So. Here we are with the last chapter. But first I'd like to say a few words.

As some of you may or may not know 2015 have been a really rough year for me. Now when there's only a couple of things left I look back on everything that happened and can't believe I got through everything.

But I did get through everything. But certainly not on my own. During these times I have learnt who will be there and who to keep close. I will be forever grateful for each and every one who has been there. But as you also may know, people aren't it all…

Fanfiction has always been there for me and so have all of you. Even if it was just a short review or a favorite mark or another follower you have all helped me to stand up yet another day. Taken yet another step and I just wanted to take this last A/N for this story to tell you how grateful I am.

So to you, yes, you who's reading this. Thank you, from the very bottom of my heart. Thank you.

So, here are the answers to reviews

Gleekforever12345: Even though I forgot the answer in the last chapter I am so happy you liked the one with Finn and Carole. I love their relationship. I'm glad you liked chapter Y too and I hope you like this one. Thank you for your continued support through this story.

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This is like a sequel to chapter H for hospital. If you don't remember what happened in that I suggest you go back and read it before reading this. It's still told from Millie's point of view.

Z is for Zzzz

I looked around the hospital room where Marley laid sleeping in the bed right next to me holding my hand, Tanisha was tiredly leaning against the wall by Jake's bed and Jake had too fallen asleep as well as Carole who sat leaning against some cupboards on the other side of the room. And I wouldn't have known this was soon about to change.

"Ah." I had been somewhere in between sleeping and awake state when Jake moaned and I flinched. "AH" When Jake's moan I looked up. And I was barely aware of the fact that Carole had woken up too and quickly moved across the floor to Jake's bed. And that while I saw that Jake was grimacing badly, it looked as he was barely able to breathe and despite the drain put into his side and lung. He was moving around and from side to side.

I looked to Carole to alert her of what was going on but she was already pushing the blanket I had draped over her off and soon got onto her feet and hurried over to us. She ripped the blanket away from Jake and pulled the hospital gown he was wearing up to reveal a big bruise a bit below the drain put into the side of his chest. And she was only still for a few seconds before she turned to me again.

"I'm pretty sure what have happened…" The way Carole seemed stressed scared me. "…I'll go get a doctor and he'll know the best thing to treat this." She turned and hurried out of the room. Different from just a minute ago the room and the hospital overall seemed so loud. The monitor attached wherever on Jake was beeping way too fast. Jake was whimpering and moaning. Tanisha tried to calm him down with a panicked tone in her voice and Marley was as good as hyperventilating sitting looking from Jake to me, back to Jake and back to me what seemed like three times every second.

Before I knew it they had put a mask over Jake's nose and mouth in an OR room stating surgery would be the best option. They said something about that it would smell like garlic to him and someone was wondering what I and Tanisha were still doing there. The fact that he had asked about only us two had me remembering Marley. And it didn't take anyone or anything for me to turn around and get out the door to quickly localize where she was.

"Jake's sleeping now." I sat down on a bench right by where she sat in that wheelchair in the hallway. "They know what's happening. They're going to fix it up and he's going to be just fine…." I took her hand and Marley bit her lip fighting not to cry. "It's okay Marley." I looked up when a nurse came out into the hallway leading Tanisha whose cheeks were soaked with salt tears. And for a moment I really knew I needed someone else there.

For a split second I wanted Peter here. But Marley's dad- who still was one of my dearest friends lived on the other side of the USA and didn't have any idea of what was happening. Phones couldn't be used in this part of the hospital not to disturb the machines. And it was just me to keep somewhat calm and sane- not that I could blame them but I just wished I wouldn't have been alone to try and help them in their own miseries.

"Hey guys." For a moment I had been so far gone into my own loneliness while trying to support my friend and my daughter so badly I hadn't noticed Carole had come through the hallway and sat down by us. "Through that ultrasound we just took and that happening it seems like Jake's spleen ruptured in the crash." Tanisha's eyes grew wide. "It's okay, it's okay. They're removing it now and after this surgery is done he should be just fine." Carole patted on Tanisha's knee. "I would like to stay here with you but I need to get back to the ER. Try and get some sleep. It will make the time go by faster. You know where to find me if I'm needed." With that she stood up and left. And despite the still usual sounds of a hospital left the hallway unnaturally silent.

I wish I could have fallen asleep. Or more likely that Marley and Tanisha could have fallen asleep. Not because I wanted a break, but because it would be more human on them. Tanisha shifted in between sitting down fingering with her shirt or walking back and forth in the hallway. Either way of what she was doing she never stopped breathing heavily and sniveling and wiping tears. And while she was doing so Marley was quietly babbling song lyrics so quietly I wouldn't have been able to hear it if I hadn't been sitting so close- it was like her. And even if it maybe couldn't do so right now, I knew it would calm her down so to the point she could actually breathe even if not take her mind of things right now.

"Mrs. Rose." He croaked the first thing he did and in that recovery room Tanisha and Marley finally breathed out when he spoke, even if so without opening his eyes.. "I'm sorry about your car. I promise I'll pay you back every penny for it."

