AN- So this is the second half of last chapter….yeah review or ill get even more sad. Please!
Yeah not that much of an author's note but you people are mean so no big note for you! Not that you actually care. ¬_¬ You probably won't even read this. I don't even know if you read this story! So review Dammit! As if Orochimaru will get you if you don't!
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Tears rolled down my tan whisker marked cheeks as I tried to muffle the sounds erupting from my mouth. How could this happen to me? Or really why has this one thing cause me to break into tears in the back of the limo that I was forced to drive to school in? It didn't make sense. I know I promised myself to not cry anymore but for some reason I can't help it. Much like how I couldn't help letting one tear escape my eyes when I watched the three backs walk away from my hospital room door. But now…I just can't help balling into my fists.
Not only does that bastard cause me grief by treating me like dirt but he tells me that…that if I don't lie in court about him hitting me or starving me then I can have my items back that remind me of my life when I had my mom in it. Before she died… Not to mention if I lie I will never be free from hell. But if I tell them the truth about him then…he's going to burn them. He's going to find a way to destroy any traces there are left so in the end I won't even remember her face…his exact words.
Why he was doing this to me was a mystery. Maybe it really was because he felt hurt by being reminded on how nice, how beautiful or how…loving she was. Because it's everything he's not. Or even worst, because that was the only good thing in the world to him. I mean, I barley look like my mother. In truth I am almost a splitting image of that thing called a father and so maybe that's why he hates me enough. Because I can't remind him of her at all…
Even before I could beg to be let go to school he started drilling me about the Akatsuki. But I wouldn't tell him anything because in truth, there's nothing wrong with them…that I know of. And he could probably find his own information about them if he wanted to. But he still got angry with me and was tempted to hit me, I could tell…but for some reason he didn't. And that reason was because of that social worker that was supposed to check up on us or something.
I wiped my eyes clean as I tried to stop my eyes from leaking the tepid salty substance. This making my eyes puffy and red from scrubbing to hard. Before I knew it I had a tissue being handed to me by the driver or the vehicle. I muttered a thank you before I took it and wiped my nose that I was sure was spilling the gooey substance. I probably looked like shit right now but then again I don't truly care.
"Hey, what happened to make you leak from all orifices?" He joked and I rolled my eyes not caring at the moment.
"Nothing." I lied to him before I opened the door, ignoring his curious glances and left to go and endure a crappy day of school only for it to go horribly fast and I would have to go straight home. I know this is going to end bad just like it began.
I plodded up the stairs to the main building, pretty much dragging my backpack all the way. At first I had wanted to come to school to get out of the house since I was just in the hospital but I couldn't help but now dread about the idea of even being here. With people hating me and stuff. I don't really have friends here so why was I so anxious to get out of one torture spot to another one. Why even bother really.
I made my way to my locker without any disturbance from the people around me. Which at first shocked me because I'm normally having people shoving and pushing me around and calling me names. But right now I'm either ignoring it or it's not happening. The normal snide comments and whispers were changed somehow and instead of giggles after them there were saddened sighs.
I just wanted to not know what the rumors or gossip was about and really I just wanted to get out of here. What were to happen if I just…I don't know, died and ended up in heaven with my mom? Oh wait…gay people don't go to heaven. But I think I deserve it don't I.
I sighed, why was I thinking like this? I shouldn't, I can't, and it's against everything I believe in to give up. It's not right. To go the easy way out? And what would that cause the people that care about me feel about that? And I'm not talking about the Akatsuki, I'm also talking about Shinrai and Suzie…those two at least care about me also.
Breathing out in annoyance I slammed my locker shut after getting the objects that I had needed for the classes. Causing the people next to me and around me to jump at the noise. I just looked at the faces trying to figure out what the fuck was wrong with everyone today be acting more messed up than normal! I looked at them suspiciously but in the end I just rolled my eyes, not being in the mood to deal with crap right now. Somehow I was in the middle of wanting school to last forever to not have to go home to wanting school to go fast so I dint have to be stuck with the crap of people in the school halls. You just have had to have that feeling once in your life even if you weren't in my situation.
