Hey everybody! Guess who's back? This week had probably been the worst week of my exam life, and I'm sick again because of the stress, but this isn't an agony aunt forum so on with the show! :)

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Btw, Renji makes a very important statement and that is, "I registered but I couldn't understand" so he is seeing stuff happening, but he's a kid, so he doesn't understand what's happening. Warning this chapter is really graphic, so read with caution.

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I was lying down on the bottom of the metal cage, with the smell of urine and vomit heavy in the air around me. It was dark, there was nothing but light from beneath the door illuminating the small room. Sobbing, I held my tiny frame and began to pray, something someone had taught me so long ago. I think it was my mum, before the disaster. The disaster.

Suddenly the door burst open, and I hissed at the sudden brightness. After rubbing my eyes, I stared at the men emptily as they pulled one of the children of the cages roughly. It was a girl. Her name I had forgotten, but I always remembered her matte brown hair and grass green eyes, wide with horror as the men pulled her small frame towards their large, grotesque bodies.

"Hey little darling, aren't you as pretty as a button, uh? Hungry? Want something to eat?"

Almost stupidly she nodded, and was set down on the ground. I have the feeling that something bad was going to happen really soon. My skin tingled with disgust. I suddenly sat up and cried out, and the men turned to me. The closest one, came towards me with the taser in his hand, I backed away in the corner, but he was still able to keep the taser inches from me face. I held back sobs as he hissed, "If I hear another word from a piece of shit like you, I'm going to put this thing on max, and shock your ass til your innards cook up"

I remained silent, apart for a few sobs that escaped my gaping mouth. Though the man's back was to me, blocking the sight of the girl, I could tell that he was making her do something. He moaned with pleasure, and tossed his head back. Moans and slurping sounds filled the room. I was confused, I registered, but couldn't understand.

The man let out one last moan, before shoving the girl away harshly. She was weeping and vomiting, the rancid smell filling the room. Her sickness earned her a slap, as the cursed for being so weak. I wanted to reach out and help her, but there was no hope.

They removed her stained dress. Beneath she was bare and scarred, but multiple open wounds decorating her grey skin. I will never forget the harsh red cuts against her ghostly, ghastly grey skin. I closed my eyes, as one of the men began to open his belt. She began to scream, but they took no notice of her wailing, and they huddled around her.

I tried to block out the sound, of screaming and groaning. It was like nothing I've heard before. The sound of someone being ripped apart. I cried louder, knowing that I would go unnoticed. I opened my eyes to find the boy in the cage next to my own staring into the emptiness comfortably and smiling slightly. I tried to follow his eyes, but all I saw were the men. Turning away quickly, I turned to face the wall and cried until well after the men had returned the girl and left.

The girl was replaced with another girl, with white hair and blue eyes. She was beautiful, or at least, she would have been if she was not so broken looking. The men walked into the room and called out her name, I didn't hear them again because of the buzzing in my ears. Why were they ringing so much? I assumed it was a side effect of the taser, which I believe I had been receiving in high doses.

Suddenly I heard the girl cry out, I turned to face her and she called to me, but I could do nothing. My chest tightened, my hands clenched, I shook my cage with renewed vigor.

"Let her go!" I screamed, but before I could gather enough breath to scream again, my hands were smacked harshly with a stick. I let go of the bar and cried out as I stared down at swelling fingers. The pain was unbearable, I couldn't breathe but soon the shock of the pain was taken over by what they did to the girl next.

I watched in horror. I shook my head as I saw them break a bottle, "STOP IT!" I cried out, and they stopped turning to me.

"Little fire head over here, would rather it be him" the larger man said. The thinner man approached my cage and tore it open, grabbing my small ankles harshly and pulling me out. I tried to kick at him, but he only held on tighter, and I screamed as he held my hands. Throwing me harshly next to the girl, I looked at her blue empty eyes, as she too began to smile and seemed to leave the room.

"Come on, open wide little boy" the thinner man said, reaching for his belt buckle. Suddenly the door opened and walked in the nurse who had brought me in to begin with. I watched her as with bored eyes instructed the men, "Let him go, there's a family who wants to see him"

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I opened my eyes slowly, and felt tears roll down my face slowly. My heart was pounding away in my chest like a tribal beat. My body was aching from how stiff I had been under the hypnosis. Damn, I sighed as I looked around the room. Byakuya sat, conflicted as to whether he should approach or not.

I sat up slowly and rubbed my eyes. As I rubbed them I heard a sob escape my lips, and then another, and suddenly I was crying. I stood up and ran over to the door that separated the room from the balcony. Tearing it open, I took the few steps that separated me from the railing. I approached it cautiously, and put my hot hands on the strong wood. The ground was just a few meters away, looking up at me. Begging me, giving me the solution to my problems.

