AN: Okay...so far there hasnt really been a plot. Well there has with naruto running away and living with the Akatsuki. But thats not what i mean. this story was originaly going to end after like 10 chapters. But becuase my head was being a meany i got a few more ideas in my head to atleast make it a few chapters longer. Now listen. through the story i have put like little tiny clues. Small little things that will all add up in the end. This chapter has a main one that will put 3 and 3 together causing you to scream. Unless you already figured it out already.
To make this story make sense, I had to make naruto have a boyfriend...i know its tottally against this story but it had to happen to make this have atleast a small thing of sense. so please dont hate me when it gets way to cheezy. And since this is the last akatsuki guy guess who naruto is going to be with? Its not that hard to guess. Anyway this is part 1 of 2. And i already made the...very cheezy and corny 2nd part and it will be on tonight. Anyway enjoy...and sorry for the crappy spelling. Im horrible, i know, but i dont have a beta.

My clumsiness has been on an ultimate high for the last month and a half. My nightmares n my mother's death are always there. Every time I fall asleep, no, every time I close my eyes. And fuck is it making me miserable along with the people around me.

I'm positive that there all getting sick of my little mistakes, even if they still won't admit it. But the signs are there. Sometimes they'll get so annoyed that they will give me another task somewhere else around the house.

Because I was making mistakes, and I was sick of my nightmares, I tried not to sleep. But that just made my work worse (if that's even possible!) I shouldn't of have been surprised that Pein, Sasori, Itachi and everyone else knew of my antics and didn't just drop it. They literally make me take naps, like I'm five, and keep a guard there to make sure I actually fall asleep. Almost like a prison. But I really don't want to think of the bar as a jail because it's the complete opposite. This is my home. A real home.

I know it was out of good intentions but it didn't make the nightmares stop. There had been times when Pein of the others had asked me what my dreams are about. But I couldn't tell them. For one because it was worst enough living them every night, I didn't want to sit there and explain. And secondly to get it off my chest, but I didn't want pity or for them to think of me as "Mother killer."

I know that they would say it wasn't my fault. But if I hadn't hid from her where I wasn't allowed to in the first place…

Maybe that's the reason I keep having the dreams. To remind me of what I did. The pain I caused her. I know it's cheesy but every time I have the dream I think I keep on killing her again. That every time she dies in my dream she has to go through all the pain again.

I shook my head out of my thoughts, the sexual harassment hasn't stopped, but why would I want it too exactly? I still think there all really hott and sexy. So it still doesn't bother me. But that doesn't mean I would want to be in a relationship with any of them or anything…That would be just…how should I put it? Weird.

About a week or so ago (Maybe more I'm not technically counting) I made a thanks giving dinner. I had a lot to be thankful for. The Akatsuki for taking me in and caring for me and thanking whatever luck I have left for no special encounters from my past. The drones probably stopped looking, and I'm satisfied by that. But even so, not seeing John and Zack just make me more nervous. I keep looking over my shoulder, hoping they won't pop out of nowhere screaming "Boo!"

To quench my nervous Hidan and Kakazu started it train me how to fight. Even if Kakazu kept calling it self-defense Hidan would always counter back with "It's not fucking self defense if only the other person is getting hurt!" And the class would be over so the two can bicker on who's right and who's wrong and just do Sasori and Itachi could teach me book smarts. I know I hated school before but having 2 sexy teaches is not helping me concentrate!

I sighed, and lastly Deidara seems to be…kind of avoiding me. Unlike everyone else he's the only one that has been cutting down on the harassment and…well he just seems to not like me! I see him at work and at eating periods, but that's it. We don't even exchange words anymore.

At this time I was doing the ditches and I haven't broken anything…yet.

I was shaky, but that's just because I was forced to take a fox nap and I had the dream. The water swirled down the drain while I worked on a frustrating plate.

"D-Damn! Seriously what does Kakazu eat when it's not my cooking? Hearts!" I sighed as the image of my mother flooded back in my mind. Her stopped heart…

My hands shook and I dropped the cursed plate. Making it shatter on the floor. I swore under my breath as I lifted my foot out of the way of the sharp pieces.