"Jake." I said as sternly as I could with my voice shaking. "I don't care about the damn car. I care about you and as long as you and Marley are alright then I don't need anything else. And I don't want to hear another word about paying me back." Jake still weakly looked up at me but closed his eyes when his mum put the oxygen mask back over his nose and mouth and when he couldn't speak anymore he weakly held his hand up and took Marley's.

Holding onto each other's hands Marley and Jake's hears and touch spoke a language neither I nor Tanisha could hear or understand. Tanisha had been stroking her son's cheek on the other side from me and Marley but stopped doing so and moved her hands over to the metal railing around the bed and left Marley and Jake by themselves to speak their own language of their love and hearts.

Despite the usual hospital sounds of alarms sounding loud and people running around, someone crying loudly and a child screaming bloody murder outside of this room's walls the place seemed to have gone way too silent. And for a short while I could hear my own heart beating, pumping in my ears.

"I'll go home now. Shift's over." Carole had come in and she was pulling her jacket on while speaking. "I don't have any shifts for another few days so can you keep me updated about Jake and Marley- how they're doing?" I nodded. "Thanks…" She pulled a deep breath- something in between a sigh and a yawn. "Just… well… goodnight." She took her bag, threw the shoulder strap over one shoulder and turned towards the door.

"Carole." I interrupted her and she turned and looked to me. "Remember what I said earlier! If there is anything you need- anything at all. Just call or show up and I'll be right there." She nodded with a grateful look in her eyes. But didn't respond verbally before she turned again and when the door closed after her, disappeared out of my sight.

I looked around again. Right before Carole had come in I had been so far gone into my own thoughts I had no idea how much time had passed. As I did, hearing the sounds from all of those damn hospital machines with drains and oxygen masks and monitors a picture of Jack lying in my arms wrapped in a blanket, all cold and still flashed for my eyes. This wasn't Jackie, this wasn't that time- this was Jake, and Marley… and this was now!

Jake had once again fallen asleep on that hospital bunk. Tanisha had too, lying so close she would for certain be able to feel his breath if he just turned his head a little bit. I was on my way to lean back in the chair I sat in and try to sleep myself. But looking to Marley there wasn't a doubt she was awake- and crying, and as her mum I wouldn't have been able to leave it if I wanted to.

"Hey." I said softly and reached out to take her hand. "It's alright sweetheart. You will be okay. Jake will be okay. Everything's okay. I know this still feels so overwhelming and crushing but… it's alright. And it's alright to cry and just let it all out."

Marley silent. But I knew way too well how the thoughts were spinning in her head. How they were so loud that I should have been able to hear them. And I wished I could have helped her. Wished that I could have made her speak. Wished that I could turn back time and keep this from happening all along. Wished that I could just make it better, for everybody. But mostly for my daughter.

"Marley, sweetheart." I rubbed her hand with my thumb. "It's alright, you can talk to me…. I won't leave."

"You won't leave…" Marley whimpered. "But mum…" I could almost hear those walls falling as she started speaking. "…What if I fall asleep and then… when I wake up you're gone, and Jake's gone and…"

"We won't be gone." I assured here. "You just fall asleep and when you wake up we'll all be right here. And while you sleep we'll all be right here with you… No one's going to leave. No one will be gone!"

I tried to pull her close but she shook me off and remained leaning against Jake's bed. The way that Marley looked so tiny and fragile and lonely where she sat still surrounded by all of us reminded me of something. From when she was little, a poem- we were reading it every night before Marley's bedtime. Or rather- I would read it while she dreamed away. One about wishing to never be alone… or something like that!

"Do you remember the prayer I used to read to you when you were a baby? The one that I said that you'd be old enough to say along with me. Then when you were you told me that you didn't want to change the routine when I read it, and you dreamed about fairies or singing on a stage or whatever was going on in your little head at the moment. And you- whether you believed in God or not you always imagined someone there. Someone bigger than all of this…. And when you were down or I was down you'd tell me that he would make it all better along his plans. Because he had plans. He always did and I do not want to stop babbling now- but do you remember?" Marley nodded tiredly.

"Can you say that prayer now?"

It was barely a whisper. Only just strong enough for me to hear it. But I had already known she had wanted me to- she always did when she was little and… for a moment I looked to Marley and saw that little girl. As she had used to lay her head down on the pillow and squeeze her stuffed raccoon tight she now laid her head down onto the soft mattress beneath Jake and held tightly onto his hand. And before I whispered that old children's prayer I tenderly stroke a tress of hair away from her eyes as she closed them to fall asleep.

"Now I lay me down to sleep…"

So, that's it. That's the end. I hope you liked this story, I hope you liked the ending. Thank you for reading and thank you for your support throughout the story. See ya!

The ending is according to the beliefs that I have. If you don't like it or are offended by it remember that one- you don't have to read and two- I am in no way trying to shove my down beliefs down your throat. Okay? Great!

Random fact

I started this story because I wanted an excuse to write sickfics more than a chapter long. Because I loved writing sickfics. Now I'm just sliiiiightly sick and tired of writing those. I'm most likely going to write more sickfics in the future but for now I think I've had enough.

As an extra little fact, I counted and Carole is with this in seventeen of the chapters. Only briefly in the G- chapter but still she has been in seventeen chapters. Which is… kind of awesome if you ask me since I know Carole. So I hope you like her too.