Loki sat on the couch quietly for hours. He didn't want to move as it still hurt so much. Erik was off doing something in his lab. He didn't seem to want to be near Loki. There was a knock at the door. Loki looked around. "Erik?"

No response. Loki looked to the door that someone was still knocking at. Does he call them in? Could they be there to hurt him. "Erik!" Loki shouted again.

"Hold your horses!" Erik's voice came from the other room. He came in wiping his hands on a towel. "What are you yelling about now? Couldn't make it to the bathroom by yourself?"

"What? No. Well.. there is someone at the door." Loki pointed. Then he realised he would also like a change but figured he would wait.

"Hello?" Erik opened the door and Phil greeted him.

"Good evening Erik. I have someone here that wants to see someone you have in there." Phil stepped aside and a woman stepped forward and Erik looked at her.

"Oh so this is Loki's girlfriend?" She looked at him and then past him.

"So is he here?" She asked. Loki heard her voice.

"I'm here! Please help!" she pushed past them and ran in to see Loki on the couch in a casts and looking a bit worse for wear.

"Oh Loki! what happened where did they take you?" She hugged him and ran her hands over him.

"I don't know. Some sort of healing place, but they haven't fixed me. I still don't have my magic." Loki was pleased to see her.

"It's ok I will take care of you." She sat beside him holding his hands. "Let's go back to my place."

"Um." Loki looked embarrassed and leaned in to whisper. "I have ..well soiled myself.."

"Oh. Ok. Let's get you cleaned up." She placed her arm around him and helped him stand. "Erik, I just have to get him cleaned up." They walked into the bathroom. Phil walked over to Erik.

"You're right, he seems very subdued."

"I would like to keep in contact. I need to get him to make sense of the information he gave me with the memory stone." Erik rubbed his head. "I've had all these wonderful ideas but I can't keep up with them in writing them down or making things."

"You look tiered." Phil removed his glasses.

"But I feel energised." Erik looked down the hall. "You should go see for yourself of what Loki is like."

"I know, I have been watching him on surveillance. Her apartment is now fully wired, so we will observe him from there."

Loki sat down on the floor. He held his head and moaned softly.

"Loki? what's wrong?" he shook his head and didn't verbally respond. He wouldn't stand when she pulled his arm. "Come on, stand up." Something about him seemed childlike or autistic. Loki shook and was confused by his surroundings.

"Who are you?" he said timid.

"Loki, don't you recognise me?" she crouched down and gently touched his face. He pulled away at first.

"Who is Loki?"

"That's your name. Do you not remember?" She brushed his hair gently and kissed his forehead. He then relaxed as she seemed familiar. He smiled a bit.

"I want to go home." Something seemed off.

"Loki, where is home?" he looked confused like he couldn't quantify it.

"I don't know!" he burst into tears. She held him close. "I can't remember."

"It's ok. Do you remember this place?" she showed him a picture on her phone of the apartment. He took her hand holding the phone and stared at it for a bit.

"Sort of."

"Do you remember Asgard?"

"What's that?"

"That was your home before you came to live with me." She seemed worried. He shook his head. She helped him to his feet. He was unsteady at walking. She found she really had to take it slow. Erik and Phil watched as they made their way out.

"Is everything alright?" Phil asked her.

"I don't think so. He seems to be losing memories more and more. He doesn't remember Asgard and wasn't totally sure of his name." Erik looked at Phil.

"It could have been delay of the mind gem." Erik noted. She sat Loki down on the couch and he looked down at his injuries.

"So what happened to me?" Loki held up his arm.

"Do you not remember?" Phil sat down on the coffee table in front of him. Erik look closely at him too. "Maybe his mind is trying to forget all the bad things."

"Yes." Erik agreed. "Sort of a defence mechanism for the pain."

"So, what happened to me?" Loki seemed to get more confident and aggressive.

"Relax Loki, you are still recovering." Phil held up his hands.

"From what? Why won't you people give me a straight answer?" Loki felt a strange energy in him. his hands started to glow. She looked down and smiled. His magic was returning. Loki went to raise his hand then passed out.

"Well that was weird." Erik stated the obvious. She moved in and helped him sit up and she brushed his hair till he came around.

"Loki? are you ok?"

"I'm fine. Oh Agent Coulson you still here? Thanks for releasing her. I may not decide to kill you." Loki groaned as he got up on the couch.

"Loki you remember who you are?" She held him close.

"of course I do? Why are you acting all weird?"

"Do you remember Asgard?" She held his cheeks and looked in his eyes.

"that's a dumb question, I lived there for a 1000 years, pretty sure I remember my home." Loki held his ribs as he stood slowly. "So are we getting out of here or what?"

Everyone looked at each other and Loki shook his head. "What? What are you mortals looking at?"