Sighing I opened the cabinet looking inside, sliding almost my whole body in my blond hair lightly scraping the top of the counter. Smiling, I grabbed the dust pan and broom. I almost wanted to scream VICTORY! Because that damned dust pan just had to be in the back of the cabinet under all the other cleaning supplies

"What do you mean un!" Deidara yelled and I swore as the back of my head hit hard against the counter.

"Just like I said." Pein said slightly annoyed, "You will be here alone with Naruto this break."

"But-" Deidara stopped short.

I silently licensed as I swept up the pieces.

"No buts. How will it be different than any other Christmas break? The only thing is that this year you will have someone with you. Just be happy it's not Tobi." I lifted an eyebrow questionably. Christmas? Are you serious? When did that come so close? I slid the plate puzzle into the garbage and looked at the calendar. A week and 2 days till Christmas Eve. Wow

And how come nobody told me of this break?

"Look Deidara…" Pein started and I turned my attention toward the door, "You know that this is the only time in the year we go visit family or what not. Even if most of us don't want to. It's just so the family won't get worried or so on. Itachi, for god knows why, goes home to his perfection parents. Same as Sasori and Tobi. Zetsu goes down south to help his niece in a flower shop and Hidan and Kakazu take the week off. Konan and I go on a break as well." Pein paused as to think on what else to say, "You are the only one that absolutely refuses to go on a break or go home. Just because you started a few fireworks and had a disagreement with you father."

Deidara…I can say this by maybe putting a label on it that the blond is somewhat an anarchist. Sometimes you can just see him playing with a lighter, flicking it on and off, to see that flame. Beautiful color. Orange and yellow, with blue at the center. The way such a dangerous thing can die from a breath of air or drop of water makes it even more beautiful…Wow I just sounded either emo or a teenage anarchist.

Anyway the point is Deidara love these type of things. Just like people who love car crashes.

"Don't speak of him un…" I could sense Deidara smugly turning his head in a pout.

"My point is Naruto also can't go home so he's going to be-"

"Why can't he go with Itachi or Hidan and Kakazu!"

"Because Itachi lived in the same town as Naruto. Meaning there's a possibility that he might meet his dad." Pein silently added, "And you know damn well those two need a break." There was an emphasis on the 'e' in need. "You know this is the only time in the year they actually accept it."

"Un."

"You can still do what you normally do when you're alone, you don't even have to include Naruto-Kun. But don't you think that would be nice?"

"But why am I alone with him!"

"You're still not getting it!" Pein yelled.

"I understand perfectly I'm not stupid!"

"I would like to differ. But to the point. You know we would all love to stay with you and Naruto-"

"You mean just Naruto."

"But we can't." Pein scowled "So deal with it. But I swear if something happens again on your watch, so help me I will fire you and then I will kill you." Pein growled. He probably still hasn't gotten over the almost rape incident…

I shifted uneasily on my heals. Deidara seriously doesn't want me to stay here with him? My heart sank just a little.

"Whatever you say leader." Deidara's steps same quicker and quicker towards the kitchen door. But I couldn't move. I was frozen.

'How could he hate me! Did I do something wrong? Did I use his shampoo in the morning because I swear to god I don't know what's what when I wake up!'

Still silent and frozen the blond skulked into the kitchen, fists clenched.

When he saw me he instantly blushed, probably ether pissed or embarrassed that I had heard the whole conversation. Deidara automatically looked away toward the ground.

"You missed a piece." I jumped, "If Kakazu finds out and sees you dropped another he will make you pay for it."

And then he was gone. Me staring at his back dumbfounded

...

My jaw dropped open as my eyes were dead on Itachi. Did he just say Uchiha!

"Did you just say Uchiha!" I screamed my thought out loud.

"….Yeah." Itachi replied being slightly confused. All he had said was that his parents probably won't shut up about working for the family Uchiha Corp business this break. And now here we are my eyes bugging out of my head while Zetsu watches me worriedly.

"You mean your name is Itachi Uchiha." I still couldn't comprehend it.

The whole table, but Deidara, was staring at the both of us, questionably and confused.

"Yes Naru-Chan my name is Itachi Uchiha. Is there a problem?"

