What Have You Done?

by XionTheBlackRose

Riku realizes he's killed Sora, but not only that, he may have put Sora's soul in eternal danger. Sora's ghost haunts Riku, trying to find the reasons behind his murder, and he has to figure it out quick, or he'll be swallowed by the Abyss, where he will suffer eternally. He must find and make peace with Riku's inner turmoil before it's too late, otherwise he'll be lost forever.

11. Don't Let Him Kill Me Part 2: The Abyss

When I opened my eyes, it was like I was seeing everything through a TV screen. I was moving, but it wasn't me. I was forced to watch,. I can't even move, can't speak. I see my room, and Ansem moves me to the desk and pulls put a pen and a piece of paper and he starts to write. I try to take control of my body but I can't reach it, can't reach anything. I can't move.

I can hear his laughter in my head and he starts to write, and I can read it:

Dear Mom and Dad,

I'm sorry you had to find out this way. I killed Sora, it was an accident, but the guilt has been eating at me. I can't take it anymore. I'm sorry it had to be this way. I didn't think about it, it isn't that bad. It won't hurt me much. I'm going to be with him now.

Love, Riku.

I wanted to scream, to fight, but I couldn't. It was like someone was holding me back, chaining me up inside. He moves me to the kitchen and he grabs the biggest knife in the drawer and he goes back to my room and sits on the bed. He laughs, using my voice, and he says, "You're soul is mine, suicides don't get second chances, I get their soul instantly. You can join Sora in the Abyss!"

He then places the blade on my left wrist and he slices it over, cuts in a little too deep. It's bleeding too much. He lays on the bed. I can't feel the pain of the cut, but I can feel something inside me squeezing, dying, stopping. It's my heart. I wanted to scream, to move, to stop the bleeding, anything to keep my parents from finding that note, from finding my body there on my bed, dead and bleeding. I had to stop it, but I can't move. I can't talk, my voice won't work for me here. I'm helpless once again. '

I want to scream out loud, voice my fear, my pain, but I can't. He's robbed me of that. Robbed me of a chance to change things. Suddenly I'm released, and I'm falling. Everything is dark. There's no light where I'm falling.

"The Abyss." I breathe, "I'm falling into The Abyss.."

It came so easily, just letting go. Nothing hurt, I didn't feel anything. Not pain, not internal fear. Nothing. It was like I was falling, but slowly, like floating. I didn't know how long I had been falling, but finally I feel my back hit the floor, but it didn't hurt, it was like being lyed down, like a child. I sat up slowly, looking around, but I can't see anything. Nothing is here. Nothing at all. Just darkness.

And that's when I saw them. The big glowing orbs for eyes, the shadowed bodies. They come at me slowly, studying me, looking for something. Then they run, all of them, all around me. They run and swarm me, jumping on me, scratching at me. It didn't hurt, but I could see white blood oozing from my wounds these things were making. They were attacking the blood more than they were me, it still didn't hurt. Nothing hurt.