"You just blacked out but you didn't know all of your memories." Erik looked curious. "You didn't know where you lived or your name."

"What exactly happened?" Loki turned to her.

"Your hands stared glowing and you fainted." She smiled. "I think your magic is returning." Loki smiled wickedly. He held up his hand but nothing. He clenched his fists.

"Damn it!" he shouted. "Why can I feel my sedir?" He then grew eerily quiet and then took her hand. "Come on I need to get out of here. Were going back to your apartment." She eagerly took his hand and helped him out the door.

Loki sat meditating on her bed. She came in to watch him. he didn't move then he scowled. "Shit!"

"What?" she asked.

"I think I have worked out how to get my life back."

"But that's good right?" she sat next to him and held him close.

"Yes and no." He looked to her then kissed her cheek. She nuzzled his neck.

"What is the 'no' that has you so concerned?" she began to rub her hands over his back and on over his thighs. He turned and grabbed her wrists tightly.

"This is serious woman. No time for friskiness." He sighed she didn't know. "Look, I need a rest. I have to shut down and put myself into a baser life to regenerate and heal."

"So that's why you forgot who you were but your magic was growing?"

"Yes, I have always had natural ability due to being Jotun. The catch is I will be useless but powerful till I'm healed." Loki looked for a yes or no. "I need to know if you will not abandon me when I don't know who I am. If I break my memories to heal, I may not be able to wake up and remember who I am fully till I am restored."

"That's Ok, I'll be here."

"That's not my concern. Truth is, it could be weeks or years before I am who I should be. I have a lot of healing to do and if I want my magic at full strength... I may become too much to handle. I don't know how I will act. I don't even know if I will recognise you." Loki felt concerned.

"That you may kill me out of an instinct of self preservation?" She put it out there. He took her hand.

"yes. Essentially."

"Ok. Where do we start?" she held his hands firmly. He smiled and then kissed her again. Then they started touching and tugging at each other's cloths. The kissing became more passionate and deep. She broke off long enough to yank his t-shirt over his head. He quickly grabbed her hair and they fell to the bed still kissing, now interlocking their legs.

He pushed his forehead to hers and the both caught their breath. "Are you sure?" Loki asked as he held her arms.

"I love you, no matter what." He smiled.

"Ok, then I will leave soon." He then pulled off her shirt and began to kiss and fondle her bosom. She rolled on top of him and grinded her hips down. She felt his growing erection under his cloths. He chuckled and he then swiftly flipped her on her back. He pulled off her pants and then moved up between her. He was getting close to cuming. He paused with his face burring in her chest. She felt his breath on her skin. He tried to calm himself.

She stroked his hair. "Loki, it ok, you don't have to feel obligated. I will love you, even if you are not yet ready to have sex again." She knew he was still hurt and probably worried about his last encounter with SHIELD.

"Loki?" he lay there quiet. His breath now calm and small. He was asleep. She seemed shocked. She reached down and held the back of his neck and rolled him on to his back. She move over and pulled the sheet over them. He nuzzled up to her and began to push his face against her breast. She put her arms around him.

He slowly opened his eyes. He looked up at her with a weak smile. "Hi." She said. He smiled and then resumed hugging her. She brushed his hair and he moaned softly. "Loki, are you ok?"

"I'm Loki."

"Yes?" she was not sure of his statement.

"Am I a good boy, mother?" he looked up at her.

"I am not your mother. I am your lover." She looked down to him. "Do you remember anything? Do you remember the fight in New York with the aliens? SHIELD?"

"What is SHIELD?" Loki rolled on to his back and she sat up . he reached over and began to look at her naked body with curiosity. She knew he had begun to transition. She put her arms over him.

"Doesn't matter. Let's get some rest." She kissed his head and they both got closer under the sheets.

It has been a few days and Loki's casts have finally come off. he is still unsteady on his feet but keen to wonder. He found it easier to crawl around as his leg couldn't fully support him standing on his own.

She came into the lounge and sat down on the couch. Loki pulled himself up and then moved close to her. She handed him something to drink. He downed it pretty quick. He coughed a bit from drinking too fast and she patted his back.

"Loki, I'm going to have some friends over later, are you going to behave?"

"I'm good, you don't hate me do you?" Loki seemed concerned.

"No darling, I'm just worried about you." she kissed his forehead. "You can go to bed and sleep if you want." She helped him to his feet and walk him to the bedroom. He sat down on the bed and crawled under the sheets.

The door bell rang. "Now darling, just stay in bed and I will be with you soon ok?" he nodded and she went out to the lounge.

Loki sat up in the bed. He could hear them all talking in the other room. There was music and laughter. He climbed down and began to crawl down the hall. He sat on hands and knees looking at them intrigued. On lady screamed as she was startled. "Oh my who are you!"

