Dayum these chapters just get harder and harder to write _ hope ya like it. Just a short chapter. Hopefully I'll start the next chapter soon when I get the chance. Love the reviews and the support! Thanks guys :)

Bella's POV

This can't be happening. My soul mate was gone. My imprint. I can't live without him. How did this happen? Why did this happen to him?

"Come on Bella, we have to carry him inside. We can't leave him here" I heard a vulnerable voice whisper. I didn't figure out who it was, I didn't need it. I just nodded.

I felt so numb. I slowly lifted myself off his body, planting a kiss against his cold lips and stroked his cheek for the last time. I watched as Jared and Sam lifted his lifeless body up from the ground. I choked back a scream.

I didn't want anyone to touch him, but they were his best friends. His brothers. I just felt like it was my fault that he was gone. If I hadn't met him in the first place, maybe he would still be alive. Maybe he would have a girlfriend or a family of his own.

I slowly got up and watched as they carried him into the house and into one of the spare rooms. They tucked him in and left the room silently without a word. Everyone else had moved into the living room, holding onto each other and grieving together. It was my fault, I did this.

"You didn't kill him Miss Isabella" I heard a deep voice say.

I looked around and no one was there. I scrunched my eyebrows in confusion before I slowly headed up the stairs into the spare room. I hesitated at the door; I didn't know whether to walk in or not.

I felt a slight gust of wind push me into the room. That was weird. I slowly made my way to the bed. My feet growing heavier and heavier with each step I took. I crawled into bed next to him, resting my hand on his chest and resting my head on his shoulder.

"You are not dead. You are not dead. " I whispered. I just lay next to him for hours, not realising I ended up falling asleep.

I woke up to the door shutting. I jolted awake and looked around confused. Hmm maybe it was my dad going to work. I looked down at Paul and he looked so pale. I didn't like it. It just wasn't him.

I sighed and dragged myself out of bed and headed towards the bathroom. I was in my own little grieving world. Even my wolfy hearing didn't pick up the little gasp from behind me.

Paul's POV

I gasped for breath as I felt myself connect with my body again. I look around frantically to see where I was. One of the spare rooms? I heard the shower running, I felt the familiar scent. My Bella.

I rolled to the side of the bed and inhaled the pillows. It was mixed with my scent and hers. Her scent was overpowering. I heard sobbing from the bathroom and I blinked back a few tears. My heart was breaking. I heard the water stop running. I walked towards the bathroom and stepped in.

I watched her from my spot. She was drying her dripping wet hair with a long towel facing the mirror. She was in a daze. She hadn't seen me in the mirror reflection yet. I walked up to her and wrapped my arms around her waist and rested my head on her shoulder staring at her in the mirror. She looked up and gasped, closing her eyes.

"Open your eyes beautiful" I whispered, nuzzling her shoulder.

"No"

"Why not Swan?" I asked confused.

"Because if I open my eyes you will be gone. Please don't do this to me" she begged.

"I'll still be here when you open your eyes. I promise Swan" I encouraged.

I watched as she slowly cracked open one of her eyes before her eyes snapped open. She looked at me shocked.

"Am I imagining things Paul? You're here? You're really here? You're not dead?" she whimpered.

"In the flesh" I grinned before I turned her in my arms.

"How is that possible? You were dead!" she screamed at me.

"I know I was dead Swan and I'm sorry I left you. The spirits said that it wasn't my time to die yet, so they brought me back to life. To you" I said cupping her cheek and stroking her cheek with my thumb.

She flung herself at me and hugged me so tight that if I wasn't a wolf, she would have probably broke a few bones. Right now all I wanted to do was to never let go of her again. I wrapped an arm around her waist and rested my other hand on her hair as she clung to me sobbing her heart out. A few tears leaked from my face and onto her hair but I didn't care. We needed comfort from each other.

"Fuck, I love you Swan. Always and forever" I whispered planting a light kiss on her head.

"I love you Lahote. Always and forever" she whispered back.

"Swan?" now or never.

"Yeah?" She asked pulling away to look at me. I took a deep breath and got down on one knee holding her hand.

