Chapter 11
Roman stood facing the mirror in the hotel bathroom observing the red mark on his left breast. It was oblong in shape and stood out prominently against his skin. He hoped Seth didn't notice it. Then an image of Seth's own mark flashed through his head. The mark that Dean had left on him looked eerily similar to Seth's insect bite. A thought came to Roman that made his blood run cold. Suppose that mark was from Dean? No, it couldn't. Dean couldn't possibly be that devious. He was certain that Dean could be a lot of things but he could never actually stoop so low, could he? And Seth? Seth was crazy about him. He was certain that Seth was in love with him even though he had never said it. Roman shook his head as he turned off the bathroom light. Seth had never given him a reason not to trust him. Just because he craved Dean's touch so much that he allowed him to fuck him in an arena, didn't mean that Seth was the same way.
He observed them as he entered the bedroom. Dean was lying down on his back with his eyes closed with his headphones over his ears. Seth was on the other bed playing a game on his phone. Nothing. Then again, Dean and him weren't exactly holding hands and whispering in each other's ears but that didn't stop them from blowing each other.
Roman slid into bed next to Seth who immediately put his phone down on the nightstand that was besides the bed. Seth brought one hand around his neck and pulled his head down to his lips. This bold move surprised Roman. Their room wasn't as dark as the previous room in Colorado. Anyone could see what their outlined forms were doing if they looked in their direction. Roman knew that Dean knew about him and Seth but did Seth know that Dean knew about them? He soon forgot that train of thought as he felt his boyfriend's tongue pierce his lips. Reigns pulled Seth up against his body as he returned his kiss. He didn't care right now, all he wanted to do right now was to forget about everything and concentrate on kissing Seth.
Dean watched as Roman and Seth became deeply entwined with each other's bodies as they continued to kiss. He watched them for a few moments before he turned over on his side with his back to them. He remembered when he first suspected that Reigns and Rollins were falling for each other.
After the first night that Seth had spent in Reigns bed, Dean didn't think anything much about it. Seth had lost a close childhood friend and he was emotionally wrecked. He understood Seth's need to be close to someone at that time. But as the weeks wore on Dean notice Seth relying on Roman more for little things. Which colour shirt should he get? Should he do ten reps or eight at the gym. Little insignificant things that Dean supposed in the grand scheme of things didn't matter. People normally do seek the opinion of friends when doing stuff. But Dean noticed how Seth's fingers might linger a few seconds too long on Roman's arm when he asked a question or how Seth would look at Roman when he was doing something else. It was these little things that nagged at Dean whenever he saw them interact. Then whenever Seth had a particularly hard day he would use it as a reason to share Roman's bed if they were on the road that night. Dean watched as Seth's feelings for Roman grew but he said nothing. What could he say anyway? He wasn't against it and in his own way he found it amusing.
Dean glanced over shoulder and saw that the makeout session had ended and that Seth's head was resting on Roman's shoulder as they both were sound asleep. Dean turned back around and continued with his memories. Watching Roman unwittingly fall for Seth was amusing in its own right as well. He wasn't as obvious as Seth was but he always babied and pampered Seth when he could be doing what he wanted for his ownself. When Seth had hurt his lower back, it was Roman who was massaging the healing creme into his skin every night even though Seth could've reached the area quite fine. When they had the TLC match in December he recalled after the match when they were standing on top of the stage how Roman had absentmindedly brushed Seth's hair from off his face when he was dazed from his fall off the ladder. It was those little caring touches that made Dean realize that Reigns was in the same place as Seth.
That night when he had turned up on Roman's doorstep, he had stopped by to return some dvds he had borrowed. When he saw Seth's car in the driveway, he had left the dvds in his car and made his way to the front door. He wondered if they were having a games night without him. But when Roman opened the door and he saw the disheveled hair, the flushed skin and most importantly the obvious hard on that he had, it was clear it wasn't that kind of night. At first Dean thought at he would have some fun with Roman when he squeezed his dick through the sweatpants. But damn, Reigns' shaft had felt really nice in his palm and it didn't seem fair that Seth got to play with it and he didn't. Dean had figured that he would just push Roman's buttons to see how far he could take it. He didn't think that Roman would've allowed him to touch him so privately again. So the next day when he went over to Reigns' house and he allowed him to touch his cock again he was genuinely surprised. He was even more surprised when he slid his hand down Roman's pants and grabbed his semi-erect dick. Fuck. His shaft did feel nice and heavy under his fingertips and as he started to stroke it Dean decided that he was going as far as he could with this as possible. He felt his own cock getting ridiculously hard as he stroked Roman. It was then that it dawned on him that he was sexually attracted to Roman as well. Then when Dean got on his knees so that he could taste him, he knew that there was no turning back. Roman's dick felt sweet against his tongue in his mouth and wanted to take everything he could from it.
When he had finished with Roman, his mind had figured why not Seth? He knew that Seth was the one who was easier to emotionally manipulate out of the two. He had wanted to kiss Roman badly and it did sting that he had rejected his advances. So he made sure to get his kiss first from Seth. Man, Seth had a sweet little mouth on him. Dean could've kissed him for hours without getting tired and he was so responsive to Dean's touch. He was genuinely shocked when Seth had pulled him back when he had tried to leave the first time but hell, he had enjoyed it. But he didn't feel that euphoric feeling after he and Seth had sex. The act itself was wonderful but the aftermath Dean was not emotionally ready to deal with. When he saw how much Seth was hurting because of what he had done, Dean had decided that it was not a game worth playing anymore. He cared about Seth, deeply. He wanted Seth to be happy, even if it wasn't him. He knew that he had to let Seth go and not to toy with him anymore. When he'd kiss Seth for the last time on his bed, it had hurt him to know that it would be the final time. Somehow he had fallen for Seth himself and he hadn't even realized it. That's irony for you, Dean mused.
But after the morning in Colorado with Roman and then tonight, Dean was an absolute mess. Every touch they shared was electrifying. Every kiss was intense. His body ached for him. He had never sexually desired a human being so much until Roman. It was just so damn hot. He got horny from just thinking about about being with him. He wanted to go a second round with Reigns earlier tonight and to let him take him this time but he knew that time was not on their side, so he let it pass.
To see the two men that he desired the most in all of the world be with each other and not with him, tore into Dean. He couldn't bare it. He felt like such an outsider intruding on something personal and special to Seth and Roman. Infact, that was exactly what he was, an outsider. He didn't belong. A tear escaped from Dean's eye and ran down his cheek, spilling on to the pillow. He was trying to force himself in somewhere he didn't fit. Seth and Roman loved each other and he was in love with both of them. But he was certain that neither of them felt the same way about him.
A/N: Into the mind of Dean Ambrose... I know I say this all of the time but to the reviewers you guys rock! Seriously, you guys leave some really good thoughts and insights into the story. I would encourage everyone to leave their own. I appreciate all of you for reading this fic.