I still can't believe it. The lovable and incredibly sexy Itachi Uchiha is related to that ass hole Sasuke…well I think there related. Because there are not many Uchiha families so I would guess there from the same blood line. And to tell the truth, they do both sort if look alike. I must be really dumb if I didn't know his last name and-

"Earth to Naru-Naru!" Tobi waved his hand in front of my face laughing with food in his hair.

"A-And you're re-related to S-Sasuke Uchiha…"

"Yes he's my brother but- How did you know that?"

I was silent. No of course they weren't just related. They were fucking brothers! They are completely different! My breathing hitched.

"Uh…it's just that…I know Sasuke-san- I mean Sasuke!" I corrected myself automatically. The thing is I was always supposed to call them with san behind their names. Maybe that was another reason why Sasuke was so pissed at me at the store. Because I wouldn't call him that.

Forks and knives clattered onto the plates.

"Did you just call my very annoying, brat of a little brother Sasuke-san?"

"Uh…No?"

"No I specifically heard you say Sasuke-San as well." Sasori said with a confused look in his eyes.

"Nope. I'm sure I didn't." I lied.

"What's the history behind you and my bastard of a brother?" Itachi glared at me.

"W-Well he kind of…had been bullying me since fifth grade and uh…" I looked at Zetsu for support. He nodded in response.

"A-And a month or so ago he t-took Naruto's fi-first kiss by force…" Zetsu hid his face with his hand. Itachi's jaw dropped along with everyone else.

"He what!" Itachi screamed and I flinched.

"P-please don't be mad…"

"How can I not! My brother, my own blood, has been torturing you and he-" Itachi stopped short of breath.

"What happened a month ago Zetsu."Pein stared at the pale man sternly.

"W-What happened Uh-"

"Please don't get mad at him! I told him to not tell. I was embarrassed and I just didn't want Zetsu to get in trouble!"

For the first time in a long time Deidara was paying attention. Not at Pein Zetsu Itachi or even Tobi. But me. Just staring at me with questioning eyes.

"Y-Your telling me…My bastard brother, who always makes fun of gays, tortured and kissed you and-" the crow stopped again and for some reason it seemed like he had scene a ghost.

Because of me I ruined the last dinner we would have together before break. I felt as if I might throw up.

"I-Itachi…Please still go visit your home." I whispered, "I don't want you to not visit your family. You never know if it would be your last."

The crow stared at me frightened and silent. I mouthed the word please and Itachi nodded his head. I softly smiled.

Everyone was leaving tomorrow morning. Except for Deidara. I'm going to be lonely and I won't exactly be able to give the guys there gifts until they come back from break, but I don't want to steal them away from their homes...

And what could I do during break? Or better yet what can I do during break. Seriously! If I go outside I can get caught. But if I stay inside I might be bored to death!

Like reading my thoughts Sasori said, "You could study. We all know you need it. Right Itachi?" The red head nudged Itachi softly in the gut and the crow nodded.

"No I want to…I don't exactly know what I want to do." I sighed while pushing the mostacholi noodles around my plate.

"Pein…" the crow whispered.
"Yes Itachi?"

"I need to talk with you. Will you come with me?" It wasn't a question it was a demand.

And they walked out of the room

...

Third Person

"What is it Itachi?" Pein recited with a smirk, tone normal as ever.

"You know damn well what this is about!"

"So you finally figured it out Huh?" Pein snickered, "In truth it sort of surprises me that you didn't figure it out sooner."

"You knew! And you brought him in here! Do you knew how that makes me feel. And what about the others?" Itachi fumed.

"We need to own up Itachi. You know as much as me that he was treated horribly where he lived. And you know damn well that it happened after the incident."

Itachi sighed eyes narrowing, feeling somewhat if he might cry, "When did you find out?"

"The moment I saw him. Just his name proved it."

"Is that why you didn't tell us his last name?"

"Yes"

"…" Itachi's mind was spinning. He didn't know what to say anymore.

"How am I supposed to finish the day when this is in my mind…"

"Just don't think about it. Pretend that this conversation never happened. But because I feel I have to play god we are watching over him. It's our Duty Itachi." Itachi nodded his head.

"Just act like normal. He Hates change." And with that said Itachi left to his room to finish packing.