I was lying down on my bed, staring at the plain white ceiling, picturing white snow softly falling outside. I wasn't a real fan of the cold but snow was always so beautiful. Lightly covering the ground. It was just so delicate while it swayed softly to the earth below. I sighed. Id wish it would snow so I would at least have something to do!
Everyone left 4 days ago. Saying goodbyes were tough but seeing everyone going away was worst. Almost immediately Deidara had left to go…where ever he goes and I was left here alone. Nothing was on TV but old Christmas movies and specials. And if it wasn't that then there were only Soap Operas. How fun is it to learn that Jessie's long lost twin brother has just appeared and is dating Jonathans girlfriend who was once an FBI agent, and did I tell you that the long lost brother is the good twin and the other one is an evil twin? I even tried keeping my time going by punching a punching bag or even reading (can you believe they weren't comic books?) but eventually I just ended up eating chips of cookies while laying on my ass. When I finally realized that I had ate a bag of potato chips in 1 hour I stood up. I was going to get fat if I kept eating like Choji.
I would try to talk to Deidara, but he wouldn't listen or he would yell that he was busy. I often got frustrated. I would make him dinner but he would barley eat it. I would say good bye for him when he would leave early in the morning and say welcome back when he would come home late at night. I swear that I'm sounding more and more like a depressed house wife. But I can't help it. There's something about Deidara that makes it hurt more than it did when Hidan hated me. I actually don't know why it hurts so much more.
So here I repeat I'm bored as dog without his squeaky toy. Alone while laying on my bed dreaming about snow. It's getting colder but I don't really know if it would get cold enough for snow. I sighed. One of the good points on the cold is that when it is you can cuddle up with whatever there is.
Unconsciously I brought my hand up to the necklace that was permanently around my neck. Shin…I haven't really thought of him in awhile have I…well I guess he was right that I would find people to love me. To care for me. And I honestly wish that he was here right now. I wonder how he's doing and I wonder how his daughters doing. And I wonder…if he actually does come to get me, to take me in with open arms, do I really want to go. Do I seriously want to leave the Akatsuki? That's going to be the most difficult question of all. I hate being indecisive. It's probably my worst feature.
I let my hand fall back onto the bed. Deidara hasn't come back yet has he…And now I'm back on Deidara! Why do I keep thinking of him! I barley talk to him anymore and this whole week I have barley even seen him! He's just locked in his room, every so often coming out to get something to eat or to leave the house and come back with a bag of mysterious wonders!
My knee pulled up to my chest. And yet…I can't stop thinking about him. Maybe I'm just so bored that I really want to do something with him. I looked at the clock 6 pm. And he had left at 7 this morning! What was he doing!
The door suddenly opened and before I could even think I was running out the door and out to the front hall.
"Uh…welcome back Dei-Dei." I said with a small smile.
"Hmm." He grunted in return. The mysterious white bag hanging on his arm.
"Are you doing drugs?"
"Why would I do that? Do I look like a druggy?" Deidara snarled through his teeth.
"No but you sure are acting like one." I growled, "Leaving in the early morning coming back hours later with a weird white bag. What else am I supposed to think!"
"You're not supposed to think anything and stay out of my business dad!" Deidara yelled.
"B-But I can't Deidara!"
"Just leave me alone I got things to do."
The older blond walked past me in a rush while roughly bumping his shoulder into mine. I almost fell but kept my balance to grab hold of his wrist. He tried to shake me off but I didn't let go. I was going t get answers and I was going to get them now!
"What the hell! Let me go un!"
"N-No."
"I have things to do just let me go idiot."
"No! You have been avoiding me for a long time and I want to know why."
"I'm not going to tell you that because I'm not avoiding you!" Deidara hissed.
"Yeah you are! If not then what do you call not talking to me, not hugging me, not even looking at me! To me that sounds as if you hate me and are ignoring my very existence!" I couldn't help my voice begin to feel cracky and my cheeks turning in a blush. Everything I was saying was true and it…really hurt saying them out loud. I didn't want to cry and I plan not to.
"I'm not avoiding you Naruto."