As I watched the now so much more interesting tiles on the school's dirty floors, I walked through the many students who were acting odd since I got here 9like that's really different) and the point is I also didn't really care. They can act all they want, it's not like the gossiping about me hasn't changed.
I wasn't paying attention to anything in particular when I was grabbed by my forearm, almost roughly but only enough to make sure I couldn't escape, and started to drag me away and around the corner.
"W-Wha?" I started confused but stopped and froze stiff at the person dragging me away. I only saw raven colored hair pulling me away. Sasuke? Fuck what he was doing! By now I actually was trying to pull away, worried that he would do something or something bad would happen, but instead of the usual pulling into the abandoned bathroom he pulled me into a classroom that I recognized was unused seeing as the teacher who used to use this room got fired last year. It was the creative writing teacher, Anko I think. She didn't like to be called by her last name. I actually enjoyed her class because I would get all my feelings on paper into stories. She got fired because the principal thought she was too immature and wasn't a good teacher. But to me she was fine, and I liked her a lot.
"H-Hey let me go bastard! I'm in n-no mood!" I stuttered as I was pulled into the dark room, and was pretty much tossed inside enough to make me trip on my own feet and actually land on a desk. Well not really on a desk per se, more as in my lower back hit the edge causing me to squeak in pain and glare at the back of Sasuke fricken Uchiha's head. I am in no mood, and after I balled my eyes out I didn't want to deal with any of his crap.
"Sa-." I started but was only stopped from the Uchiha causing a click to occur in the room. Meaning he had locked the door. Okay…I should start to worry now right? This wasn't his normal room to do things to me. I looked around the room once. And his friends seemed to not be in here either. This was weird and messed up and it couldn't stop me from thinking that something else was going on…
"S-Sasuke?" I said again this time sounding a bit more scared, since I actually was.
"I'm not gonna do anything to you loser I just…got some things to say." The Uchiha muttered as if his pride was killing him at the moment.
"Then turn on the damn light so I don't feel scared shitless!" I yelled and he flinched before the raven finally turned around and faced me.
"I can't do that."
"Why not!"
"Because then people will know were here. In specifics the guys will know I'm here and all the damn girls in this school would come in here." Sasuke said and rolled his eyes. Making me scowl at him.
"What do you want." I asked him suspiciously raising an eyebrow.
"Um…h-how are you?"
"How am I? Just peachy mind you. If that's all you have to say then I'm out of here." I mean seriously when the hell did he care. Frustrated and mad at myself that I even let myself be taken into this room I gripped onto my backpack and got up only to have Sasuke standing in front of me.
"Okay, look, this is hard for me but I'm trying to make my best okay!"
"And what are you trying to do exactly? Kiss and make up from years of torture? Because I'm not in the mood for your prissy shit Sasuke." I hissed at him and again tried to leave but he left my way out.
"Will you stop being a bitch and just listen! I'm trying to do something for Itachi okay, plus I'm worried as fuck and feel guilty as hell for being a dick! Now shut up will ya!"
I took a step back in a bit of shock pretty much written on my face. First off…did he say Itachi? Well for one they are brothers but I dint think they had been in any contact and two…he said he's worried and guilty. But what about! Why is everyone acting weird as fuck and why do I feel to be out of the loop?
"Okay…speak."
"I'm not a fucking dog."
"Then tell me what Itachi wants." I frowned at him while his eyebrows furrowed together.
"But before that I gotta say something! What he wants…isn't really the thing. But that's not the point. He said I had to talk to you before-"
"So this big apology thing isn't what you want? It's what Itachi wants. Then fuck it." I spat angrily causing the raven to scowl more.
"Fucking listen to me dobe!"
"But I don't want to teme!"
"Then don't listen to what I'm going to say but I'm gonna say it!"
I stayed quietly crossing my arms over my chest as I waited for the long awaited speech to happen.
