought otherwise. I awoke one morning, a week after I had seen Deidara, and got dressed. I walked over to the kitchen and looked at the piled up mess sitting in the sink. I sighed and started to do the dishes. Suddenly, when I was about finished with the dishes, I felt warm arms around my waist. Half of my mind wanted to freak out, but the other half knew who it was.

I looked down and saw the mouths on the palms, I had confirmed it, it was Deidara. I smiled and let myself sink into the embrace, it was like heaven. "I'm back" he whispered into my ear. I stopped what I was doing and turned to face him. I smiled and put my arms loosely around his neck "I missed you so much" I said. He smirked "I missed you too un" he replied. I pulled myself closer to him and kissed him. The only thing that was different about Deidara was that he didn't wear his cloak, akatsuki ring, or headband.

"How did you…?" I asked as I looked at him. He chuckled "faked my death yeah" he replied. "r-really?" I asked in both question and happiness. He nodded "now, they wont come after me." I smiled and hugged him "that's good, I'm glad that you're back" I said. He smiled "I hope that never happens again, I don't want to be separated from you for that long again." I sighed and gave him a quick kiss "same here" I replied. I wrapped my arms around his neck again and rested my head on his chest. He wrapped his arms around my waist and kissed the top of my head. I felt so comfy, I never wanted to let go…never again.