A little less seeing and a little more feeling 5

*disclaimer* I don't own once upon a time or the characters

Someone mentioned Regina might have something to hide. She does she just doesn't know it yet. Emma doesn't believe in coincidences.. Not anymore and now that Regina has gotten to know her well this just might ruin everything. But I'm not revealing in this chapter sorrrry...

It was a big step for me the dates, the kissing, or just the dating thing in general was a big step. I knew, Regina, especially Ruby knew it. That's why the fact I failed mention anything before my first date with Regina when I panicked she was so lost and mad at me.I didn't mean to forget to mention it. I was just so caught up in having a real date I found myself turn Regina away at the end of the night not taking her in my room like I'd done a million times before. The only difference was I wanted to do better this time and going that route would make it so much harder to keep going slow.

Slow that was a concept Ruby was baffled About. It wasn't me at least not before. Ruby was silent a lot longer than I've ever heard her And that is one hard thing to make happen. so yes this was big deal. Ever since I left the system I'd known the Lucas family. Ruby being the first when I was just trying to find a place to stay. Granny was second when Ruby had saved me from corner thugs and had taken me home to the dinner and inn for care. care became shelter then that became the only family I had ever kniwn. After trusting Neal I had a hard time and came back home for a few years before setting myself a job after college and now I had to explain my reason for trusting Regina.

"look Ruby you said it yourself if I didn't you would." I tried.

"Yeah sex, it's always been just sex though. I can't believe you would tell me you had a date. Let me scope her out for you I mean Remer last time." my jaw clenched. "shit..I didn't mean.." but I held my hand up to stop her because yes I did remember

"I remember how much Neal hurt me be this.. I don't know this is different." I said thinking back to how magical the night before was. How unfazed and understanding about not going inside. "An you were right she very beautiful but I just couldn't rush it and ruin this. I think I could really like her Rubes."

It's serious and she knows it now that I've called her me nickname for her. her bed dips beside me suddenly and now she gets it. Last time I called her Rubes I had made the biggest mistake of my life that to this day I hated having to do.

"Oh emmy don't get upset. Okay I'll scope her out the next time she comes in. Will that make you feel better knowing She's not using you or hidding something from you." she sounds ready to pounce if she finds anything. I gentle tell her I want to see to believe she's as great as I feel she is but I'd like it and for it to be descreat. While I didn't like it I had to protect myself. Regina was such a well off person I couldn't see it going anywhere.

it really hadn't. Of course Ruby kept her word. Next time Regina came in she laid it on heavy. At least it sounded like it to me. She told me she flirted with Regina and Regina let down easy. Telling her that since she and I were dating she could hardly turn around and flirt with her friend or family. With which Ruby played of as trying to bet me to the punch and not catching her in time. After that she tried the over protective sister inspection to which Regina passed despite her obvious nerves that said she got. After that I thought that would be it but noapparently Ruby had run background checks. I mean wasn't that sure she was hidding anything. Even as Ruby came to me with a list of things I might not know about her.

"You know she has a kid. She tell you he's adopted." She said like that changes anything because of my history.

"Yes I know. She got him two years ago."

"okay did you know she's loaded. Like her mother and father died rich gained it all kind of rich." again I knew and it didn't matter.

"Yeah and she opened her own business as its not like she live off it."

"Yeah but what about her ex husband." I breathed slowly.

"Her mother forced her to marry and she had a fiance before him that died. I know Ruby I know all this what does this prove."

"I don't know I'm just wondering what her falt is I mean nobody is this perfect. Tell you there life, sweet rich girl, and all so soon" I hoped it was all true but my face fell just thinking how right Ruby was. In our experiences nobody was this good. so I grew quiet I didn't trust myself to think on it because if I did I'd end up walking away.

"You're right, what am I thinking I mean anyone can pull something on me I won't even notice. Why do I even try." I don't know where the words came from but I couldnot stop the tears the panicked an thats when I got up and left unable to listen Anymore. The next time Regina messaged me I tried to ignore it but eventually listened to her message. I hit reply and said.

"I can't do this. I'm sorry" just to delete it when my phone asked if I wanted to send it. Instead I said. "Maybe we can have a fun night don't send Henry away we'll play game's he'll like."