"Okay…Itachi didn't tell me to tell you what I want to say. I may look up to the bastard but I'm not his fricken puppet. Arron boy, possibly, but that's not the point…I feel like a dick for putting all the stress from my own family trying to morph me into my brother so I'm not even me anymore onto you. I hurt you when you probably didn't deserve it. I thought that maybe you were living a better life than me since you were an only child and didn't have any burdens on your shoulders to surpass. I thought since you're dad let you do what you want rather than forcing you into playing football or to getting high grades and not letting you do what you really want in life that you had a pretty damn good life." He rambled and I had to resist rolling my eyes. I didn't get any freedom. I had no clue what he was talking about, "But…I was wrong. I was a jackass for being a bully since I was little. But I couldn't stop. And then when I found out you were gay and that just broke me more seeing as how I couldn't be in my family. My brother's gay, which is one of the reasons he left the Uchiha's, since it was frowned upon. Not that my parents give two shits if Itachi was gay or not since he was so fricken perfect. But once he was gone…I had no hope in being gay. And so again I put it on you. Not that I should have. So I will say again, and I'm swallowing all my pride to say this…I-I'm sorry. For all the shit I fucking put you through. And when you were dealing with your dad all these years-"
"wait wait wait…hold up." In truth I was actually taking in every word the raven was saying but when he got to my dad that confused me. What did he mean put up with my dad for all these years? Did he know something? Well that's a stupid question, of course he knew something if he said it! "What?"
"You really don't know? Itachi told me that it was a possibility but I didn't think it was true."
"What's true, what do you mean Sasu-teme! I'm confused!"
"Well of course you are dumbass! And I'm talking about how your father abused you didn't he?" the raven said almost to himself as he looked through his book bag for something.
"W-Wait, h-he does n-no such…thing." I lied.
"Oh stop lying. You are such a bad liar, I learned so over the years…A hah! Found it." He said to himself before he thrusted a magazine into my hands making me blink into confusion before he motioned a bit annoyed to look at the cover.
On it…was me. But not just me but my dad too and…the Akatsuki! And headline, "Millionaire abusing son, inside look" I snapped my head back at the Uchiha looking at his nails a bit boredly, "What the hell!"
"Yeah, you're all over the news and magazines. The Akatsuki, where my brother is, seems to have started a riot! Actually taking your dad to court. He could lose custody over you and possibly even lose half of his money."
So that's why he's so pissed… I thought to myself.
"H-How did anybody…believe this."
"My brother said he knew you as a kid. Saying we used to hang out together and that he was getting worried about you and your safety. Which in truth is roughly correct."
"Wait…so this is why you feel guilty and what did Itachi exactly want?" I asked him actually quiet curious.
"Well…he gave me something to give to you. It's not his style since he can't draw at all but here." He handed me a sheet of paper with a drawing of a giant tree on it…looking roughly like the tree I used to hang out by in the school…nobody goes there anymore since they think its infested with a bee hive, but they cleaned out that thing months ago.
"T-Thanks…" I whispered before looking up at him, "W-when you were talking…what exactly do you want to do in life that your parents disagree of?" I said curious.
"Drawing…but they don't think artist are good enough for life. And if it really wasn't for Itachi leaving then I wouldn't have to deal with the company crap and live on with what I wanted. But I do sort of look up too him for leaving though…" He said a bit distraught. I couldn't help but feel a bit bad…even after all the shit this kid put me through.
"Anyway, that's what I wanted to say, even though your dad pretty much bribed all the teachers to make sure they didn't spill anything that was happening in any public eye things." Sasuke rolled his eyes, "I suspect he also ordered the people who work with him to do the same. His reasoning to hiding it from you is so that you aren't stressed. But I can see that's a bunch of bull shit."
"Why?" I asked after a few seconds of silence.
"Why what?"
"Why would you apologize for being an ass Sasu-teme! Why are you trying to help me now?" I said tears coming to my eyes, brimming them.
"Because…okay, I actually do have a heart alright? And I mean…I do love Itachi, especially from leaving the family. And when I first heard you knew him…I was shocked and didn't believe you, but then Itachi called me and asked to meet up, something I didn't think he would even do since Christmas ended so badly. He seemed like he was lost…and then he flipped out at me for talking shit about you and he yelled out that he was gay to the whole family. Well…of course our parents knew but the rest of the Uchiha hadn't known. But seeing as how I was the one that caused him to flip I didn't think he would talk to me ever again…" Sasuke looked a bit down but I just frowned at him.
