Naruto:
Gaara kissed me long and hard before he left for the kitchen. I was still blushing as I undressed into the shower. The warm water drenching my hair and falling on my skin.
I sighed as all the days worries washed away, leaving me with only thoughts on Gaara. He was sweet. Beyond sweet sometimes.
Sometimes I wonder how I can love him so much.
I started to hum a random tune as I began to wash my hair with my strawberry shampoo. Cleaning and rubbing my head of hair and ears, then gently rubbing my tail. Causing a pleasure filled moan to escape my mouth and I blushed.
But I still feel better when Gaara rubs it. Normally I would stay in the shower longer. I like how it relaxes me. But Gaara calms me more. It just feels right with him.
I turned off the water, quickly drying off my body but leaving my hair ears and tail just lightly damp.
I quickly got dressed in a really loose orange shirt with a black swirl and put back on the black skinny jeans, since I didn't wear them much.
Smiling at myself I ran down the stairs.
Only to stop half way. My ears picking up groaning. Pleasure filled. Coming from Gaara.
I slowly walked my way down stairs to freeze. My head filling up with emotions. Sad mad depressed, jealous...scared.
There kissing...what I thought was my Gaara, was another man. Raven black hair. And a smirk. The same smirk from the day my parents died.
"G-Gaara." I whispered and I couldn't help my voice begin to feel crackly. I wanted to cry, no, I was beginning to cry. The red heads eyes opened wide and I couldn't stand it anymore.
I pushed passed Gaara and the other male and ran out of there. Not caring that I was fully exposed. I was running, people staring whispering about me again. But of course I heard every word. I didn't know where exactly I was going until I was there.
The hospital
Gaara
"G-Gaara." my eyes opened, pain, suffering, all those negative emotions filled my gaze, but all I caught was the blur or blond hair as Sasuke and I were pushed roughly apart. I was glad for that; I couldn't stand how Sasuke has this... control over me. it took a second for my mind to process that Sasuke was knocked down as well, and that Naruto had run out the door... crying.
"NARUTO!" I shouted after him.
"It's ok, baby. You don't need him. You have me now." Sasuke said moving closer to me.
"Fuck you." I spit on him. My car keys were sitting on my dresser upstairs, so that's where I ran to. Locking Sasuke out. I grabbed the key to get in my bed room from the outside, my car keys and changed my clothes, putting my phone and my wallet in my pockets. Then I jumped out my window and onto a tree that was there and let myself down.
I jumped in my car and drove off before they realized I'd escaped. I took every road I knew, going from my house to Naruto's old apartment; to the school... where else could he go? Did he get lost? Does he hate me? Oh god. I drove around for an hour, going through every neighborhood. Naruto was nowhere. I stopped in a drug store to buy myself a pack of smokes, using my fake ID. I hate my life. I hate my father. I hate Sasuke. I hate how Sasuke uses me. I hate myself. Damn my body.
As I started yet another hopeless search for my one true love, I passed by a tattoo parlor. On the sign out front, there was the love kanji. I didn't think, I just did.
Naruto
I ran inside ignoring all the shouts from the doctors and nurses. Just by passing all the patients and ran up the stairs to Tsunade's office. I had the number memorized now. I was crying. My eyes were blurry but I still knew where I was going.
I didn't even bother knocking on Tsunade's door. I just opened it.
"Hey! I'm busy ov- Naruto?" I nodded my head and whispered sorry to her. She had a patient, maybe in his twenties.
"Naruto, what happened? Are you hurt? How come you're not covered? Where's Gaara?" She asked. Her voice now filled with concern.
"G-Gaara...he...kiss...not" I couldn't speak and I slid down to the floor. My heart was breaking.
"Oh...Naruto." She whispered. She pushed her patient out of the room, asked a few people to finish her job and she walked me out of there into her car. Placing me in the front seat as she went into the driver's side.
It was silent and my eyes were blurry. I knew it was to perfect to be true. He didn't love me. I just thought he did.
I started to cry again.
"Naruto... What happened?" She asked.
"Gaara cheated..." I whispered.
Her eyes widened, 'How is that possible! I just saw you two yesterday and you two were perfect."
"Yesterday..." I shivered. Great now I'm probably going to get sick again because I was stupid and didn't dry my damn hair.
"With who?"
