(a/n) So I had a free night so I've decided that I would put up a chapter...or maybe two. Depending on how I feel after this one. I hope you guys enjoy.

I have chosen to do a chapter in James point of view because I feel that it is important we know how he feels.

Chapter 5

(James POV)

It has been a year and a half since Katie left. Not a word from her. She hasn't talked to her brother or any of the other guys either, as far as I know. I know she talks to her mom and I ask Momma Knight how she is and she just simply says "James, honey, shes fine. I promise."

The morning after she left I went to her room to see if she was awake, I knocked and there wasnt an answer. I opened the door slowly just incase she was changing or something. When I opened the door all the way my heart went to my throat, I thought I was going to be sick. Everything was gone. She was gone. I started to panic, what if she had been kidnapped and was laying in a ditch somewhere. What if she was in some kind of trouble and had to leave suddenly. I ran back out to the kitchen, "Momma Knight, Katie's gone!" She looked to me with sad eyes. "I know. She left last night." She then began to tell us that Katie was tired of living in LA and decided to leave. She said Katie didn't tell her where she was going and that she didn't want any phone calls, for us to just let her go. She said she knew Katie was safe. It felt like someone ripped my heart out of my chest. The one person who knew better than anyone else, inside and out was gone. I ran to my room and got to my phone. I don't care if she wants phone calls or not. I need to talk to her. I dial her number, it went straight to voicemail. "Katie, I'm not sure whats going on but please call me. I need to talk to you. I love you!" I hung up and went to sit on my bed. What the hell could be so bad about this city that she would just leave without telling anyone.

Later that day I left my room to go talk to the guys. I asked Kendall if he knew where Katie was. She told Kendall almost everything so maybe he would know. He told me he was just as surprised as I was and he had no clue. Logan and Carlos didn't know either. "James, she will come back. Shes gonna realize that her life is here now. I'm here, my mom is here, Carlos and Logan are here and more importantly you're here, man. We just need to give her time. Maybe she has something going on that she needs to deal with on her own." Kendall finished and I didn't say anything. Something didn't feel right. This was different. This is bigger then any of us. I just wish she would at least text me and say she's ok. That all I want to know. No that's not true, I want to know where she was so I could go get her or I could go talk to her.

A few days had passed and I had called Katie at least a dozen times. She never picked up. What was she doing what is going on. Gosh I wish she would answer. I love that girl with my whole heart. She is my whole heart. I am not complete without her. I'm not sure how to be myself without her. What do I do without her. What if she doesn't come back? What if what Kendall said is wrong? What if this is permanent. How do I move on? I feel tears now fall down my face. I pick up my phone to call her again. Straight to voice mail again, "Katie look I'm not sure what is going on or why you left but I need you to call me back. I need YOU. Please don't do this to me, Please. I love you so much it hurts. Please Katie I'm begging you. PLEASE." I hung up and felt myself fall to the floor and start to cry hard, really hard. I needed her.

A few more days had passed, I had called Katie a few more times but I didn't leave anymore voice mails. It went to voice mail every time. The last time I called was yesterday and when I heard the operator say "This number is no longer in service." My heart stopped. I knew that was it. She was gone and she was gone forever.

I spent some time in my room shutting the world out. I needed sometime to myself. Time to deal with this. My life had just changed drastically. After a couple of days I would leave but only to do BTR stuff. Thing I had to do but other than that I spent most of the day in my room. It was a hard time for me. I eventually came to reality and figured 'You know whar, obviously our relationship wasnt what I thought it was. She didn't love me like I thought she had. Its time for me to stop all this and get back to my life. She has more than likely gotten over it so why shouldnt I.' Everything for me has been ok since, I mean I think about her everyday of course. Even if she may have not loved me I still loved her. But things were about to change.

Before Kendall left to go visit his Grandmother back in Minnesota he told us that he thought maybe Katie was there. My heart was about to pop out of my chest. What? At her Grandmothers? He also said that he thought maybe his mom knew where Katie was and that she may have known all along. I didn't think so because Momma Knight would have told us. Wouldnt she? When he left I tried not to think too much about it. I didn't want to get my hopes up. I also didn't want to think too much into it because if she moved without wanting any of us to know where she was then maybe she wanted to keep it that way. It wasnt like I was going to be on a plan to Minnesota to see her and besides a part of me was very mad and hurt by what she did. She hurt me so bad and I'm not sure I would ever be able to forgive her for that.

I was working on music for our next album when I got a new text from a random number. I opened the text message:Hey, its Katie. I know your thinking what the hell and you probably don't want anything to do with me but Kendall found me at my grandmothers, which I know he told you guys that he thought I was here. Anyway there is a lot that we should talk about. How sorry I am for starters...Hope to talk to you soon! What the hell was my first thought. For real. 'There is a lot we should talk about'? After all this time she want to talk now? Really? I really don't want to hear her reasoning anymore. I don't want to know why. I don't want anything to do with her. Wow! It's amazing how that happens, the shoe is now on the other foot. It was me who wanted to talk to her so bad and she wouldn't respond and now here we are, she wants to talk to me and I want nothing to do with her. I put my phone down without responding to her text. I continued to write.

(a/n) EEEEP! I really hope you guys liked it. I'm so sorry! It was a rambler but its important we know how James has dealt with this. R&R PLEASE!