"Swan. I know this isn't how you expected it. But after that scare, I can't lose you again. Marry me. Be my wife. I love you so much. I want us to have a family together, grow old together. We can stop phasing soon. I want to see you blossom with child, my child. I'll never love anyone as much as I love you, ever. I want you to be my wife. Will you marry me Swan?" I looked up at her with tearful yet hopeful eyes.

My heart sank when I saw her close her eyes and take a deep breath. She removed her hand from my grasp. This was it. She was going to reject me. I can't even explain the feeling. It kind of felt like I had died all over again. The rejection hit me so hard. I shut my eyes and let the hot tears run down my face.

I felt a hand cup the side of my face. I refused to open my eyes and see the answer in her eyes. I don't think I could bare it.

"Paul, open your eyes" I shook my head refusing again. "Please" I couldn't refuse her again.

I slowly opened my eyes and she was on her knees facing me. The love shining in her eyes. I was confused.

"Yes" she simply said. My jaw dropped. She said yes. My girl said yes. She is agreeing to marry me.

"Really?" I asked cautiously.

"Yes Paul. A million times yes" she grinned at me.

I pulled her into my arms and squeezed her tight. She actually said yes. Well I'll be damned. I pulled back and started showering her with kisses.

"I love you Swan" I whispered lovingly at her. This was one of the moments where I would be emotional.

"I love you more Lahote"

"Not possible future Mrs Lahote" I winked at her, sealing the proposal with a kiss.

I wrapped her in a towel and carried her to the bedroom. I dropped her on the bed and she growled at me. I crawled up the bed and leaned down for a kiss. It was a simple kiss but we poured our love and the relief that I was alive into that kiss.

We hurriedly removed her towel and my pants. I ducked my head down and starting planting kisses on her neck. She tilted her head to the side to grant me better access. She moaned when I bit on her collarbone.

"Paul, don't tease me. I need you now. No foreplay. Maybe later" she begged. I knew why she wanted to, it was a normal feeling. She thought I was dead.

I groaned and positioned my hard cock against her folds, giving her a gentle kiss before plunging into her. She screamed as her walls clasped around my cock, I groaned at the feeling. It felt so good just to be inside her, I didn't move just yet.

I dropped my head and nuzzled into her shoulder. I started slowly thrusting my hips forward. She wrapped her arms around my shoulder, clawing at my back. I didn't mind it; it turned me on even more.

She gasped each other I thrusted my hips towards her, she arched her back and starting meeting my thrusts. It was slow, not what I would usually go for when it comes to sex. But we needed to take it slow, especially when we had briefly lost each other.

She wrapped her legs around my waist and her arms around my neck, pulling me closer. I started to pick up my pace a little bit; I reached down and started rubbing her nub. She moaned and rolled us over.

She wrapped her hands around her hair and starting riding my cock slowly and then gradually starting to pick up pace and slowing down again. She was torturing me, but I loved it. I gripped her hips and guiding her.

"Swan, you're killing me" I groaned.

"Well I can't have that future husband of mine" she grinned before she started riding my cock with a quick pace.

She arched her back and the sensation was unbelievable. I started thrusting my hips up, meeting her thrusts. I gripped her bum and started thrusting up quicker. Pulling her down and fucking her harder and faster. She was screaming in ecstasy, I sat up and let her bounce on my cock. Fuck that felt so good.

"Paul, I'm gonna cum" she moaned as I sucked one of her nipples into my mouth.

I leaned my head back and thrusted a few more times before she growled and latched her teeth against my neck as she rode out her orgasm. My eyes rolled back as she marked me as hers. I panted out my orgasm filling her, falling back onto the bed exhausted.

"Damn Swan, you wear me out" I teased.

She just giggled as she started planting kisses on my chest and licking her mark on my neck. I wrapped my arms around her and nuzzled into her hair.

"I love you Paul" she whispered.

"I love you too Swan" I whispered back. She rolled off me and lay back on the bed. I gave her a peck on the lips before I got out of bed and started pulling my pants back up.

"Paul? What are you doing? Where are you going?" She asked sitting up while holding the bed sheets against her chest. She looked worried, sad and confused.

"Nothing. I just need to do something. I'll be right back. I love you" I said kissing her on the lips before jumping out the window.

I jogged away from the house, not before looking back. She was standing by the window; I blew her a kiss before I carried on jogging. I needed to get home. This was going to be an interesting journey. I had a ring in one of the drawers of my bedside table. It was Bella's. I never told anyone that I had bought it, but I bought it a while back. Even before I became a wolf.

