It had been a few days since the dream bubble incident. Dave refused to talk about anything to do with it. He didn't want to address it, he didn't want to face it. He didn't want to deal with it. Why? Why did the girl version of him get a protective older sister who cared? Why did he get stuck with such a dick? His time spent on the meteor, his time spent with Karkat and Rose and Kanaya and The Mayor and yes, even the Scourge Sisters (why did they call themselves that anyway?) ….he had never felt so loved. In many ways he felt loved. He felt the romantic love from Karkat, sharing unspoken secrets in the dark as the slept in each other's arms. The feeling that so long as they were together, nothing could get them. That sibling affection from Rose. Ha, Dave still couldn't believe that she had done the sibling threaten- the- new-boyfriend thing on him. He freaked the fuck out over it.
"YOUR FUCKING SISTER IS PSYCHO!"
"Why what happened?"
"SHE FUCKING SAID SHE WOULD CUT OFF MY BODY PARTS IF ANYTHING EVER HAPPENED TO YOU…AND I MEAN I NEVER WOULD LET ANYTHING HAPPEN TO YOU, BUT STILL. WHAT THE FUCK!"
"Ah, I made a similar threat to Kanaya when they first started dating. It's a human sibling thing. Think of it as a rite of passage; she's accepted you…although we never told her…why am I surprised though? She has always been insanely observant."
"AND YOU HUMANS CALL US VIOLENT! AND WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU SMILING!?"
Dave couldn't help it. He never really thought Rose would care enough to say anything. Maybe she was just doing it for laughs; it was funny to see Karkat have another of his bitch-fits. "Nothing, I just, pfft….hahahahaha"
"STOP FUCKING LAUGHING! IT'S NOT FUNNY!"
"HAHAHAHAHAHAHA" Still, even if it was only to amuse herself; Dave couldn't help but see genuine tenderness in the action.
He's made a lot of good memories here. The trolls have welcomed him with open arms. They've all become friends and would do anything to protect each other….like a family. …like a family is supposed to do….
God damn it, he's crying. He shouldn't cry, it just…that dream bubble was a catalyst for everything that he had held back, that he didn't want to face. And it all had come to the surface now. He needed time alone to sort through things. It wasn't something he wanted to talk to Karkat about. The troll wouldn't understand, hell, Rose probably wouldn't even understand. This was something Dave had to work through on his own.
Karkat found him though, in the midst of a good cry and became alarmed. "It's nothing Kitkat, I just…I'm just dealing with some of my own shit and I need some time alone okay?"
"Davey, come on talk to me. Maybe I can help."
"No, really. This is my shit, I just need to do this on my own."
"Can't you just tell me? It might make you feel better."
Dave just shook his head, the idea of even uttering it out loud to anyone, but that one person he wanted to talk to was too invasive; the person he wanted to interrogate and ask why. Too personal. "Please, Kitkat. Please just go."
"No, I'm not about to leave my crying matesprit."
"This has nothing to do with our relationship. Come on, I respected your need to put off the anatomy talk."
"That's different."
"Like fuck it is. You have something personal you're not ready to talk about; it's the same for me."
"NO IT ISN'T! I'VE NEVER CRIED ABOUT IT!"
"Then let's talk now." Dave was either going to get his alone time, or he was going to get information. Those were the only outcomes he was allowing. Just this once he didn't care if he was a jerk. He had been patient with Karkat and the troll wasn't returning the favor. Was it too much to ask? Keeping some things to himself?
"NO! YOU ARE NOT TURNING THIS AROUND ON ME! I'M NOT THE ONE CRYING IN A ROOM BY HIMSELF! JUST, FUCK DAVE, JUST TALK TO ME!"
His loud voice never bothered him before, but for some reason right now it was pissing Dave off. "No, I respected your need to keep some things private Karkat! All I'm asking is for the same in return! It's nothing you could relate to anyway, okay! It's human bullshit, and I'm dealing with it!"
"NO YOU'RE FUCKING NOT! YOU ARE CRYING LIKE AN ABANDONED WRIGGLER!"
Dave was pissed now. "SERIOUSLY! GO THE FUCK AWAY!" Karkat was slightly taken aback by Dave's shout; but he wasn't about to lose. "FINE, HAVE YOUR FUCKING HUMAN PITY PARTY! I DON'T FUCKING CARE."
"I NEVER ASKED YOU TO!"
Karkat stormed out of the room while Dave laid back on the floor. Too worked up to cry, to frozen by the plethora of issues running in his mind. Maybe he shouldn't have been so rude to Karkat. Maybe he should tell him. The very thought made his chest constrict with anxiety. No, not yet, he's not ready yet. Sorry Karkat, he's just not ready.
Notes: Yeah, can you tell I've had some free time today? LOL. I hope you guys enjoyed to extra updates. I may or may not post tomorrow. I probably should have saved these and posted them over the course of a couple of days, but whenever I finish a chapter I get too eager to post it.
Guest: Oh good! ^-^ I just thought different timelines could lead to different personalities as well. Thanks for reviewing!