Ch. 4

Courtney *POV*

"Well hey there sugar," he said with a smirk across his face.

Gerard was holding me in his arms, drenched from the rain. The only light was coming from the full moon and the TV across the room. He showed up at my apartment so sudden, I hadn't seen him in such a long time, and now I'm so close to him. I stood there in his arms in shock, it was like a dream. My eyes were wide, as well as my mouth.

He let out a giggle, "What? No hello Gerard? It's soo nice to see you after 3, almost 4 years apart?" he said, sarcasm dripping from that smirk he wore so well.

All I could do was let out a breath, "How- how did you find me? What are you doing here? I mean- not that I don't want you here, cause I do. Wait, that came out wrong," I said breaking from Gerard's grip and looking down.

He just laughed, "When did you become so articulate? If you must know, Frankie tracked you down for me," he said with a knowing gaze. He walked around the apartment, taking in every little detail. "You didn't find it weird that he asked for a photo of your apartment?"

"Uhh well yeah, I did. I just thought he wanted to see how nice it was," I said shrugging.

He stopped infront of the hallway, "This is a pretty spacious apartment. Why do you need so much space?" he asked, tilting his head.

"Oh, Frank didn't tell you?" His eyebrow arched in confusion, he didn't know I'm living with-

Just then the door opened and Gerard's head shot around. Patrick stepped in carrying his guitar, "Hey Courtney! The guys are still at the bar, I caught a cab hom-" then his eyes met Gerard's. "Oh shit," he whispered, "Wha-what are you doing here?" he asked, a mixture of annoyance and fear in his voice.

"You're living with THIS asshole!" Gerard's angry voice echoed. He marched up to me, "Please tell me you haven't started dating this jerk again," he said in a softer voice.

"N-no I'm not-"

"Then why is he here?!" he asked hysterically.

I glanced at Patrick who was watching, he was getting angry. "I'm right here! I can hear you! And guess what bonehead, I live with her," Patrick said with pride, he knew Gerard wouldn't like that.

Gerard spun around, I could see his jaw clentching. He started towards Patrick but I ran and got in the middle. "Woah Gerard take it easy! Lots of things have happened since you've been gone! We're cool now!" I yelled holding the two apart.

"I don't care if he saved a bus full of orphans! He still hurt you," Gerard said, his voice getting softer as he spoke

I let out a sigh, "Gerard, that was a long time ago. I've forgiven him, he's my friend now. You should too. Please, for me."

He stepped back still glaring at Patrick, who was glaring back. "Fine," he mummbled, "but only for you."

I let out a sigh of relif, then there was a moment of silence. The atmosphere was so thick in the room you could cut it with a butter knife. Then Gerard cleared his throat, "Well, I guess we'd better be going."

Patrick rised a brow, "We'd?"

Just as he spoke Gerard grabbed my hand and started running out the door. I managed to grab my coat hanging near the door before I was dragged away. I could hear Patrick yelling from behind us and as I looked back I could see him in the doorway.

Gerard laughed as we ran through the rain, hand in hand. A giggle escaped my mouth, a surge of happiness and adrenaline raced to my head. We ran until we couldn't run anymore and ended up at a little convenient store. Laughing and still holding hands, we entered the store to get away from the rain.

Gerard smiled at me, "Hungry?"

"I could go for a Milky Way," I said slipping my coat on.

"Alright, it's on me."

We wondered down the isles doing stupid stuff and slipping from the rain. It took me about ten minutes just to pick out a chocolate bar. Laughing, we passed by a rack of trucker hats. I stopped and grabbed one and put it on. It said "Feel My Steel" with a picture of a truck next to it.

Gerard laughed and grabbed one off the too. His said "Up All Night" with a coffee on it. We laughed trying on all the stupid hats.

"Oh this one is terrible!" I said putting on one that said "I Don't Get Drunk, I Get Awesome in neon colors.

Gerard was red from laughter, "Ohh yeah that is bad."

His mouth curled into a smirk again and he gazed at me with feverish eyes. He slowly inched closer to me and wrapped his arms around my waist. I put my arms around his neck and he leaned the brim of his hat against my forehead. I giggled as he tried to kiss me, pretending that the hat was in the way.

I pushed him away giggling and noticed what his hat said. "Wine 'em Dine 'em Sixty-Nine 'em". That was the hat the creepy douche wore in Dumb and Dumber! When I saw it I reached for it and took it off his head. Patrick took me to that movie when it first came out. They wouldn't let us in because they thought we were too young, so we snuck in. The thought brought a smile to my face.

"This would be perfect for Patrick!" I said excited.

I looked back up at Gerard who was frowning a little. He let out a sigh and walked past me to the cash register. I watched him confused, what was that all about? I walked up next to him and placed the hat on the counter. He let out another sigh and handed the cashier a twenty.

"Will that be it?" the old man asked.

"I'll take a pack of cigarettes," Gerard said pointing behind the counter.

"You smoke?" I asked looking up at him.

"Yeah, is that a problem?" he asked with some sass, taking his change and his cigarettes from the old man. He walked back outside.

"Your boyfriend is a little moody ain't he. He looks like he needs that smoke," the cashier said with a chuckle.

"Oh, he isn't-"

"You might wanna go talk to him," he said pointing outside.

Through the windows Gerard was angrily unwrapping his pack of cigarettes and throwing the trash on the ground. He kicked the wall and leaned up against it. He brought the cigarette up to his lips and searched though his pockets.

I turned to the old man behind the counter, he took out a lighter from his pocket and held it out for me, "He'll probably need this," he said smiling.

"Thanks," I said taking it and the things Gerard had bought for me.

Slowly I walked back outside, it was still raining pretty hard. I walked up to Gerard who was still furiously searching all his pockets. He was cursing under his breath when I leaned up against the wall next to him. I offered him the lighter and he took it and mummbled a thank you.

I watched him as he took a drag of the cigarette and released the smoke through his nose. We stood there in silence for a while under the awning of the convenient store. Then Gerard spoke up.

"Listen, I'm sorry I threw a little temper tantrum in there," he said looking down at the ground.

"It's alright, really."

"It's just- it really pisses me off to see that you still love that guy," he said blowing another cloud of smoke. "I thought- I thought we were having like... a moment in there. Then you fucking bring that ass hat up," he said looking down.

I scoffed, "Wh-what! I promise you I don't have feelings for Patrick," I said chuckling.

"Oh bullshit!" Gerard yelled turning towards me, "He's always on your mind, that's why he popped into your head so easily!"

I shrunk a little, Gerard was getting pretty angry. I don't have feelings for Patrick, I can't. We tried it, it didn't work. I shook my head, "No I really don't Gee," I said softly putting a hand on Gerard's arm.

He took another drag of his smoke and shook my hand off. Blowing smoke, he glanced down at the ground and then at me. "I don't believe it."

"Well believe it. After you left, we did start to date again," I said hesitantly. I could see Gerard's face twitch. "But we broke up again, I broke it off. Things between him and me are best left as friends."

He looked at me with puppy-dog eyes, "Alright. Let's get you home," he said putting an arm around my shoulder and giving me a soft smile. Although he smiled on the outside, I still think he was a little bothered on the inside.

The whole walk back to my apartment was quiet. Neither of us spoke we just kept on walking through the what seemed like never ending rain. When we reached my apartment Gerard gave me a kiss good-bye and left. I watched him as he walked away, tugging on the collar of his leather jacket, covering his face from the rain.

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