Bella's POV

"Umm...yeah," I drug out the letters. There was no use in lying since I wasn't any good at it.

"Did you do it?" Esme asked. I shook my head.

"I'll do now since I'm finished eating," I said and headed into the living room, where everyone was watching television.

What is this? I thought to myself, looking over the math problem again for the thirteenth time. I've been sitting here for almost twenty minutes staring at the same equation, trying to make sense of it. I groaned and put my head on the table. Rosalie snorted and I looked up.

"Stupid slut." She said as she grabbed the remote. She said it more to herself fbut I knew it was meant for me to hear.

"...Yeah...I know," I whispered before I got up and walked to my room to cry.

I heard a knock on my door and I knew it had to be either Esme or Carlisle.

"Come in," I said even though I really wasn't in the talking mood, but it would make me feel guilty if I told them to go away in their own home.

"Bella, sweetheart, are you okay?" Esme asked, sitting down next to me. She spoke again when I didn't answer. "Rosalie didn't mean what she said and you know it's not true. I sent them out so we can talk, so please talk to me." she pleaded.

I sat up and shook my head. "No, she's right. I am a stupid slut." She put her hands on my shoulders and looked me in the eyes.

"Don't say that. Don't ever that. It's not true," She almost yelled at me.

"Yes it is. I got what I deserved...everything I deserved."

She shook me this time. "Bella, you did not deserve to be raped! And I don't ever want to hear you say that again!" This time she did yell and it scared me alittle.

"What's going on?" Carlisle asked from the doorway.

"...Bella and I were just talking," Esme replied while getting up. "Go to sleep,Bella. You have school tomorrow." She told me and walked out with Carlisle following behind. She was obviously angry with me. I sighed, pulled the covers over my head and cried myself to sleep.

When school started Tanya pushed me into the lockers since 'I was in her way'. This game was seriously starting to get old.

"Whore," Rosalie called me. I didn't say anything, I just stared at her. I thought it would be best if I just ignored her. It wasn't like I would be able to win in fight against here in the first place.

In Biology I sat next to Edward and it took everything in me not to tell him everything that happened. I wanted so badly to tell, but I still felt like I wasn't ready and now definately wasn't the time.

Suddenly, I felt overwhelmed and I didn't know by what. I felt the need the cry. I sighed...depression. My life was falling apart, I should have known this was to come. Thoughts of jumping from the schoool building filled my mind. Nothing in life was getting better, I was going to be stuck in depression for along time.

When the bell rung to got home, I saw Esme sitting in her car waiting for me.

"I have to got to the store. Would you like to come?" she asked when I got in the car. I shook my head indacating a 'no'.

"I have homework." I told her. I wasn't lying; I did have homework. Though I wasn't planning on doing it. I just wanted to cry myself to sleep.

When I walked into the house Rosalie was sitting on the sofa looking at intensely at Tanya. She didn't look at me when I came in but they started to laugh when Tanya said something she was reading from... a book?

No! Not just a book. My diary!

"What are you doing?" I yelled. I instantly regretted saying anything after the ordeal that ended with Tanya slapping me across the face. I still had a bruise from it. I still had a bruise from alot of things she did to me, and I hated her for that.

"Will you shut up? I'm reading!" she screamed back at me. Then looked back down at the book and started to read aloud again.

She kept reading on and on but I blacked out. How could she be so cruel? How could any of them do this to me? That book is for my eyes only. Everything is in that book. Even what happened to me, even what my rapist looks like. I had to get that book back.

I was vaugely aware of the others gathering around us.

I quickly walked up to Tanya and snatched the book out of her hand. She looked up at me with rage in her eyes.

"You stupid whore!" she hollered before she pushed me on the floor and got on top of me. The position made me think back to the night I was raped and caused a tear to roll down my face.

"Don't you ever jerk anything from out my hand again! I could kill you right now!" she threatened.

"Please," I begged.

I may have seem like I was begging for her to spare my life, but the trust was I wanted so bad for her to end it.

Esme choose that moment to walk in and Tanya quickly got off me.

"Tanya... Rosalie... What's going on?" she asked them, glancing between the three of us.

"Nothing," Tanya answered and walked out the room with my diary in her hand.

There was no way I would get it back. She would know my secret, but what would she think about it? What am I saying, I already know how she's going to react. She'll be even more furious that I wrote about it. I hope she kicks my ass for the way I hurt Edward...the entire Cullen family.

I sighed and went upstairs to at least attempt to do homework.

After about fifteen minutes of crying, I shut my math book and put it in my booksack. It was one in the morning and I could barely keep my eyes open. Just as I was about to climb into bed Tanya barged in and started to scream at me.

"You think I'm the one being a bitch?" She yelled while waving my diary in my face. "Esme and Carlisle aren't here to save you this time!" She said, while pulling me out the bed by my legs. My head hit the floor and I blacked out for a second. Tanya didn't notice and if she did she didn't care.

"Let me go!" I shouted at her.