(A/N) I am so sorry this has taken me forever to post but I have been very busy. School sucks. ;)

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Chapter 2

I opened my eyes and the very first thing I think about is "Cooper" My sweet baby boy. I love him more than life itself. The very next thing I think about "James". I wonder what he is doing right now. I wonder if he misses me as much as I miss him. Then I get out of bed and go to my sons crib, watch him as he sleeps. Then its off to get ready for the day while he sleeps peacefully in his is how every single day for the last year and a half has started for me. I think back on the day that I left and a part of me feels guilty for leaving not only James but everyone else without an explanation. I just up and left. I didn't tell anyone. I have seen my mother and I talk to her regularly. She says that everyone asks about me and she just tells them that I had to go and that I couldn't deal with the whole LA scene. She told them that I wanted out so I left. I had gotten my number changed so I didn't have any contact with anyone other than my mother. I thought this would be the best way for me. I ask my mother how James is, she tells me that he would never say it but he is pissed that I did something like this. She said for a while he mopped around but eventually he started to get back to his old self. She also told me that she over heard him talking to Carlos and he told him "It obviously wasn't meant to be so I just have to let her go. She didn't love me enough to tell me where she was going let alone that she was even leaving so its time for me to go on with my life." I think my mother thought it was what I wanted to hear which in a way I did but it still hurt like hell to think that he thought these things of me. But its better this way and that's why another part of me thinks I did the right thing. Big Time Rush, like I said they would had gotten a lot bigger, a hell of a lot bigger. Sold out tours in multiple countries, multi-platinum albums and huge endorsement deals. So yes, I do feel like I have made the right choice.

I'm brought out of my day-dream by a distant whimper. I walk into my room, the room Cooper and I share at my grandmothers. I walk over to my 11 month old son standing up holding the edge of his crib. His hazel eyes look very tired still. I reach out to pick him up. "Good Morning, Coopy Coop! Did you sleep well?" He lays his head down on my shoulder. I run my fingers through his thick brown hair. I lay him on the bed and begin to change him. He starts to smile at me, showing his two bottom teeth. What a cute baby, I swear. "Thats better. Momma likes to see a smiley baby not a grumpy one." Laughing I lean over and kiss his chubby cheeks. He looks a lot like James. The only thing he really got from me was the curls in his hair, that's pretty much it and im the one that had to carry him for 9 months.

After getting Cooper ready I take him down stairs for breakfast. "Morning Grandma!" I said to her walking into the kitchen. She looks up from the news paper, yes she still reads the news paper, "Morning Katie," she stands up and walks to me "and good morning to you Cooper baby." She says taking him from me. "Oh honey I made blueberry muffins, they are in the toaster oven, maybe Cooper wants one too." I walk to the toaster and see them I heat up two and walk back to the table. I broke Coopers into pieces placing the pieces on him high chair tray then sat down to eat mine. "Would you like some orange juice or milk?" Grandma asks. "Yes orange juice please." She brings over a cup for me and a sippy cup full of milk for Cooper. Cooper loved the muffin. It's the first time he has ever one. I was nervous about giving him any kind of food other than baby food but the doctor says that along with the baby food he can have some adult food just not too much. He has done well with it though so I have given him a little more.

After breakfast I had to get ready for work. I was working for a bank in the city. It paid well enough. It paid enough that I could move out but I really wasn't ready for that and besides Grandma watches Cooper for me while I work so its convenient to just live with her and she is wonderful to us and I love living with her. It's nice to have someone else around. I really wouldn't want to live alone anyway. I'm a chicken when it comes to that kind of thing. I think my Grandma would be lonely too if I moved out. So I wont be moving out anytime soon. Unless Grandma wanted me too but she has never said anything. My job wasn't too bad. I sat behind a desk and did a lot of loan applications and things like that. I worked from 9 - 5 and was home in time to play with Cooper, have dinner with him and Grandma, give him a bath, play some more and then put him to bed. That night after putting Cooper to bed my Grandmother called me into the kitchen and said that she just wanted to talk to me a bit. She wanted to know how I was really doing with the whole having a baby and not having an extra person to help. I told her that I had help, I had her. That's not what she meant though. I told her that it was OK and that this is what I wanted and this is how I wanted it to stay. I didn't want James to know about Cooper. My grandmother never agreed with that but she never said anything and always respected my wishes but the next sentence to come from her was not a sentence I wanted to hear. "Baby I'm sorry but I got a phone call from your Mom today and Kendal wants to come home and visit, his hometown, his friends, and me." What the hell? Kendal always said that he never wanted to come back here, this was a life he wanted to leave behind. He loved my grandma and missed her a lot but unless she went to LA, he wasn't seeing her. That's how I've been able to avoid him for almost two years. Why in the hell would he suddenly want to come here and visit? Unless...Oh God he knows I'm here. "When is he coming?" I asked her. "Not sure, your mom is supposed to call me and let me know when he makes the plans" she paused looking down at her cup of tea "what are you going to do Kate, you're not gonna run are ya?" I shook my head and felt tears in my eyes. This was it, just like that, everything is going to come out. Everyone will know everything. Unless I can talk Kendal into not telling anyone. "No Grandama! I'm not. Im just gonna have to face him I guess. What else can I do" I got up out of the chair and walked around the table and kissed her on the cheek. "Night Grandma. I love you." "Night baby girl, love you too"

I got to my room and changed into my PJs then walked to Coopers crib. He was sleeping so peacefully. I touched the top of his head. "Im sorry baby, but I think everything is about to change." I kissed his cheek and went to my bed. Needless to say I didn't sleep at all.

(A/N) I know it was kind of a rambler but I had to give some information in this chapter. I will have the next chapter up this week though, I promise. I hope everyone likes it. I know exactly where this story is going so it should be easy from here on out. The next chapter will be when He comes to visit...Cant wait! R&R Please!