"I have no fucking clue!" I screamed and Tsunade looked at me surprised. She probably never heard me swear out loud.
"Sorry."
"Do you know what...he looked like?"
I gulped. The male really did look like the demon that killed my parents.
"B-Black raven Hair... cocky smirk. I didn't see his eyes."
"Sasuke." She whispered angrily.
"S-Sasuke...of course." I began to cry again.
"Oh Naruto..." She pulled into her driveway and helped me out of the car
Gaara
I paid the guy for my new tattoo and sat on the step lighting a smoke. My life sucks. Inhale. Exhale. Watch the smoke go up to the heavens. Repeat. My life sucks.
Naruto. Tears sprung to the corners of my eyes, but I stopped and shook my head. No. fucking Sasuke. I refuse to cry. I inhaled some more of my cigarette. I began to cough. Great. Fucking great. My phone started vibrating. I didn't even look at the caller ID, I knew who it was.
"Look Dad, I don't want to fucking talk to you. I'm legit going to kill you if you don't let me calm the fuck down..."
"Gaara? What the hell is going on? I have Naruto here and he says he saw you with Sasuke." Tsunade's voice asked. My brain couldn't handle that, the stress was making me slow.
"Tsunade?... wha- Naruto's at your house?"
"Come here and we'll talk. Poor Naruto can't even make complete sentences." Tsunade sounded sad. She would never sound that sad for me or my siblings, we were a constant reminder of her lost siblings. I'm glad she had a soft spot for Naruto, for Naruto's sake. God did I care about him.
I drove to Tsunade's house, she answered the door, and I told her my side of the story. She wouldn't let me see Naruto until I did.
"You've been smoking... I can smell it, and what did you do to your forehead?"
"Dad will hate it." I smirked thinking of how much I hate him right now.
"You must be pretty pissed." I nodded. "He shouldn't have done that to you, I mean, he was the one who broke you and Sasuke apart in the first place." Tsunade tried to reason.
"He just likes to torture me."
Tsunade led me into a spare bed room, where Naruto was curled up under a mountain of blankets.
"What's wrong with him?" I asked.
"This is only a theory, but seeing as his human emotions are so demanding, he'd using his fox instincts to try and cope. In other words, he's made a den. Foxes don't usually let people in their den unless it's their mate or pups. Also I think he caught a cold. His hair and tail looked wet. I'll leave you too alone."
"Naruto?"
"Go away."
"Will you let me explain? I'm sorry. I, I couldn't control myself! I tried to, I really did, but Sasuke was just... I can't explain it, my body reacts to him, and then he uses it against me. I'm not a weak demon, you know this, I beat up my brother for you. But Sasuke makes me weak in the knees. I was thinking with my dick, Sasuke caught me by surprise... I'm an idiot, I'm worthless, I don't deserve you. I'll leave you alone if that is what you want. But please forgive me." I ranted. I could hear him crying. It pained me. I walked up to the bed and pulled the covers back so I could see his face. Then I got in the bed with him and he instinctively hugged me and cried into my chest.
"H-h-how can I b-believe you?" Naruto sobbed.
"Just trust me."
"G-Gaara?"
"Yes?"
"It was him... he had raven black hair... he killed my parents." Naruto sobbed into my shirt more. That made no sense. I knew Sasuke my entire life.
"No, Naruto. Sasuke never killed anyone but those people I made him kill... and they were people not anthro's. And, Sasuke has black eyes. His brother has red eyes... HIS BROTHER!"
Naruto
I jumped as Gaara's sudden outburst. But I didn't really pay attention. I just buried my head deeper in his chest. Sobbing more. Why was I in desperate need to be close to him? He's the one that made me cry in the first place.
Yes he said he was sorry and that he had no control. But he also said Sasuke makes his knees weak. Does that mean I don't? Does that mean he still has feelings for Sasuke? Am 'I' doing something wrong, there for I'm not good enough?
I cried harder sensing Gaara tightening his grip around me.
He cheated on me. Even if he says he had no control he still did. He says to just trust him...but can I? What if Sasuke pulls the same stunt like before would he be able to resist?
"That bastard! I'm going to slit his throat for what he put you through!"
Who was he talking about? Himself? This is why I should pay more attention and stop having inner battles with myself.