"So you did just do this because of Itachi…" I said a bit hurt.
"Not at all! Okay…maybe a little. But…"
"Sorry Sasuke I don't want any excuses. Now if you don't mind me I have to go follow the fricken treasure map." I spoke to myself as I looked at the drawing again. I think that Sasori maybe drew it since he's a good artist.
Grabbing my backpack (Again since I had let it fall to my side) I walked around Sasuke and unlocked the door. I was about to step out when the same raven grabbed my shoulder. I snapped my head and glared at him.
"What." I growled annoyed and getting more frustrated at the second.
"Itachi didn't make me do this…I did because…" He looked down and I just looked at him curiously while tilting my head to the side just slightly.
"Because what Sasu-Teme?" I asked.
"Because…is it that hard to fricken see that I like you, you dumbass!" he yelled flustered and my cheeks tinted with the color pink. He likes me? Just the revelation caused me to blush even deeper than I knew I was before. I mean…yeah he kissed me and all but I thought that was just to get inside my head or something! This just didn't make any sense. Or did it? Was Sasuke bulling me pretty much hitting on me like in all of those old movies because it didn't make sense! Not to mention I'm still technically with Deidara.
"S-Sorry, I g-got to go." I said quickly running out of the room that was now covered with awkward air. Was it a bit rough to not look back at the raven's expression? I just…he can't just randomly say that to me especially after everything he just told me. And he actually apologized…or I think he did. I mean, he actually looked sincere and not to mention his eyes sort of showed it as well.
I shook my head out of it, turning corners after seeing if there were any teachers. By now the bell had rung, causing all the students to go into the classrooms but that hadn't meant that there weren't teachers in the hallways. And right now…I was just so flustered by the random confession (as well as findings) that I just wanted to get to the back of the school without any trouble.
No…I can't think of Sasuke right now but more as in my father being a complete dick to me because his fricken secret is out! That's why he was so flustered and angry with his lawyer, because the Akatsuki had gotten to the public before he could use his money and power to do anything about the problem at hand. And that's why he's treating me like shit right now. Not in the abusive way but in the ignoring my existence way like he did the first few months of my mom's death. Why can't my dad just ship me off somewhere if he doesn't want me or love me?
I shook my head out of it, finally getting out the back door of the school, re looking at the drawing in my hand. Since it looks like the tree did that mean Sasori had been here? He must of have been for being able to draw the doodle a bit perfectly.
I shoved it in my pocket grumbling to myself when making it to the quiet place, still covered with a thin sheet of snow. It wasn't that much actually it was so thin that it was pretty much just looking like frost, allowing me to see the un-grown grass underneath it, making that swooshing sound with my feet.
If I wasn't so curious about why I needed to come here I would have jumped and played in the mud and muck. I rounded the tree a few times seeing nothing that would get my attention. Absolutely nothing. Until I sighed and actually looked upward onto the bare branches. On a sturdy branch I saw…nothing special except a brown paper bag with an 'N' written on it. Seeing as I'm not that oblivious (only except every other time in the world) I figured out quickly it was meant for me and climbed the damn tree until I was safely sitting, with my back against the trunk and the branch between my legs.
"Geez…you would think they would be trying to kill me or something. What if I fell on my head?" I muttered to myself but still smiling at the thought of this being from the Akatsuki, well hopefully. I mean it's pretty obvious, and I know that it isn't a bomb.
I bit my lower lip, opening the bag and tilting my head to the side when I opened it.
"Lunch? Really?" I thought it would be something like a ticket to Canada or something to get away from my dad. But, my stomach still growled seeing as how I was starving. I ate the ham sandwich relatively quickly, not missing that there was also a juice box and a Twinkie in the bag. I bet you Konan packed this seeing as how she always made lunch like a mother for her kid in kindergarten. I smiled before grunting and frowning at not being able to stick the straw in the hole of the juice box container.
"D-Damn it!" I complained but laughed a quick, "Ha." When I finally did it and sucked enough to get my sandwich down.