I reached the familiar part of the forest. I could smell it already. Home. Bella was home too, but this was a different home. The home where I grew up. I reached the last of the trees before I saw the house. The house was white and quite modern.

There was a nice front garden and bushes outside the house. Stairs going up to the porch and there was a porch swing. There were poles around the house to keep the second roof standing. There was a roof above the porch and there was the roof of the house obviously.

I stepped closer and find a familiar face sitting on the porch swing. Mama. I ran up to the house and up the stairs. She didn't notice me yet. That was weird. She was holding something in her hand with tears streaming down her cheeks. I walked slowly towards her before I knelt down in front of her. She was holding a photo of me.

"Mama" I breathed cupping her cheek.

"I know Jared. My baby's gone" she sobbed as she nuzzling into my palm. My eyes shined with tears.

"Mama. It's me. Paul" I tried again. She shook her head and kept saying that her baby was gone. She may not be my biological mother but she raised me as her own after my parents died.

"Mama it's really me. I'm not dead. Look at me" I whimpered grasping both of her hands tightly. She looked down at our joint hands before slowly raising her head to look at me. She gasped as she saw me.

"Paul? My baby? You aren't dead?" she asked in disbelief.

"I'm alive mama. I'm not dead. Well at least I was, but not anymore. The spirits said it wasn't my time to die yet so they let me come back. I'm so sorry mama" I cried.

"Oh baby, you don't have to be sorry. You are here and alive, that's all that happens. Jared is inside" On cue, Jared walked out the front door.

"Mum? I heard you talking to someon…. Holy shit!" he cursed. He looked at me and shook his head with disbelief. "Mum am I seeing things? Is that really Paul or am I seeing a ghost?" he looked at her confused before his eyes flickered back to me.

"He's back. He's alive Jared. Your brother is alive" was all she said before he ran towards me and pushed me off the porch. She screamed at the sudden action.

He jumped off the porch and glared at me. He was pissed. I sighed and looked at mama. She nodded, knowing what I was asking. I sighed and nodded. I stepped into a fighting stance, ready.

"You left us! How could you leave us like that?! You left your family! Bella! Mama! The pack! Me! You left us all just like that!" he growled before he sent a right hook into the side of my face.

My head snapped to the right. I wiped the blood off the corner of my mouth before I looked at him again. He sent a punch into my stomach that had me wincing and doubled over. Maybe a couple of broken ribs. Ouch.

"I didn't mean to Jared. I didn't plan on getting myself killed. You know that" I snarled, spitting blood onto the green grass.

"You weren't concentrating. Hell we were warned about the newborns, but you didn't listen. You know why? It's because you're so cocky thinking you are the only fighter in the pack" He growled punching me hard in the shoulder.

"I'm a better fighter than you. I'm ONE of the best fighters in the pack and you know it. Yeah I was cocky so what?! I was distracted… so what? I was only distracted because I was worried about my Bella. I know she can protect herself but she can be reckless sometimes and I don't want anything to happen to her" I snapped roundhouse kicking him in the side, sending him to the floor.

I straddled his hip and starting throwing punches at his face and chest. I had enough and got up off him.

"You would have done the same if it was Kim. You would die for her, no matter what. You know that feeling. You should know it better than me, you've imprinted longer. I'm still a beginner at all this shit" I spat blood on the grass again before wiping my mouth off the back of the hand.

"Damn it Paul! You were gone for a few hours! My brother was gone. You were fucking dead! Do you know how hard it was to tell mum that you were dead? You aren't exactly her own but she raised you as her own when your parents died. You are my brother. We grew up together. We ride together, we die together. Bad boys for life. Remember?!" he screamed at me. I sighed and sunk down to the ground.

"I know Jared. It was probably the hardest thing you had to do, and I'm glad it was you that told mama. I know it doesn't really matter anymore since I'm alive now. I'm not planning on going anywhere soon, not without you. Brother" I said resting my hand on his shoulder.

"Alright, alright. Enough of this sappy stuff. It's so not us" he laughed ruffling my hair. I ducked out the way and tackled him to the ground. We started laughing and ruffling each other's hair. I knew everything was going to be okay.