"Then what's leaving early in the morning and coming home late at night with a mysterious bag! You don't eat anything and then you just waltz right into your room without another glance at me! It hurts Dei-Dei!"
I let go of his arm and let it fall to my side.
"Y-You can go into y-your stupid room and do whatever dumb t-thing you're doing…" I whispered hair in my eyes. I didn't want to look at him anymore, and I felt as if I might cry. Why am I so weak! Why do I care for this damn bastard whose been ignoring me, hating me for no reason!
I turned my back away. I didn't want to cry like a baby in front of him. I couldn't look at him anymore so I began to rush away back to my cold lonesome room. But before I could even get a step away I felt warmth drape over me while Deidara hugged me from behind. His arms softly, but securely, holding me tight round my waste against his chest. His forehead was plastered against my shoulder.
"I'm sorry…" I shuddered at his words. A shiver rising up my spine.
"I'm sorry." He repeated.
"Dei-Dei…" I put my hands over his. Tears slowly falling down my cheeks.
"I'm sorry. Naruto…Please don't cry. Please just…don't."
"But…Deidara…"
"I'm sorry…Do you really want to know what I've been doing?"
I nodded my head.
"…fireworks…"
My eyes widened and I turned my head to stare at the blond. Fireworks? Why was he messing with fireworks?
"Don't freak out Naruto…and please don't tell Pein. He would kill me if he knew I was making fireworks in his building."
"B-But why fireworks?"
"Festival."
"What festival?"
The blond let go of me and grabbed my hand, slightly startling me and dragged me to his room. I…never really been in Deidara's room and if anything…It was nothing that I had predicted. The walls were white with splashes of paint on them. He had a window, unlike my room, and u could see the sun just setting behind a small building. And his bed, king size in the center of the room. An addition to the room was scraps of paper and many other tools and gizmos just lying around. Deidara ran to his bill board and ripped off a paper. His cheeks were lightly blushed when he handed it to me.
Firework Christmas festival. 7:30 PM on…today. There was this festival and I didn't even know about it.
"They pay me 4000 dollars every year to make 50 percent of the fireworks."
"A-And the bag?"
Deidara opened it up to allow me to see the contents, "Oxidizers, Coloring Agents, reducing Agents, Binders and regulators. I at least run out every day and the stores I need to buy them are on the other side of town."
I was silent…"I-I'm sorry Deidara….I didn't know."
"No it's my fault for being a total jack ass."
"…"
"…"
Sitting down on his bed I didn't know what else to say. It wasn't…Awkward it was just…Kind of uncomfortable.
"Uh…Naruto."
I looked at him, "yes Dei-Dei?"
"Um…well…I never really asked someone this…and I was sort of planning on not going this year but…"
"Are you asking me to go with you to the festival?" I smirked.
"Uh…Kind of." His face flushed red, "I want to say sorry for…"
"Ignoring me?"
"Sort of. I didn't know it hurt you so much. And I'm sorry."
I put my hand up to his cheek, "its okay Dei-Dei…I was just acting like a total baby. I'm 16 I should have just asked you from the start."
"Thanks Naruto….And before you ask it is not illegal to help the firework commission. I was just helping out. The rest of the fireworks were made in a factory. It's just that they never have enough money to buy a lot so I help out."
"Um...Okay Deidara but I wasn't really thinking that." I laughed. For the first time in a while I was truly happy.
"Well…I guess u should get dressed…and warm stuff. The show is tonight in 30 min. I want to leave in 15 to show you….something."
...
We were side by side, not talking, just walking. Every now and then Deidara's hand would rub against mine and a shiver would erupt from the pit of my stomach. Deidara was dressed a little warmly. He had a tight black and blue striped shirt with a black leather jacket to cover his bare arms. His shirt was a little riled up from walking a distance so I could see some of his stomach, which he had an undershirt that was made out of fishnets. His jeans…Black skinny jeans with two belts crossing over each other with a chain hanging on his ass. Most likely from his wallet.
I bit my lower lip. What was doing checking him out! He's Deidara…but then again he does look good. While me, I didn't dress that warmly being a complete idiot. My loose compact jeans didn't help the cold because the cool breeze would waft up every so often. My shirt being black with an almost neon blue swirl. Then my damn hoodie wasn't warm enough. It was too thin. Deidara looked so much better than me and he seemed so much warmer.