It wasn't until I was completely done with my lunch that I found out that wasn't all that was in the brown paper bag. This was what I would probably have been told to look at first before eating as if the food was just a play if someone would find the bag. In it were sheets of paper. All hand written.
Confused and curious, I took the first one on top and read it to myself:
So Naruto if you actually got this then this is Tobi speaking! Well writing! Um…I forgot what I was going to write but this is in pen so I can't erase, Kakazu won't buy any whiteout either, cheep bastard. Anyway, I'm writing first to tell you a few things. One, I forced everyone to write you a letter, I annoyed them a lot to do it when there really busy right not saving your ass! Two, I'm putting this in the tree, be proud that I'm going to climb up it, oh and Sasori drew the picture. Since I'm young enough looking and wouldn't seem like a pedophile AND since it's easier for me to hide around corners and such I can possibly see you times around this tree! But, not today, as you see since I'm not anywhere near here. I'm actually…well right when I'm writing this I'm in Zuzu's room but by the time you get this (since I know people in the hospital and said you got out yesterday) I will probably be with Zetsu while the guys talk to Madara…sadly.
Anyway! I wanted to say that, and if you can come to this tree everyday you might not know if I am hiding behind it! Oh…and did I mention Zetsu and I are together? I don't think I ever did…but I wanted you to know since you helped me! I'm so sorry for what I did and I want you back as soon as possible, which at the latest will be a month…hopefully. I may be smart but I'm confused as hell on the law stuff. Anyway bye bye, talk to you soon! =3
Tobi 3
I smiled at it, laughing at times. He seems to be doing better, and he doesn't seem to be that depressed anymore. I'm glad he found someone…
Taking a more comfortable spot on the branch (that I possibly could have) I switched to the paper under it. The thing is it really made me laugh you know why? It said two words and one of those words was his name!
Thanks
Zetsu
Coming how Tobi was now with the male I would think that he was saying thanks for that, or he was just so lazy that he had to write something and give the boy. Like Tobi said he had annoyed people while they are trying to help me out…which I just figured out by Sasuke…Sasuke…what am I going to do about him? Or do I have to do anything about him at all! Over all he was an ass and…even if he apologized I can't forgive that…okay maybe I can but it's going to have to take a lot of convincing, especially since I'm stubborn as hell.
I shook my head out of it and just kept reading letters after letters. Some of them were like Zetsu's and seemed a bit rushed or like they were doing something so that they couldn't write a lot. Konan wrote something along the lines of how she misses me and how she hopes I'm doing well. How she almost had a heart attack when she heard the news about how I was in the hospital. She told me how much she loved me and that she made me an origami flower. Which I found out was also in the bag that I didn't see. I will admit, even if it's not manly, that I did tear up a bit at her letter. It made me feel better.
Pein wrote something simple like, I'll get you back…about how he was sorry about the things he kept from me about my mom's death. How he wanted to almost play god and protect me, and shelter me. And he didn't think I would stay there if I found out they were the big men in suits when I was younger.
And I do forgive him!
Close with me forever
Sasori
What? I would think…that the red head would at least have written more. Not that I'm complaining that he wrote me at all… I just think it's a bit odd seeing as how…well…I don't know. Maybe I'm a little hurt, possibly.
I averted my eyes from it to get to the next one in the pile. Hidan's. His was at least longer. But it had a lot of things saying about how much he loved me and wasn't going to lose to Deidara. How Kakazu is being a bitch with money even more now and is making sure that he only takes one shower a day instead of his normal 3. But he then said his own words about his declaration on how he will save me…no matter how hard it might be for him and everybody else. It made me smile.
Kakazu…yeah he only wrote a few words. Being, I love you I will save you with there help. Bye. I didn't know if it was because he was in a hurry and doing things or if he didn't want to use a lot of the ink. I smiled and clicked the roof of my mouth at the next one. Itachi's.