I put my weight on the wood, and suddenly felt myself being pulled back. Soon, I was on the floor with Byakuya looming over me. I felt my breath hitch and my thoughts become erratic as I remembered everything.

I began to sob again at the memories. I couldn't believe I was that child in the cage, staring out at the abuse of other children, their pain had become my reality, watching it for such a long time. I couldn't fathom it, it was beyond me, how could it possibly be true. But it was, I had felt it, I had described it to Byakuya. He looked just as disgusted as I did, though not surprised. Heck, he probably saw this shit all the time.

"Don't stop me!" I shouted harshly, trying to stand up. He wrestled me down and put some of his weight on me just so I couldn't move, but not enough to hurt me, "I know the solution to my problems. You want me to be free? Well, what's freedom but death" I laughed ruefully.

He leaned in and whispered in my ear, "Getting rid of yourself is not going solve anything. You need to accept what happened and move on"

"I can't," I said, pushing him away as I sat up and lunged for the railing once more, but he pulled my back in, and I was flat on the ground again. Struggling for a moment, I looked away from him, unwilling to let his gaze hypnotize me into submission. Suddenly, I turned to look at him and all my resolve dissipated. I went limp and felt him let me go.

"It hurts too much" I whimpered, holding my head which was aching. He brushed a lock of damp hair out of my face and whispered, "It does hurt, and it probably always will, but it can't hold you back. It won't hold you back. You will come out of this better, no matter what"

The steely determination in his eyes made my quiet down my sobs. The moon hung low in the horizon like a spectator to my downfall. So distant, she probably knew all our secrets, but we could never know hers. The waves crashed along the shore, and the air was heavy with the scent salt, seaweed and sweet frangipani. It was these details that I decided to focus on.

"I need to heal" I said softly, cradling my head, and turning to Byakuya. He looked at me intently, his grey eyes a reflection of the moon, and even in the dim light, they seemed to glow.

"We will work together to help you" he said, reaching for my hand. I stared at his hand for a moment, contemplating whether or not I should take hold. The last time he had tried to touch me after a hypnotherapy session, I ended up pushing him away. But perhaps pushing him away was not the solution to my problems. Slowly, I reached my hand out to meet his, the sensation of his skin so strange.

My body still felt the hands of those men, but even in my lucid state, I could tell that Byakuya's hands were different. They were soft and warm, slim fingers intertwined with my own rough calloused ones. Our joined hands hung in the air for a moment, and we both watched them curiously. I looked from our hands to Byakuya who was staring intently at me.

"I don't know how we'll get through this" I said, my voice breaking slightly.

"That's not something you have to worry about" he said gently. I pulled my hand away and sat up. The air was becoming much too stuffy for me, now that he had spoken those words.

"Don't give me that, I can't take you caring for me like this. I'm disgusting" I whispered, trying to stand up, but I felt him pull me back to the ground, albeit more gently. He grabbed my shoulders and turned me to face him,

"I will care for you, no matter what you say"

"Because its your job? Why are you doing all this?" I asked, prodding, looking for something. What did I want from this man? There was something I wanted to hear from him, and he wasn't saying it, and that was a problem for me. Perhaps it was because of my vulnerable state that I was being so ridiculous, but I looked at him pleadingly anyways.

"I don't care about the money, I already told you, I want to help you get out" he said.

"Once I leave I wont see you again" I said absentmindedly. We were quiet for a moment, my because I was suddenly embarrassed, him because he was contemplative.

"Yes, you're right" he said, his voice almost painful. He looked back down to me and gave a small smile, "Hmph, I guess there's a price for everything, uh, Renji?"

I held my breath at the sound of him saying my name. Despite everything that had happened, my brain was focused on him. Why? He had captivated me.

He stood up and pulled me with him. He held my forearm gently and looked me in the eye, "Do you need me tonight, or will you be ok?"

I nodded and sighed, "Yeah, I'll be ok, but uh... Byakuya?" I called, as he let go of my arm. He looked at me and batted his eyes a few time. I realized how pleading my voice must have sounded, so laden with desire for something.

"Uh... thank you" was what I said, but it was not what I had meant to say. Suddenly, my words had caught up with me and disappeared.

In my eyes he seemed deflated, but perhaps it was my messed up mind. He smiled a little, and said, "You are most welcome. Let me know if you need anything, and please, Renji-kun. Don't do anything stupid" he said, pulling the shoji between our rooms, so I could pass through.

"I'll leave it parted for you, so you can have easy access"

And with that suggestive comment, he walked away, leaving me alone with the ocean and the moon. How I wished I could reach the moon.

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Oh wow, its done! Amazing, it took me all morning with writers block and all. This week has been hell, but I'm glad I got to put something up. Please review, let me know what you think and hint: the parted shoji is very important! :D :) The last line is in reference to Renji-Bya-Lover's story, go check it out, she's been a really big help! Time to go watch One Piece and read Dracula!

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