Bella's POV
2 weeks later
After what happened, I couldn't go back to Charlie's. There's no way he would forgive me for the things I said and did. My own father, who worked so hard to find me justice and this is how I repay him. Shake my goddamn head. I'll be honest that there are some things I wish I had done differently, but I was too proud and stubborned to admit that to him. So now I have to suffer the consequences.
The only other people that I would have been able to stay with, hate me. So instead I've been living in an motel room. Being homeless wasn't all like people would think...
It was much worse.
My truck ran out of gas so I have to walk back and forth to work which was almost two miles. Luckily, I only worked four days out of the week.
Later, I got fired for being late and yelling at Mike in front of a customer. When I tried to plead my case and explain that Mike was being unprofessinal by hitting on me, I was still let go. I really wasn't suprised. If my parents were my boss I'm sure they would take my side even if I were wrong.
I used what money I had left from my job and spent it on food and other things I needed like detergent, and I saved some quaters from when I would need them at the laundry mat. Luckily, I still had some clothes in my truck from when Alice would drag my shopping with her.
Alice... School with her was hell. Who knew someone so small could be so cruel? She was worse than Rosalie. She would knock my books out my hands and bump into me in the halls.
Rosalie on the other hand would just laugh anytime Alice did something mean and call me a slut, whore or a tramp. After a week, I couldn't take it anymore and dropped out. If I stayed in school any longer than I probably would've ended up with a broken leg or arm.
I know I shouldn't let people get to me like that, but really what am I missing? I was already more advanced than other students. Once I got another steady job, I could go back and my diploma.
Between food, laundry, and the motel room, I was running low on money fast and would need to find a job soon or else the only meals I'll be eating are the thrown away leftovers behind McDonalds. I shuddered, hoping it would never have to come to that.
I was on my way back to my truck when they walked up to me.
"Bella," I stopped dead on my tracks and turned to where familiar the voice was coming from. Standing there with concerned looks on their faces were Carlisle and Esme. I suddenly couldn't move. I couldn't do anything. I just stood there looking like an idiot.
"Bella, sweetheart, we came to get you," Esme explained, walking towards me. She put her arms around my shoulders and pulled me into a hug. I couldn't react.
Get me? Weren't they mad at me? Of course they were. They thought I cheated on Edward too. When the shock wore off, I realized they were leading me to thier car.
"No," I said, shrugging off Esme's arms from around me. "I'm not going anywhere," I said backing away from them.
"Bella please don't do this," Esme pleaded. I shook my head and crossed my arms. Childish, I know.
Carlisle sighed and walked over to me. "Bella, please. We've been worried sick." Was Charlie worried too? Was he looking for me?
"We've been looking for you for days," Esme stated. "We heard you dropped out of school and moved out of Charlie's house. We're here to take you home." So they really do care.
"I can't go home yet. Not after what I said to Charlie." I told them. I need time away from him. I'll go home and beg for forgiveness when I'm good and ready.
I started to walk off to my truck when Carlisle gentley grabbed my arm and pulled me back."We're not letting you live like this. Your coming to stay with us," he told me pulling me towards the car again.
Stay with them? With Alice and Rosalie? With Tanya and Edward? Were they crazy?
"No!" I screamed just a little too loud, but I was too late. They put me in their car and we were off.
When we got to the house the girls were in the living room laughing but the second I walked through the door silence filled the room and all eyes were on me. Alice got up and left the room followed by Rosalie and Tanya.
"Let me know if you need anything," Esme told me when we got to the room I would be staying in. I nodded and and she gave me a piece of paper with her cell phone number on it. "Just in case I'm not home," she explained and left the room.
The next day Carlisle went to work and Esme went hunting. I tried to avoid coming out my room but of course my body betrayed me when I got hungry.
I walked downstairs and noticed Alice and Tanya watching television. Deciding that it would be best to ignore them, I walked right past them and went to the kitchen. Knowing that they knew I was in here made me uneasy, and knowing that Alice most likely saw me coming, made it even worse.
After eating, I walked back to see that they were gone. I was a little relieved, that is until I got to my room. I walked into my room and saw Alice and Tanya going though my things.
They were moving at inhuman speed wrecking everything in their path. Esme is going to freak when she sees this, and even though Alice was being a bitch I didn't want her to get in trouble.
"What are you doing?" I screamed. "Stop!" Alice and Tanya instantly stopped and looked at me.
"What did you just say?" Tanya asked in a threatening tone. I was scared to answer the question, but maybe if I did she would give me some respect.
"Stop..." I responded in barely a whisper. She glanced at Alice and and her eyes narrowed. I was wrong she wouldn't give me any respect. Instead she was at my side in a second and slapped me across the face. Hard. Her hand was ice cold but my face beginning to feel the hot sting.
"Don't ever talk back to me!" she screamed.
"Tanya!" Alice yelled.
A tear rolled don't my face and Emmett, Jasper, and Edward were behind me before it hit the floor. They all stood there. Staring. Jasper grabbed Alice and pulled her away from the scene like he was protecting her. Edward was just staring at Tanya who silently walked past him, the click-clack sound of her retreating heels was all to be heard.
I looked at Emmett and he was already walking off with his head down. No one cares, not even Emmett. I'm not important anymore and mostly likely never was.
The next day everyone except Carlisle and Esme went hunting so I finally got time to myself. I was so tired from not being able to sleep last night. I'd been doing too much thinking about the family that was supposed to always protect me.
Edward said he would always love me, but his heart belonged to Tanya now. Those words cut me deep because I knew they were true.
What am I supposed to do without him?
I felt the tears threating to spill over for the third time today. I wanted to stop thinking about it but I couldn't.
Edward was always there for me from the start. When James tried to kill me, when I couldn't sleep, and when I was surrounded by four men in Port Angeles...
The tears started up again. This time because my rapist was most likely still on the loose. What if he was looking for me. What if he found me? Edward wouldn't be there to help me or protect me. I was on my own again.
Those moments of what happened to me relived over and over in my head. I know he would find me and I would rather die than have to go through it all again. Maybe dying would be easier. I have nothing else to live for.
I sat there for I don't know how long with a razor to my wrist trying to build up the courage to cut myself, but I couldn't. I didn't want to feel the pain. I wanted my death to be quick and painless. I wonder if I would feel it when I hit the ground or if I would die instantly. There was only one way to find out.
I walked over to the window, opened it, and looked down.
God, it had to be at least ten or twelve feet down. It was perfect. With this height I was positive I'd die instantly.
I threw one leg out, gripping onto the side of the window sill so tight my fingers were starting to get splinters. I threw my other leg out and sat on the window panel but that's all I did. Sit there.
Just do it already. I thought to myself. Then I closed my eyes and jumped...