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Natalie:
I walk into John's hotel room and see my brother here. I have no idea why he's here but it's time for him to leave. I have a lot of things to talk to John about and a lot of things to say; things I don't' want my brother to hear or know. "Jay," I say.
"Natalie," he says. "I'm leaving."
"Thank-you," I say as I watch him walk to the door.
"Bye, John. Bye, Nat," he says.
"Bye," John and I say in unison. Jay walks out the door and John and I just stand looking at one another.
"So," he says.
"So," I say.
"That was a pretty interesting wedding huh?" he asks. I don't know if he's trying to be funny or what. I don't find it funny at all.
"Not funny, John," I say as I sit down on the couch in his room.
"Okay," he says. "You're right it isn't funny. I'm just nervous," he says as he sits down next to me.
"Nervous about what, John?" I ask. I have no idea what he has to be nervous about. If anyone has anything to be nervous about it's me. I'm the one that has to be nervous.
"Of what you're going to say to me," he says. "Look, Nat, I'm sorry for the way things were handled at your wedding."
"You should be," I say. "It was embarrassing not only for me but for Max. You embarrassed yourself as well. John, it was ridiculous."
"But, Nat, I had to stop you from doing something you would have regretted the rest of your life. Max is not good enough for you. He abused you and I can't stand back and watch him hurt you over and over again. You can say that he changed but once an abuser always an abuser, Nat. He was very good at what he did. He told you everything that you wanted to hear. I had to stop it."
"I know," I say. "You're right, John. He didn't change. I knew he didn't change when he got upset when Angelina fell. I knew he didn't change when I saw the anger in his eyes when you and Jay stood up. He didn't change. You're right. He was just telling me everything I wanted to hear and I feel stupid for falling for his lies."
"Nat, you're not stupid. And you shouldn't feel stupid. He's just really good at lying. He had a lot of people fooled. Do not feel stupid for falling for his act," he says. He can say whatever he wants but I do still feel stupid for believing Max. I never should have trusted him again but it was the fact John left me that I chose Max. "All right?"
"All right," I say. "I didn't love him," I say.
"Then why did you agree to marry him, Nat?"
"Because I figured since you and Ashley were having a baby you were going to just be with her so I agreed to marry Max."
"Nat, I am sorry. I was never going to stay with Ashley forever. I just wanted to be there with her through the pregnancy and then get a divorce," he says. "I couldn't give her stress while she was pregnant but then I found out the truth."
"The truth?" I ask.
"The truth that she wasn't really pregnant. It was a lie so that she could keep me. That's when I came back for you."
"So she was lying?"
"Yes, Natalie. I meant what I said to you yesterday at the wedding. I love you. I never stopped loving you. And I will never stop loving you."
His words melt my heart. I love him so much. He is the sweetest guy I have ever met. "I'm sorry that I lied to you, John. I'm sorry that I didn't tell you right away that I was pregnant. I'm sorry."
"Why did you lie? Did you not learn anything from the last time?"
He's right. I should have learned my lesson the first time. I should have known better than to lie to him. I should have told him the truth. "Because I wanted you to be happy with Ashley. She was your wife and I was just the woman that slept with her husband. I didn't want to be a homewrecker."
"You know I would have chosen you over her any day. If you would have told me I would have been on the first plane back to Hershey and have signed my divorce papers. I would have been there. I would have been here from the first month. I would never be happy with Ashley and you know that. I am happy with you," he says. "You make me happy. Angelina makes me happy and that baby makes me happy. Being with you makes me happy. Ever since I have seen you again in April and everything that has happened in the last months I am the happiest I have been in a long time."
"I know I should have told you and I am sorry that I didn't," I say. "I am truly sorry, John."
"It's okay, Natalie, we still have time. I can be here for you now," he says.
"You still want to be here?" I ask.
"Yes, Nat, I do. I am going to be here. That is my baby," he says as he touches my stomach. "I'm always going to be here if you let me."
"I want you to be here, John," I say. "I love you. I never stopped loving you. I will always love you. I have been thinking and talking to my mom the last few hours. You are an amazing guy, John. You're a great father and you were a great boyfriend. I missed having you in my life for the last 8 years. I have. It has really sucked without you. I never should have given you up, John. I never should have left that night. I should have never let you leave. I should have handled everything differently but I didn't. I can sit here and say I wish I did this and I wish I did that but that isn't going to change anything that happened. I did let you leave, I allowed myself to leave and I never told you about Angelina. It is what happened. It is our past but I will not continue to live my life without you. I can't live my life without you. This is my second chance to do things right and I want things to be right, John. I don't want to be the woman sleeping with a married man or the woman that lies about being pregnant. I want to be with the man that I truly love and be a family. That's what I want, John. I want you. I want to be with you," I say. It is all true. This is my chance at a second chance. I'm going to take it. I want things to be right with us. I want to love him and be a family with him. Things happened for a reason. I got pregnant again by John for a reason. It's how it is supposed to be. I have to believe that.
"It's not your fault. I shouldn't have left," he says, "but you're right. We can't change our past but we can change our present and we can shape our future. I want a future."
"What do you see in your future?" I ask.
"You, Angelina, the baby and me," he says. "Us.. family."
"Me too," I say with a smile.
"Good," he says with that heart melting smile. "So Natalie, do you want to give us a second chance?"
"Absolutely," I say. "Absolutely."
"Good," he says, "because I love you."
"I love you too," I say with a smile before he kisses my lips softly.
"So," he says. "We're moving to New York?"
"That's the plan," I say with a smile.
"Okay," he says. "and what about that baby? Is it a girl or a boy?"
"We'll find out in a few days," I say.
"Good," he says. "I can't wait to find out."
"John," I say, "what about Ashley?"
"We're obviously divorcing and things might be a little tough for a while but we will manage," he says.
"Okay," I say.
"And Max?"
"He's gone," I say. "You and me can finally be happy."
"Good," he says before kissing my lips once again.
*A/N: So what did you think? Please review and thank-you for reading.