I blushed as the thought of cuddling up to Deidara for warmth. Deidara stopped startling me a bit.
"Okay were here."
I looked around. Where were we exactly? I hadn't really paid attention where we were going. Just following Deidara wherever he headed. We were on an empty hill surrounded by trees. There were no other people. Only us. The moon was HUGE! And where we were you could see all the houses and buildings below. People holding lanterns making everything light up. It was beautiful.
"De-Deidara…"
"This is the best place to watch the fireworks." The blond sat down hands lazily behind him while his knees are pulled up. He moved some hair out of his eyes and looked at me, motioning me to sit down next to him, "I found this place a few years ago. Tobi followed e once so he was the only other one to know about it." He sighed.
I blushed. How come I'm feeling this way? How come if Deidara's not with me I get sad? Or every time he's by me I get happy. How come every move he makes it causes a shiver to go up my spine or makes my stomach tingle. How come I get nervous when around him…Do I…love Deidara?
I sat down next to him while still having an inner battle in my head. Me love Deidara…no way. He's just another one of the guys. He's just like Itachi Sasori Pein Zetsu Kakazu Hidan and Konan. Nothing more...then why does my heart keep telling me otherwise? I looked at the blue eyed blond. He was staring at the sky. Or maybe he was just looking at the stars or the large glowing moon. He looked so concentrated on it.
I shivered again from thinking of the blond and from the cool air that had just swept by us.
"Naruto…"
"Uh...Yes Deidara?"
"You should have put on warmer clothes your shivering."
"Well…I'm okay. It's not that cold out he-" The wind had come at the worst possible time.
"No you're not okay." Deidara began to take off his jacket when I stopped him, "No! Don't take off your jacket. Then you will get cold..."
"No I'm okay. Just take it. If you get sick then Pein will bite off my head."
"No don't…I don't want u getting cold. If you're worried about me don't. I'm okay." I whispered looking at the stars.
The big dipper looked so much larger in the sky than usual. Maybe it was because where we are. Deidara seriously picked a beautiful place. And now I'm alone with him. Starting the very awkward silence.
Suddenly I was lifted up and placed on top of Deidara's lap. I made a slight squeak which made the blond chuckle. His warm breath caressed my neck and I softly moaned. This time I'm pretty sure it wasn't because of my sensitive spot that I moaned.
"Dei-Dei why you do that!" a light blush painted my skin.
"Because. You were cold and you didn't want my jacket so I decided to keep you warm with body heat…do you mind?" I could sense the smirk on his face.
"N-No I don't mind…just tell me before you do that!"
"Fine. Anything for you Naruto."
"Really?"
"Yes really."
"Then can you answer this question?"
"Yes I can answer the question. I guess that's over with."
"No not that question!" I yelled.
"But you said can I answer the question. And I did. I said I can answer your question."
I sighed a little frustrated, "I mean a different one."
"Depends on the question."
"Just please listen…"
"Okay." Deidara shifted me on his lap while softly holding my sides.
"Before this week…for the last month you've been…avoiding me." I stared at him, his eyes turned slightly sad, "I thought you hated me…"
"I can't hate you Naruto."
"Then why were you avoiding me?"
"Because I-"
I cursed at the sky when large loud fireworks had started. Why did they have to go off now? Out of all times for the damn fireworks to go off! I could still feel the blond's eyes staring me down and I looked back at him.
"Because I-"
Again another firework, blue and orange exploded in the sky. Looking somewhat as a weeping willow.
I shook my head because I couldn't hear him.
He tried again, with only failing. He really wants to get this out. What was he saying! Dammit
"I was- because I- You!" Short bursts of Deidara's words.
"I can't here you!"
There was silence for a bit. Only the fireworks above us. No one else around. Deidara didn't try speaking anymore. Only knowing he would get interrupted by the bursts of explosion above. He turned me around so that I was straddling his lap. My legs automatically wrapped around his in instinct. He sighed again before speaking, "Because I l-" even with him yelling this close to me I couldn't hear him. I nodded my head no. I almost had tears of frustration.