I got up and jumped up onto the porch, planting a kiss of mama's cheek before heading into the house. I jumped into the shower to rub off all the dirt from before and yesterday. I shuddered at the thought that I had died.

I got out the shower and wrapped a towel around my waist. I headed to my bedroom and walked towards my bedside table. I pulled out a drawer and grabbed the box that was inside. I opened it and sighed. This was it. I was going to ask her to marry me, again. But this time in front of the pack.

"So who's the special girl?" mama said from behind me. I jumped.

"Whoaw! Mama you scared me. Don't scare me like that" I teased.

"She must be very special indeed if you are going to ask her to marry you, and that I scared you. I never scare you, but you were just deep in thought to notice my presence with your wolfy senses" she smiled at me.

"Yeah mama, she really is special"

"So when do I get to meet this girl of yours?" she looked at me eagerly.

"Well, if you let me get dressed. We will go over to her house. I'm proposing to her in front of the pack. She's already said yes. But this time I'll propose to her properly" I beamed at her. She smiled before she closed my door.

I ran to get a nice pair of pants and grabbed a black v neck shirt. I didn't bother with the shoes; I shoved the box into my pocket and jogged down the stairs. I was eager to get back to my Bella.

"Come on. Let's go" I called as I headed out the door with two pairs of footsteps following me.

We walked into the forest and towards my girl's house. We went at the slow pace since we had mama with us and she wasn't supernatural like us. But it didn't take us long until we hit the end of the woods and got to my girl's house.

I grinned and jogged to the front door. I opened the door and walked into the living room where I knew the pack was. The pack looked up when they heard the door open. Their faces were red from tears, but they looked so shocked when they saw me standing there.

Leah was the first to snap out of it and walked up towards me. She looked at me confused and then she punched me in the stomach. Ouch. I guess I deserved that. She sobbed and wrapped her arms around me hugging me tight.

She's not one to show emotion, but she was just happy to see me alive. This was a one off thing; I wasn't going to expect it all the time. It just wouldn't be her.

"I don't know how Lahote, but I sure as hell thank the spirits for bringing you back" she whispered.

"I know Clearwater, me too" I whispered back hugging her tightly before letting her go.

The pack all came swarming towards me and hugging me tightly. If it wasn't hugging it was a slap on the back. Damn that shit hurt. This went better than expected, but you could tell from their faces that they were expecting it to be a dream.

My head turned to the side as I heard my girl walking down the stairs. I nodded to the others and gestured for them to follow me. I got to the bottom of the stairs and waited for my girl to make her way down the stairs. I took a deep breath. This was it.

She finally reached the bottom of the stairs, which felt like years to me. I pulled the box out of my pocket and got down on one knee. I heard gasps behind me and I smirked.

"Swan. I know I asked you earlier, but I want to make it official this time with a ring. I bought this ring a while back and I just thought of us. Will you do me the honour of becoming my wife?" I spoke with love.

"Yes Paul. A million times yes" she whispered and flung herself at me. I hugged her tightly before slipping the ring on her finger. It was a perfect fit.

"Do you like it Swan?" I asked insecurely, hoping I hadn't made the wrong choice with the ring.

"Like it? I love it!" she squealed happily. I sighed in relief. It was a silver, diamond and amethyst heart ring. The amethyst was surrounded by sparkling diamonds, it really suited her. The pack gathered around, oohing and ahhing at the ring.

Bella's POV

I can't believe Paul proposed again, this time in front of the pack. I couldn't wipe the smile off my face when the pack gathered round me and starting oohing and ahhing at my ring. I loved it. It was special, yet simple.

"Come on! Old woman coming through! Let me see, let me see! Paul, you need to introduce your wife to be to me young man. Now" I heard a voice from behind the pack. I looked around curiously.

Paul came and stood next to me, smiling proudly. The pack started to give way to someone. Was this Paul's mother?

"Mama, this is my fiancée Bella. Bella please meet my mama" he introduced. I looked up and gasped.

"Rissy?"

Okay a bit of a crappy ending but it was a bit rushed. I'm trying to start the next chapter but I've got assignments and a little bit of a writer's block but I'm getting there! Hope y'all like it :) The engagement ring photo will be on my profile :)