Loki looked scared and sat back. "It's ok, this is Loki. he had a mental and physical injury and now I'm helping him out till he feels better." She squatted down to him and made him feel better.

"Loki? is this the guy you were telling us about and the hot sex?" they stood around staring at him. making him self-conscious. "So what happened to him?"

"he just needs time to heal. I don't want to get into it. We are trying to help him forget." Loki crawled over to the table and saw there was food laid out on platters. He began to put his fingers in and get a handful of bits and shove them in his mouth.

He then spat some out. "Yuk." He wiped his mouth.

"Loki. please don't do that."

"I'm hungry." Loki looked at the other food and went to touch it when she stopped him.

"No Loki. I will make you something in a minute." She helped him up to sit in the couch.

"I want to eat now." He demanded. She leant down to him to try and calm him.

"Darling, please be good. If you just wait, I will give you an extra long hug for being good." She stroked his hair and he nodded. She went into the kitchen and made him a sandwich. She placed it down in front of him and he just looked at it. He then looked up at all the women she was entertaining.

"No." He said softly.

"No?" she looked down at it. "You don't want it?" he shook his head. And a single tear rolled down his face.

"I don't feel good." He held his stomach. "I hurt." She leaned down and lifted up his t-shirt. His bruises were fading nearly all disappeared.

"What's wrong darling?" he shook his head and then grabbed onto her.

"I'm sorry. I couldn't help it." He softly whispered. She helped him to his feet and he held her tight so as not to fall. She helped him back to the bedroom. She lay him down on the bed and slipped off his pants. She could tell he had used his diaper as it was now hard and swollen. He reached down to cup himself and she moved his hands away.

"Relax Loki, I will get you all cleaned up." She grabbed out a new nappy and cleaning gear. She carefully slipped off the dirty nappy and tossed it in the bin. She took the wet wipes and began to clean him off. he giggled a bit when it touched his sensitive skin. She powdered him and slipped on a clean nappy.

He rubbed himself through his nappy. He felt good. She helped him sit up. "Now I'm going back to the party. You stay here and get some rest. I will bring in your food and drink, ok?" he nodded and crawled into bed and pulled the sheet over himself.

She stood chatting to her friends for a short while before one just had to ask. "So what is wrong with him?"

"He's recovering from a few broken bones."

"You know that's not what I asked." Her blond friend pressed. Nudging her shoulder.

"Loki suffered a lot of injuries including to his head. He barely remembers his name. He can't be left alone, he can't fend for himself." She seemed worried. "he gets angry and frustrated when he can't do anything."

They all turned and saw Loki sitting on the floor in just his t-shirt and nappy. She was embarrassed for him and went to his side. "Darling what's wrong? I told you to stay in bed." Loki reached down and held himself.

"I'm hard." She blushed and moved his hand off himself. "I want to cum."

"Not now darling." She tried to direct him to go to his room. He then slipped one hand down inside and began to rub himself. "sweetie you should go back to your room if you're going to play with yourself."

"I want you to do it." He begged. He grabbed her hand and pulled open part of his nappy, letting his cock spring out. He grabbed her wrist tight and rubbed in against him. she pulled back managing to get her hand free.

"you are not going to let up are you?" he smiled seductively and pulled off his nappy and sat on it open under him. he began to tug himself. She pushed him on to his hands and knees. She reached under him and pulled him hard and quick. He moaned loudly and steadied himself as she vigourisly pulled him.

He panted as she squeezed his head and he moaned loud. He lowered his hips as he spread his knees apart and she reached under and tugged his balls hard. He cried out as he came hard. He shot his sticky rope into the open nappy and she let him go. he sat down in the nappy and took a hold of his cock and groaned loudly as he began to piss into his diaper.

When he was done, she fixed his nappy and then smacked his ass. "Loki don't do that again." He looked at her with sad eyes and a pout. "Don't pull that look on me." She yanked his arms. "get up and go to bed. You have caused enough trouble for one day."

The women stood around shocked. Most walked over to make a little group and were discussing it. She looked over to see them gossiping. Loki was reluctant to leave. "Loki you are very bad. I will have to punish you for that." She pulled Loki to his feet and escorted him to the bed room.

"I don't want to. I want to be with you." he protested.

"Loki, you must obey me. You are being a naughty child." She smacked the back of his thighs.

"Ow!" he tried to move away as she smacked him again. "I'm sorry!"

"Are you going to be a good boy?"

"Yes." Loki wiped his eyes and sniffed.

"Now pop into bed. I will let you come out of your room later." Loki then burst into tears. He got up to follow her out of the room. "Loki I said go to bed."

"I don't want to. Please don't hate me!" She turned and held him.