His right hand softly caressed my cheek making me shiver and blush. I must really like Deidara. I've never felt like this before. He mouthed the words again and I shoke my head. I want to hear him I just can't!
Finally the older man leaned forward against my neck. Leaving light feathery kisses that made me shiver in delight. HE made it to my ear, softly breathing on it. "Can you hear me now?" The smirk in his voice was soothing and sent a chill up my spine.
Shyly I nodded my head. His voice being directly imported into my ear.
"It's because I. Love. You." My eyes widened at the three words. I wanted to cry. The guys have all said they like me. They care for me. They love me. But this one was different. The tone in his voice was loving and serious.
"I couldn't stand being so close to you and not being able to take what I wanted, I couldn't stand there watching all those others touching you. Your neck being your sensitive spot right?"
I nodded my head, still unable to speak.
"I love your blond locks just a shade different from mine. Your sparklingly blue eyes such a different color than my own cold blue eyes. The way your tan skin is so delicate. I hated to see you when you first came here with bruises. I almost went to whoever gave them to you and beat there ass. But Pein stopped me."
Tears formed in my eyes threatening to leak, "When you almost got raped…I felt as if I failed you. I felt guilty for that day and so I decided to not hurt you by staying away. But I hurt you again…cause you pain by staying away I'm sorry." My tears couldn't stay in. they fell down my cheeks. He loves me. Deidara loves me.
"And now I'm making you cry again."
I urgently shook my head. "No!"
"No?" he whispered huskily.
"I mean you didn't make me cry…well you did but didn't."
Deidara looked at me while he began to lightly kiss the crease in my neck. I moaned again and slightly tilted my head so he could have more space. He smirked lightly while he began to lightly nibble and suck on one spot.
"Dei-Dei!" My face blushed more.
"Yes Naru…do you want me to stop?"
"N-No it's just…" I stopped suddenly when a small light white flake fell down on my cheek. I smiled. Snow.
"It's just what?" Deidara whispered his forehead against mine.
"I…I l-love you to…" My face blushed more and Deidara smiled.
Deidara took a snowflake that had fallen on my hair and melted it with the heat of his hand. Without warning he pressed his soft lips against mine. Pressing light kisses at the corner of my lip. I softly hugged his neck when I began to kiss him back. Every time he made a peck he would repeat 'I love you' and I would smile.
Another crackle was heard over ahead or it might have just been in my head. This seemed to perfect to be true. The older blond probed my lips with his tongue and I shivered in anticipation and nervousness. Was this really happening?
"Was it true that the Uchiha kissed you?"
I nodded my head a little and whined, wanting to already kiss fully.
"Well this will cover that one un." Deidara smirked while he pushed my side lightly which made me gasp and for Deidara take the chance to dig his tongue into my mouth. I groaned as the moist organ caressed my own. And eventually finding its way to the roof of my mouth.
My tongue eventually started massaging Deidara's in time when he would thrust his tongue into my mouth. He searched my mouth as if memorizing ever crevice of the orifice.
Many crackles and bangs were ahead of us now. Creating probably the best mood there could ever be. I still wonder how I even got in this situation. I guess I just felt different with Deidara than everyone else.
Deidara responded to my thought by softly sucking on my lower lip then letting go. A trail of spit formed between us.
"How long have you loved me Naru…"
"I- I guess I loved you since I met you…but I just recently noticed. Sorry…" I breathed out and smiled.
"As long as you love me now un."
And we laughed as we watched the finally of fireworks while I cuddled up to his chest.
"You're warm Dei-Dei." I snuggled closer and the older shivered
"I'm kind of glad that you didn't wear warmer clothes now." He smirked.
We laughed watching the sky turn into an exploding canvas of 100 colors.
...
Somewhere else
"Hello sir and whose number will you be needing"
"I would need Minato Uzumaki."
"And who are you and what would you like with him? Sorry sir this is protocol for higher ups such as Minato Uzumaki."
The man on the line coughed in his fist after slightly sniffling and wiping away tears, "My name is Tobi Uchiha and I want to tell him that I know where his son is."