Beginning

Six months later Spencer was still living in the Hotchner home. He'd stayed over the night of Vicki's murder and never been home since apart from to get a few of his things especially clothes or baby books. He mostly slept in the spare room but sometimes he'd sleep on the couch. He didn't feel right sharing Aaron's bed with him currently especially because they weren't in a relationship though they had been becoming closer.

He'd helped Aaron through all the funeral arrangements and been there for him at the funeral itself. While Aaron had carried Maggie to say her final goodbye to her mother he'd placed his hand on Aaron's back reminding him he was here for him always no matter what. He'd even stepped up with him as he read the eulogy for which Aaron had been silently thankful.

Ever since that fateful day Spencer had been doing his best to help Aaron at home with a teenage son and a baby daughter. He'd tried to help him raise them with what he'd learned from books but it had also given him a learning curve. Not everything about parenting could be learned from books. Aaron was more than thankful though for the extra set of hands helping him raise his two children.

He'd even given him an ear to listen to when he just couldn't get to sleep at night shortly after Vicki had been killed. He'd tried to make him see he had nothing to feel guilty about; Vicki's death had been an unfortunate event that was in no way related to him. She'd been chosen because she'd fitted the victimology. It hadn't been in any way related to him.

He'd even given him a shoulder to cry on and let him know he didn't have to be strong all the time; he was a grieving widower. He'd helped him with the children when he'd felt he couldn't take it anymore. He'd even given him space for himself when he'd felt overwhelmed but always been there for him to reach out too.

Aaron sat down on the sofa nervously thinking about everything Spencer had done in the last six months and how close they had become. He knew he'd fallen in love with him and he just couldn't imagine him not in his life and his home. He'd become a vital part of himself and without him he'd feel like he was falling apart. He couldn't live without him and he didn't believe he could be this comfortable with anyone else.

He felt so nervous right now knowing he wanted to do this more than anything. Spencer made him feel so alive and he wanted to show him that. He wanted him to know and feel how happy he made him. How complete and strong he made him.

"Aaron, what's wrong?" Spencer asked placing his hand over Aaron's feeling tingles running down his spine.

He looked up to see the desire and love in Aaron's eyes making his heart leap in nervous anticipation and butterflies fly round his stomach. He'd fallen back in love with him he just knew it. He was his again.

Suddenly Aaron claimed Spencer's lips for his own. Spencer kissed him back with as much passion while running his fingers through his hair and Aaron had his hand on the back of his head. They felt the electricity course through their veins as their passion for each other grew.

Aaron broke away and sighed, "the bedroom, the bedroom. Can't let Jack catch us. Luckily Maggie too young."

Spencer smiled and let Aaron take his hand as he led him to his bedroom for the first time since he'd moved in to help him. Spencer smiled even more as he saw it was a king size bed and Aaron pushed him down onto it. Suddenly Aaron began to feel nervous and he didn't understand it. Was it because it was the first time for him with a man? It must be! He was sure of it.

Spencer looked up at him concerned and saw how nervous he felt so took his hand. He hoped to God the memory wasn't coming back of what Jack had told them he'd seen in the attic. He knew how much that would crush him and it would kill him to see. He had to know Spencer would never force him to have sex with him. He'd take it all at his own pace.

"Aaron, we don't have to if you don't want to," he assured him.

"No, no, I want to...I'm just nervous," he replied.

"I'm nervous too but we don't have to do anything you don't want."

He nodded. He was eternally grateful he had such a loving, understanding lover who had waited for him so long and never forced him to fall back in love with him. He'd fallen back in love with him of his own accord.

Spencer took over and gently pulled him down onto the bed undressing him while Aaron undressed him too. Spencer ran his hands over his new lover's athletic figure. Even while being a single dad to two he'd kept up his figure for the job. Aaron ran his hands down Spencer's sides taking in his naked body.

Spencer rolled them over with his hips so that Aaron would be lying underneath on top of his bed. They'd made sure the door was closed so his teenage son couldn't come in and accidentally see them making love to each other. He kissed him down his chest and abdomen then licked top to tip of his penis while Aaron moaned in sexual pleasure.

He soon was about to explode so he ran his fingers through his lover's hair and said, "Spencer, I need you. I need you now." Spencer smiled up at him and took his manhood into his mouth sucking gently up and down up and down while Aaron bucked into him until he finally couldn't take it anymore and exploded. Spencer smiled up and him withdrawing Aaron's penis and licked the tip.

Aaron gently flipped them over with his legs and followed Spencer's demonstration as he kissed his younger lover down his chest and abdomen then licking Spencer's penis from top to tip repeatedly while Spencer moaned with sheer ecstasy. He then took him into his mouth and sucked up and down up and down until Spencer himself exploded.

Feeling more confident now about making love to the man he loved Spencer gently flipped Aaron over onto his front. As he gently and slowly inserted his penis into Aaron's rectum he assured, "We can stop any time you want to."

Aaron shook his head as he clutched the pillow in sexual pleasure and answered, "Keep going, keep going. Feels so good." Spencer smiled and thrusted himself gently in and out of Aaron's rectum while Aaron sighed and moaned in sheer ecstasy gripping the pillow until he once again came.

Once he had he made them swap positions and gently and slowly inserted himself into Spencer's rectum doing exactly the same as he'd just done to him while Spencer moaned in sheer delight. Soon enough he exploded again while groaning in intense pleasure.

When they were both spent they lay back on the pillows sighing in ecstasy. When he could pick himself up again Aaron turned over to his lover and traced his hand down the side of his face and smiled, "Thank you."

"For what?" Spencer asked confused.

"For waiting for me, for being patient, for never giving up on me."

"I love you, Aaron."

"I love you too, Spencer," he answered placing a gentle and loving kiss on his lips while they both felt the tingles.

He snuggled up to him while Spencer enveloped him in his arms kissing his temple. He smiled back up at him and they fell asleep in each other's arms both feeling complete finally.