I really did like spending time with them I couldn't deny that. Should I make our relationship a friendship instead of breaking it off intirely. It was too late to break it off now I would have to wait for how today went. I waited thirty minutes for Regina after which I realized I was going to Regina's house for the first time. Moments Before sheas supposed to arrived I Hurried Back inside and grabbed Rafik Leashed him up, no harness today. today he was my best friend and my comfort in this new place.

The way Regina lead me inside and carefully called Henry in the room as though not to excite Rafik too much. I let him go play with Henry happy that he had someone as active for him. Regina then took my face in her hands and peppered me with kisses when the two seemed out of the room.

"I've missed you the last few days. I don't know when is to soon to ask you out again." She said her voice a little in even meaning her nerves.

"I've missed you too Regina, just been busy with work and catching up with Ruby."

I shiver as her soft fingers curl against my skin, curl and sweep over my cheek. Her skin always so soft even the few times my fingers have felt under the hem of her shirt. Her lips pressed to mine one last time. I breathed in her Apple cinnamon perfume with a nibble to her lip. I found out it was an addictive smell. It always drew me close to her but now in her home everything smelled so clean but also just like her.

"I really like you." She whispers and I feel myself burst as I admit it back to her. My heart tells me it's more but my head says I can't feel that way. My head screams out to me but once again I shake it off as soon as Regina takes up my hand and lead me further inside to a chair. She sits next to me and takes my hands and guides them to the table in front of us. Where she has a drink of water for me and a few game ideas laid out.

"Henry!" Regina called Henry into the room to join us as she took her hands away from mine. The sensation of them still giving me a buzz until Henry ran in the room with Rafik.

"momma why puppy have no more collar?" he asked talking about Rafk's harness.

"He's not working today Henry." I answer because I'd brought Rafik knowing Henry would enjoy him being around too. Henry squealed more than happy to hear that. I could help but smile at his excitement that once we all got settled to play a game.

A few hours later

It was official I love Regina and I knew it was real. quite perfectly she set up a game I could play. Trouble. The fact I could count the places I'm going, the fact they only had to tell me if I was touching my color or not and the number on the dice it was very fun. Who cared if there was cheating because for once I was participating in a board game. All because the woman I was seeing cared enough to try and include me.

i fumbled here and there but Henry nor Regina appeared to mind and eventually we completed several rounds. Henry was give by default the last game to make him feel better about losing a few times. Nothing certainly made me feel like I fit in and suddenly for the first time Regina had done just that when just a few hours ago I was thinking of giving up before I got burned.

By the end of the night with Henry in bed and Regina's friend Robin arrived for Regina to take me home everything felt good. I felt good to not want something to change, to hope it wouldn't, and to learn you weren't the only one e getting comfortable with the situation. Regina and I be Gan heading out when Robin stop us. He came close to Regina to whisper and pull her aside. His colone smelled like the forest which normal I had smelled and been soothed by said smell but this time it reeked. I couldn't imagine that everyday or at least a few times a week.

just the thought alone of Regina and this guy would disturb me if I didn't strongly believe that he was not her type. I knew that even if his closeness was kinda a dead give away of his feelings. Beyond the few minutes they spent whispering I had a wonderful day and could wait for another tomorrow if Regina allowed it. I started try to think of things to bring up to do just to include them both. It was tough and I couldn't before Regina came back to Rafik and I by the door.

The moment she came back I could feel the tension tooling off in waves. With hesitance she. Took my hand and led me to the car. The entire ride was silent between us Choosing not to start anything myself in the car I waited. When what should have been a sweet kiss goodnight was just strange waiting game I gave in.

"Have I done something wrong?" It's has to be me because suddenly I don't feel her eye on me and I don't feel her hands almost holding mine. She wants to but she won't say why she wont.

"No dear, this is its just I've done something terrible." I instantly feel like I my cry. Was it Robin did she like him did they get together? "I've made this thing between us and now I think you might run from me once you find out what i'be just found out as well."

"What? Is this you running because of it?" I can help but stumble surprised that this is effecting me enough for my knees to go weak. Those hands that hesitated grabbed me to help support me.

"No no Emma let me explain inside. But I want you to know I didn't know I didn't do this on purpose." I nodded a little before opening the front door. We sit together on the couch and Regina starts. "When I met you I didn't know I was already looking for you." My heart didn't know how to take that was that meant to be romantic or something I just wasn't getting yet.

Reviews please!

There is a little background as well as other relationships than SQ. So what Do you think? What do you guys think Regina is hidding. Is this her proclaiming her romantic feeling for Emma or is it something more.