"I'm sorry Naru, I'm sorry. I love you. I really do. You're my everything." I nodded as he ranted. I wanted to say I love you back, because I truly do, but something held me back. Clogging my throat.
Tears still falling down my cheeks I looked up at Gaara to notice him staring softly down on me with apologetic eyes. But something was different...slowly wiggling my arm free I kept a blank expression as I lightly touched his forehead tattoo and he flinched.
"Love?" I asked him. I remembered the sign on his computer.
Gaara
"Yeah, it still hurts, don't touch it." I said flinching away from his hand.
"Hurts?" he asked.
"You don't know much about tattoo's huh? It's like sticking a bunch of tiny needles into your skin, not enough to make you bleed, and then letting the ink sit there. So it will hurt for a while." I explained.
"Why?" I could tell he was still too upset to form more than one word sentences.
"Because I thought I'd lost you. I searched everywhere, every street from my house to your house, to the school and all the streets in the middle. I even checked some streets in bad neighborhoods in case you got lost. I got depressed and I stopped for a smoke. I mean, once I got my mind thinking of how it was Sasuke's fault for me losing you and my father's fault for bringing Sasuke here, I couldn't get my father out of my head. I wasn't in a good neighborhood and the place I stopped for a smoke was near a tattoo parlor... and they had this symbol on the window... then Tsunade called and said you were here. I won't tell you how glad I was to at least know you were ok! I was thinking the worst, I mean, as much as I didn't want you to be homeless I was thinking you were... mugged or raped. I was freaking out."
"R-really?"
"Listen you don't have to trust me again. I just want to let you know I love you. And I wish so much I can change what happened. Maybe, if I was a little more prepared I could have handled that... better. I was expecting my father when I opened that door, the worst... but Sasuke sprung at me and before my brain even knew what was going on my body was aching to be touched." I choked back a sob. Fucking Sasuke.
Naruto:
I looked down from Gaara's eyes and back to his chest. So he got a tattoo because he thought he lost me and he loved me to much?
It sounds sort of stupid to me but...sweet to. But I still can't trust him yet.
And his body was aching to be touched...am I not doing anything right? Is this whole situation my fault? Because...I don't touch Gaara like Sasuke was touching him. Gaara...what if he seriously does still have feelings for that bastard. Great now I'm going to get jealous!
I was shaking and Gaara was now rubbing my back lovingly. I wasn't crying anymore but I was exhausted.
My ears continued to droop along with my eyes.
"You tired? Well you did have a long day. I love you Naru."
I nodded my head. "You want me to take you home?"
"No!" I screamed, shaking rapidly, "No...I can't."
"Shh shh shh, it's okay Naruto I won't take you back there. You want to stay here?"
I nodded my head again.
Gaara frowned, "You want me to leave?" My eyes slightly opened a little wider. Did I want him to leave? After what happened?
I was silent having this inner battle. Gaara sighed and must have thought my silence meant a yes. He began o get off the bed when I grabbed his wrist shakily.
"Okay Naru. I love you." He repeated.
Gaara
"Stop saying that." he whispered. The poor kid was in hysterics. Great Gaara. I wanted to hit myself in the head.
"Naru? Is there anything I can say that will make you feel better?" I asked. Naru just looked at me. He bit his lip as if trying to think over something. I sighed seeing as I couldn't get him away from that habit like I normally do.
Naruto moved on the sheets, so he was straddling me. I just looked at him. What is he doing? He had a nervous concentrated look on his face.
I didn't want to say anything, but he was in a very provocative position, and I'd had a long day. I was physically worn out.
Naruto pressed his lips to mine. Does this mean he forgives me? I said. I didn't want to push him too far. I will let him take it to the level he feels he can handle. He let out a sob and kissed me harder, forcing his tongue into my mouth. I was shocked at this but let him enter, kissing him slowly.
I enjoyed this so much more than how Sasuke gets me to kiss him... the tosser.
Naruto's hands began to feel my waist. He was shaking and I could tell he was nervous as hell to be touching me so... sexy. But I can't think of that right now! What is he doing? It's just because he's depressed. He's just trying to cover up the hurt he feels. Oh Naru I can't let you do that to yourself, I decided. I gently pushed him away.
"NO!" he shouted, then he began to suck on my neck, very roughly leaving bite marks.
