Chapter 11. Revealing

Esme woke me up in the morning. I was confused and a little sad. "Has everyone left already?" I asked. Esme laughed lightly. "No honey they are all hunting, preparing for the fight." She said.

I sat up rubbing my eyes. Esme stroked my back. "How come you didn't go with them?" I asked. I wasn't being mean but Esme would be around humans all day. I know it wouldn't bother her too much but she still needed to hunt.

"Because someone had to be here for when you woke up. Besides I was hunting all night whilst you were asleep." She said.

"Would you like breakfast?" She asked.

"Esme, Can we go hunting together?" I asked. Esme looked shocked at my request. But smiled. "Aw honey if you really want to." I was hungry and even my throat was dry and a little bit tingly. I did have to spend a lot of my time with humans.

I had gotten dressed in loose fitted jeans and a long baggy hooded jumper. The weather wasn't too bad for early October. Most of the animals were burrowed away for the long coming winter. So we headed north towards the mountains. There were herds of deer and elk all heading into their burrows for the winter. Not before me and Esme had gotten to them though.

It was lovely spending time with Esme; she is the best grandma ever. We just talked about school and I told her about Sam. I told her that I didn't really want to go with him. She just told me that I should make it clear to him so it didn't feel like I was leading him on. I asked Esme how she met granddad.

She had explained that she met my granddad when she was still a human after she had broken her leg. She was fascinated by him and couldn't get him out of her mind. My granddad had moved away and Esme was a little sad. Her parents were trying to get her to marry a man that seemed really nice. He turned out to be very abusive. Esme had squeezed my hand at this point. Her husband had gone to work in the military for a few years at which point she had found out she was pregnant.

"Anyway." Esme concluded. We were only a few minutes from the house. "Carlisle saved me, I will be forever grateful for everything he has done for me and how he has shown me how I should love and what loving someone really feels like." Esme looked at me beaming. I just didn't know what to say. Esme was so happy and content with her life it made me jealous.

"Esme?" I said trying to stop her going over the top with the mushy stuff. She looked at me smiling. "Yes honey."

"I need to tell you something." I took a deep breath. Esme just looked at me with her glowing smile. "Yes." She waited patiently for me to say what I wanted to. This would take all my courage to do this and completely bad timing for what I wanted to say. I knew my dad would never agree to this I shouldn't have started.

"I know how you feel."I started. Esme just looked at me she smiled at me knowingly. "Oh." She giggled.

"I think- no actually I know I feel the same way about Jacob." I took a deep breath. Esme put her arm around me.

"Oh Renesmee." Esme cried. She looked so upset.

"We all know how you feel about Jacob; it is so sad that he walked away from you and your mom. I wish it hadn't come to this." She sighed.

"Maybe you could change his mind if you tell him." Esme suggested.

"But what about Sam?" I asked.

"You need to tell him the truth." She said.

As we strolled back to the house, we discussed our plan of how I was going to tell Sam that I didn't want to be anything but friends. It would be hard but I needed to, I couldn't lead him on.

Once we were back at the house, Esme had helped me get a little dressed up. I had changed into slim fitted jeans and a long vest top. Esme had brushed my curls so I looked nice. I didn't want to wear any makeup because I wouldn't be staying very long with him, I don't even know why I had gotten dressed up. I felt absolutely terrible but I knew I had to do this. My hands were shaking and I felt suddenly dizzy. Esme fetched me a glass of water and I sat down for a while.

My family had returned to the house to see me off before they met up with Jacob. Mom and dad wished me luck. If only they had an idea. I had told mom about this already so she had shielded me and now Esme well so dad couldn't hear mine and Esme's thoughts about what is going to happen later today.

Not long after my family returned, there was a knock on the door.

"Hi Sam".Esme welcomed him in and gave him a drink. Mom kissed me goodbye and walked out of the door with my dad following worryingly behind her.

Once I was finally ready I came downstairs. "You look great."Sam said.

"Where is everyone else?" I asked biting my lip looking at Esme.

"They cancelled at the last moment." Sam shuffled the weight of his feet. He seemed uncomfortable. I knew he had asked everyone else not to come. This would make it a little easier when I tell him what I need to, but it is going to be really uncomfortable.

"Shall we go then?" He asked taking my hand. I let him lead me to his car. He had his own car. It wasn't a very nice car and it was filthy.

He held the door open for me and I climbed into the backseat. Esme was stood by the door waving me off. Everyone else looked confused except my mom. My dad was kind of angry for my mom shielding everyone. She only did this when she was hiding something.

Once the car had pulled away and my family were a spot in the distance. Sam grabbed my hand. "Thank you Renesmee for agreeing to come with me." He squeezed my hand a little shocked that I was so warm. I had to try to concentrate really hard to not show him what I was thinking. I grabbed my hand back. "You are welcome Sam." I smiled staring out of the window. I wished I was with my family telling Jacob how much I missed him.

Sam was staring at me the whole car ride. When we had eventually turned into the mall parking lot, Sam leaned into me and kissed me. I was so shocked and kind of freaked out.

"Renesmee, how come you are so warm?" Sam put his hand on my head. I moved away.

I didn't know what to say to him. He just sat staring at me.

"Come on." I said getting out of the car. It was raining out so I took my umbrella out of my bag. Sam was still waiting for an explanation; I didn't know what to say.

Suddenly Sam kissed me full on. On the lips my life flashed before my eyes. Sam could see everything from how I was born to when I hunted with Jacob and then all my feelings for Jacob. Sam backed away. "What was that?" He stuttered.

I didn't have time to answer him because my phone suddenly rang. "We are on my way." Alice said down the phone. I had to keep Sam here before he told the world what I was or what my family was. Sam was still frozen to the spot shaking and pointing.

"I am sorry it came to this Sam, It's just I don't have any feelings for you. But you got to promise you won't tell anyone what you saw." I was poking his chest as he was walking backwards.

"I'm not promising anything." He hissed. I just folded my arms.

"Oh I think you are."My dad was suddenly standing behind Sam.

"You see Sam, we don't like grassers. So you be a good boy and keep quiet." Dad gave him the scariest look ever and then passed out.

"Ok I'll take care of this, you get to the fight and Renesmee get home now." Dad pointed to each of us. Meaning Alice Emmett and Jasper.

Alice and Jasper got into their car together Emmett and my dad were in the other. I had to go with my dad and Emmett. Emmett was trying to liven up the atmosphere but dad was so mad that he didn't even stir.

Once we arrived home mom hugged me as I cried. Esme stroked my head. "Renesmee how could you put us in danger." Dad yelled.

I couldn't say anything. It wasn't exactly my fault.

"Edward you know it wasn't her fault she didn't know Sam was going to kiss her." Esme said trying to calm dad down. "What am I meant to do with this?" He nodded towards Sam who was laid out on the sofa unconscious.

"Put him in our house, but lock it up." Emmett threw dad the keys; dad threw Sam over his shoulder and disappeared out of the door.

"Come on we have to go before your dad comes back. We are going to resolve this problem once and for all." Esme and mom squeezed my shoulders.

"Come on then." I said heading out of the door.