"I don't hate you darling. I just want you to behave." She kissed his cheek.

"But you smacked me."

"You were being childish in front of my friends." She took his hands and walked him back towards the bed.

"Are you ashamed of me?" Loki confronted her.

"No darling, but I just didn't want them to see this side of you. its none of their business." She rubbed his arm.

"I want you to love me even if I'm not well." She sensed that he was being his old self in some ways. His hand was shaking and he gripped her shoulder. "Please."

"Loki, go put some pants on and you can come out and sit with me. But you must promise to be quiet and obey me." He hugged her and then stumbled to his bed. She saw him struggle. She helped him put his pants on. He walked out holding her hands tightly. She sat him down and then kissed his head.

"Guys, Loki is just feeling a bit stressed. He wants to sit near me. Please be patient with him." She sat next to him and he put his arms around her. Loki then put his leg over her lap and his other behind her back.

"I'm thirsty." He whispered to her.

"Loki, you are going to have to let me go if you want me to get up and get you one." He gripped her sleeve and knelt on the couch next to her. She pried his hands off. "Just sit here and I will just get you one." She got up and then headed to the kitchen. The other women just stared at him. They began to whisper to each other about him. he sat looking at the food.

Loki then put his hands down his pants and began to play with himself. The women looked at him in disgust. Loki then slipped one hand out and reached over and grabbed a cake. He shoved it in and smiled as he ate. She came back with his drink.

"Loki did you just shove that whole piece of cake in your mouth?"

"Mmmhum, it was good." He said with his mouth full. She handed him his drink. He looked at it and didn't take it. "I don't want that."

"You wanted a drink and this was the flavour you liked yesterday. What's wrong with it?" She looked down at the cup then to him. he shrugged his shoulders. "No Loki."

"But I will be good. Please!"

"I will compromise." She put down the glass and went back to the kitchen. He sat and put his hands on a party pie and then quickly ate it. He smiled and then ate another. He began to put his fingers in the dip and licked his fingers then went to put them back when one of the women shouted at him.

"Stop it you disgusting pig!" Loki looked confused.

"Just wanted to taste." He looked upset.

"You have a problem. I can't believe you don't even know how to use a toilet! What is wrong with you?"

"Wrong with me? There is nothing wrong with me!" Loki stood up as best he could. angry. He lunged at the woman and was about to grab her. She came back from the kitchen and stopped Loki. "Loki what are you up to?"

"They yelled at me, I just wanted some food." He grabbed her shirt. She looked to her friends.

"What did he do?"

"He was putting his hands down his pants then touching the food with them." She turned to Loki and smacked him.

"You know that is not polite. I warned you to be good."

"I'm sorry. I didn't know." He slowly climbed off the couch and tried to make it to his bedroom. He stumbled and she grabbed him.

"Loki, sit down. Look at me. Did you really not think that was wrong?" he shook his head and wiped his eyes. "Darling, you must have clean hands when you touch food. If you touch yourself then you need to wash your hands."

"I don't know why. Am I dirty?" Loki looked down at his hands.

"Ok, look, you know how your nappy smells from when you use it? Well you would like to eat that would you?" She explained.

"No, it's yucky." Loki scrunched up his nose.

"So you understand why you shouldn't do that?"

"Yes. Can I be with you?" Loki tugged at her then went to get close.

"No. You will go to your room and you can't come out till I say." Loki hung his head. She returned to the party and started to pick up the trays. "Sorry about that. What did he touch?"

"Pretty much all of it." She carried the plates away and put them in the kitchen. "Look he seems pretty fucked up. He's wearing a nappy, not to mention using it."

"I told you he is suffering, he just need time to heal." She was positive Loki would get better.

"I don't think he will improve. He has the mental capacity of a child. He was going to attack us. He should be in a mental hospital."

"How dare you!" she was pissed off now. Loki sat at the door to his room and listened to the fight. "He can't help it. Loki needs help and he asked me to be there for him before his mind went. I love him dearly and I know when he is better he will be able to tell me he loves me too."

"I think you are delusional. The man you fell in love with is not in there. There is just some brain dead sex pest."

"You all need to leave. Now!" she screamed them. They began to leave the apartment. Loki slowly crawled up behind her and took her hand. She snatched it out of his grasp and ignored him. she began to tidy up after they left. Loki slumped down to the floor and began to wail. She turned to see him upset.

"I'm sorry darling." She went to him and hugged him. "You are not yet ready to be with people I guess." She kissed his cheek and he calmed down a bit.

"Nobody wants me!"

"I want you darling. You are my beautiful little Loki."

"I want to be better but I can't help what I do!" He sat back and looked down at himself. She sat next to him on the floor.

"Loki, you will get better." She kissed him softly. "I know you will."