"Naru, stop it, what are you..." he grabbed right between my legs. "NARUTO! STOP!" I yelled sitting up and scooting a bit away from him. His face was in tears like he'd been crying the whole time he was kissing me. He tossed himself to the side of the bed so he wasn't facing me and cured up into a ball.
"I kn-kn-knew it!" he sobbed. "Wh-what is it i-i'm doing wrong? Why can't you react to me like you do to Sasuke? Why? Why?" he sobbed uncontrollably. Shit how do I explain this?
Naruto
I rubbed my eyes. I could tell they were red by how they were stinging now. I couldn't think. I probably just embarrassed myself. Gaara doesn't want that from me. But he wants it from Sasuke. It's not fair.
"Wh-what is it i-i'm doing wrong? Why can't you react to me like you do to Sasuke? Why? why?"
I hugged my knees as I cried more.
"Naruto I-"
"No! I don't want...excuses. You don't feel that way with me I get it!" I screamed in between sobs.
"That's not true! You aren't ready for that."
"How would you know that..." I sighed not looking at Gaara. He was probably just making up a lie.
"You're sad and depressed. If you did something with me now...you would hate me more." Gaara tried to touch my shoulder but I shook him off.
"But you let Sasuke touch you...and you like it so much that you even said you were being controlled. If you didn't like it or...if you didn't like Sasuke you would have been able to pull away." I cried in my hands. Why was everything I've been thinking coming out anyway?
"Naruto I could never love or even like Sasuke again." Gaara whispered, "And you know you're not ready. You were shaking from nervousness. I'm just looking after you."
It was silent except for sniffles.
I bit my lip still not looking at the red head. I wasn't able to.
"But do you feel that way towards me at all?" I whispered out
Gaara
"Naruto... you're mad at me right now, I get it. But I'll prove something to you; I don't want you to get mad at me." I told him.
"W-What?" he stuttered.
I rolled Naruto onto his back and straddled his hips, holding his hands above his head, and putting weight on his thighs. I kissed him forcefully, more than he could with me and with confident lips. He tried to not kiss back, because he was mad at me. Just what I wanted. I began to knead at his bulge, getting him hard under my touch, and of course, unable to control his virgin body, he arched into me, rocking his hips wanting more, moaning into my lips. I had to force myself to stop.
"W-What was that?" Naruto asked, his body confused. Right now, he was mad at me, but at the same time he wanted more of... what I just gave him. Blushing like mad and trying to hide his hard on, he flipped under the covers to avoid my gaze.
"See? That's what Sasuke does to me. All rhyme and reason goes poof once you get hard. Only one thought pops into you head. 'For god's sake let him continue and get rid of it already.' loving sex becomes an object, a senseless fuck. You boyfriend doesn't even make it pleasurable for 'you' anymore. You wonder what your whole relationship is based on. And when you ask him about it, because you think you can tell him anything, he tells you not to worry about it. But you are, and he tells you to shut up. 'You don't know what you're talking about.' you don't want to have sex the next night. He gets mad. He knows your spots. He rapes you, but half of you are willing. You try to fight it, but it's such a familiar sense you wonder if it's really possible for someone you love and who loves you can rape you. The answer is yes. And the sad part is, because you trusted that person, he knows just what to do to get your body. He used me Naruto, and he's doing it again. I'll try to fight him I swear... but I learned before it's an un-winning battle."
Naruto
I blushed like mad not trying to meet his gaze. I guess he was right...but did he have to do 'this'?
Well maybe if he didn't do it then maybe I wouldn't of have understood. I draped my tail over the bulge and tried to will it away. I stared at the white wall.
I'm still mad...still sad and still jealous but I can't help it. I still love him. I might not be able to say it now but I do.
"I-I'm sorry Gaara..." I whispered.
"No don't say sorry. What happened is still my fault."
I shook my head and bit my lower lip. It's my fault for not being able to take in Gaara's words when he says he doesn't like Sasuke. That he doesn't want anything from him. But the word he always says is trying. Try try try. Meaning this could all happen again.
There was silence.
"Do you still want me to stay? Or do you hate me and want me to leave?"
"I don't hate you..." I whispered, "Just...mad upset and jealous."
"So do you?"
I bit my lip again. I'm going back into the habit.
"Stay." I breathed out.