I know another new story! I'm sorry, I can't seem to help it right now. I will have updates on all my stories soon. I try to get them out fast for you guys. Thank you for all your continued support. Another angst story, that was going to be a one- shot.

Enjoy.

"Come on, Sam," Penelope said as she pulled her boyfriend towards the restaurant. The last couple of months had been kind of rough for the team, so they decided they would all go out to this fancy restaurant called L'amore and celebrate each other and their accomplishments. Except right now, Penelope and her boyfriend were running late. Something normal for Garcia, but still, she didn't want her team of superheroes having to wait on them.

"We're here, Pumpkin. Let's go and find them." Sam gave her an apologetic look.

They walked into the restaurant to be greeted by the sight of the whole BAU sitting a long linin table, wine in their hands, talking and waiting patiently for their last guests to arrive.

Penelope looked around and groaned. The BAU family was packed tonight. JJ had Will and Henry on the far end of the table next to Reid and his date Marcia, and Rossi next to them with his current flame. Hotch had Jessica and Jack by him, leaving two empty seats across from the one person she wanted to avoid at all costs.

There at the opposite end of the table sat Morgan and his girlfriend Savannah. Nothing had been the same since that night at the FBI's annual holiday party. Yes, they tried to act cordial towards each other, but somehow it fell upon an empty audience. At first the other members of the team would asked what was wrong with them, but soon they gave up trying to pry into the rock that used to be Morgan and Garcia.

Penelope made sure to keep her eyes turned towards the rest of the team as they continued their meal. She was having a good time listening to Reid and his facts about the proper temperature for meat and how you should always go for a pasta choice at a restaurant because even though they have standers there might be that one rouge cook that wants to kill everyone with Ecoli.

Her attention was back to Sam when she heard him clear his throat, "You okay, honey?"

Sam took her hand standing her up. "Pumpkin," he started.

Penelope watched as Sam descended onto one knee. As he spoke, she couldn't register his words. Instead she turned her gaze to look at Morgan, all she could think about was the night they lost their chance, when Morgan decided to break her heart.

"Pretty little thing, what are you doing out here all on your own?" Morgan asked as he made his way out to the balcony after seeing Garcia sneak away.

She turned to face him, a sad look in her eyes. "Everything is fine, Handsome. Nothing to worry your pretty little head about."

"Nu-uh, sweetness. Something is bothering you." He took her hand and pulled her to his chest, "Spill."

"You wouldn't understand, Derek." How could he understand how she was feeling? He never felt undesirable, so how could he? He was Derek Morgan.

He placed his hand under her chin forcing her to look into his eyes. "Try me?"

She sighed and looked down again, stepping out of his arms, "Have you ever thought you were just destined to be alone? Lately, it seems I started on a path that takes me down a road all by myself."

"What are you talking about, Baby Girl?" he asked moving closer to her.

"It's been months after the breakup, and I've tried to get back on the horse, but it's a no go. Men don't find me attractive. I'm the fun flirty friend that they come to for relationship advice, but I'm never the one they come to ask out. I'm afraid I'll end up alone and no one will love me." She looked up at him, tears in her eyes, "I have no family, I have no one. Eventually I will really be all alone."

He stepped into her personal space overcome with the feeling of sadness for her. Men found her attractive. Hell, he found her attractive; she needed to realize that anyone would be lucky to have her, including him.

He placed his hand under her chin again, forcing her once again to look into his eyes. "You will not end up alone, Penelope. You're so beautiful and intelligent, quick witted. I've loved you for years."

They had said I love you many times in the past, but this time. This time it felt different. It was more real and sincere then before, "Derek?"

"I've always loved you," he whispered hovering his lips over hers.

"I've always been in love with you, too," she managed to say before his lips descended the millimeters to hers.

He had kissed tons of women in his life, but none of them compared to kissing Penelope. This kiss ignited every nerve he had in his body, setting it on fire. She was everything he'd ever pictured. As he kissed her, images of her in a white dress, her playing in the back yard with children came into his mind, and then he realized. No matter how much he loved her, he never wanted to marry. He saw what his mother's life was like without his dad, and he could never do that to the one he loved. This was a mistake. A mistake brought on by weakness.

This kiss made her toes curl; she apparently had been kissing toads her whole life, because this kiss surpassed all of them. She felt him pull her body close to his, messing them together, as this one kissed cleaned her of all her worries in her life. Her heart felt so small before he came out to see her and now it felt like it had grown three times its size.

But then she felt him stiffen, and she knew it changed.

She felt him pull out of the kiss. When she opened her eyes she notice his eyes wouldn't meet hers, and then he spoke the words that crushed her soul,

"But," he started still looking away from her. "But we are both strong people, too hard headed, neither one of us would ever back down. You know it's true. We both never back down from a fight and we'd end up constant-"

She had to stop him; her heart couldn't take anymore, as he came up with excuse after excuse on why this was a mistake. Maybe it was her looks, maybe it was her personality, either way- he thought it was a mistake, "Derek, it's okay…"

He finally looked at her and saw the devastation in her eyes, "No, baby-"

She held up her hand to stop him, "I get it. Someone like you isn't meant to be with someone like me." She pulled away from him looking down. "Maybe next time you can say something a little less heart shattering, like frat rules or something…"

She turned on her heels almost sprinting away from him. If she could get into the building she'd be able to mingle into the crowd until she could make her way home.

"Baby Girl, wait!"

She watched Morgan's eyes, the eyes that used to hold love and desire when they looked at her, but this time, this time, they were cold. She had a sharp intake of breath as she watched him completely dismiss what was going on and turn his head back to Savannah as if to carry on a conversation.

She knew. She knew at that moment, they were done. All the times she'd close her eyes and imagine him as she kissed Sam, all the times she'd wonder what he was doing at night. All the times she'd look at him when no one was looking and wish that it should've been them, were all futile.

She had spent so many nights thinking it could have been different. That she just needed to wait him out, he'd come back and save her. Nights spent lying next to same dreaming of Derek, knowing they would've been the perfect storm together. But now, with that one look from him she realized, they we're just her fantasies, not being able to let go of the only man she ever loved. However, he made his feelings perfectly clear. There would never be a them.

She let her eyes fall to Sam. Why fight someone that wanted to love her?

"Yes."

AN: AHHH! So many updates today. I am so sorry guys for spamming with all of them. This will be my last new story (for now) and I will only work on updates. You know when you have something in your head and you have to get it out. That was this. This was going to be a one-shot and yes is was going to end there but my girl evgrrl09 convinced me to keep going, so now this will be a story. Sorry again for all the updates. you all so very much!