90. New Light
377 Words
Satsuki looked out to the changing scenery rushing by and to her own faint reflection on the bus window. She had been excited when they had been driving to the location, but she had never expected the trip to be so eventful. Now, as they were driving back to Tokyo, her mood was sombre. Himeko, who had first sat next to her, had given up trying to talk to her as it was clear the young woman wasn't listening, and had moved to sit with Kouji instead.
Satsuki sighed, leaning her chin to the hand. She still couldn't believe she had gone and spilled her guts to Narita. He had cornered her and demanded her to answer, so she had, and once she had started the words didn't stop until she had truly laid bare all her pain and insecurity before him.
She had expected him to laugh or scoff at her but he had done neither. He had been so sweet, gentle and comforting with her and that both made her heart flutter and utterly baffled her. She would never have imagined that Narita Ken, the smooth and charismatic player could be so tender. There had been no ulterior sexual motives behind his actions; he had been kind and understanding. He had chosen his words so carefully - as if he had been mindful of the wounds she had showed him in the heat of the moment.
And for the first time, she accepted that Narita Ken truly was attracted to her. For the first time, she was willing to consider that he was serious about her. That he wanted her. Her, and not just her body. It was still a dizzying thought… But he had said he wanted to protect her. The notion made the butterflies come alive in the pit of her stomach.
She was still confused. She was still having mixed feelings. She was still trying to figure out Narita Ken.
But one thing was sure.
She had some serious introspection to do. She needed to get a hold of herself first. She needed to work things out, and to determine what she wanted.
She needed to figure out if she was ready to take a step forward and leave her past behind.