Naruto, I miss you, I'm sorry for everything that your being put through, ever since that night. I want to start this off with the largest apology I can give you! You have no idea how stupid I feel for not being able to recognize you…I threw all those memories into the back of my mind after weeks, no, months of suffering. And I know you suffered through it too, and that's one of the reasons I'm sorry. Please continue to read this and don't hate me afterwards because I wasn't able to tell you this myself before you…left. I really only remembered about a few days before we left for Christmas and I was planning on telling you once I got back(even though Pein would have my throat) but then…the stuff happened.
Naru-Chan I was the one driving the car that hit your mom. The breaks were cut, which I suspect was because Uchiha corp. was upset that I left them. I regretted it and actually asked the judge to put me behind bars, but I was, one, innocent beyond believe, plus I was too young. I love you and now I am trying my best to take you back and coddle you like hell! I'm going to be more over protective than Pein and Konan and that's saying something! I love you, and I'm going to do everything I can to get you back…I just hope you won't hate me. I love you, don't forget that.
Itachi
I stared at the letter…re-read it three times. Then I pinched myself, and then re-read it again. So…Itachi was the one to kill her? Well…it wasn't murder and it was an accident but that accident did kill her…could I blame him? I don't think I can and I don't think I can hate him either. I shouldn't…no I can't be able to hate Itachi especially after he just…wrote me. And he is trying to save me along with the others…so I can't hate him. What is with the Uchiha's! Why can't I just blame them and hate them! Fucking sh-
And before I could even finish my inner rant I fell out of the tree and landed on my back, causing me to grunt in pain from my spine hitting the ground. I didn't just fall 2 feet. I fell possibly 9 (maybe 10) and the ground might have been a bit soft from the melted snow it was still hard. I bit my lower lip as I tried to stop the throbbing sensation that seemed to spike through my back. I must be thankful that I didn't break my spine (and I would know if I had)
Groaning I frowned and said a soft, "Shit." Before I figured out I still had a fricken piece of paper in my grip. One that didn't fall out of the tree when I did. Tell me again why Tobi placed this in the fucking tree!
Grunting a bit annoyed, still in slight pain I took a dead arm and brought the paper above my head to read what it was. But then I saw that it was from Deidara and sat up a bit too quickly causing me to let out a small squeak of pain. Yep I'm going to be sore for awhile.
I love you.
Deidara
That's it…that's fucking it? In the name of Jashin that's it! He says he loves me, and it makes my heart flutter, but it almost beats just as fast as the other ones. I love you…it doesn't seem to be enough. I know that's all I want to hear, and I know that I'm not selfish but I would think that he would say something more than a simple I love you. Or maybe he decided since he cares so much for me that's all he needs.
"Arrrgh!" I groaned to myself and retook my original place on the ground…meaning I lay my back down again. I felt more comfortable that way, and I didn't care if I got wet or dirty because of it. I love you…I'm not selfish and I will take those three words as much as I can now but…that's all? Not how much he misses me. How much he wants me back…to touch me, to see me. I mean… not that I'm saying he doesn't care about me, and again I say that he is probably as busy as everybody else with this whole thing with my father but…it still hurts me…at least a little. If it was me in his position I would put my whole heart into it. Not just put my whole heart into a solid I love you…like I said, my heart lifted a little bit but it lifted just as much as others.
Looking as far back as I could to see the clock on the back half of the school I looked at it upside down. I just skipped half of the day and just now hitting lunch. I wonder what the teachers are thinking and I wonder if they will tell my dad. Well…Sasuke did say that my dad bribed them (I wouldn't be surprised if he threatened them) maybe they would be too scared to tell him that I skipped. And that I plan on sipping a lot of other classes. Just to be able to see Tobi since he said that it's possible.
I sighed, and then grunted when standing up. Stretching my arms above my head, making me squeak in pain. Yep…I'm going to sore. I put the brown paper bag and the letters into my backpack and walked into the school just in time for the lunch bell to ring
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"And you're sure everything I say you can't tell anyone?" I frowned as I interrogated the therapist. Her name was Shizune and she nodded.
"Everything is just for you to tell me about your feelings. I can only tell someone else if I think it affects your health. As if you could hurt yourself." Oh she's talking about suicide.
I nodded my head, "Well…let me get this out in the open. Everything went downhill when my mom got killed…but when my more worst battles is because I'm gay."
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