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Tough chapter, but I muddled through it. Chapter 5 ladies and gents!
Jesse and Rachel ate as at a small pizza place they loved. Things were, a little awkward, but nothing they couldn't ignore. Jesse looked out the window to see the sun getting lower in the sky. Too bad it couldn't last. He thought. He thought about how beautiful Rachel was, and how he loved her and didn't want to leave her. He couldn't help but thinking about how as soon as he felt she would be in Finn's arms instead of his.
But I deserve it. After what I did to her. I'm lucky she's even friends with me. She could do better than me. But he didn't want her to do better than him. More than anything in the world, he wanted to be with her. He couldn't let her just forget about him and run back to Finn.
And then Jesse got an idea. He got a wonderful, awful, idea. Although it sounds horrible, Jesse knew that by pushing her away, he would only make his bond with her stronger. She was just the kind of persistent, strong willed person with a need for affection, that this would work on. But he had to work fast.
They were in the car, on their way to the airport, when Jesse put his evil plan into action.
"Rachel, you're still with Finn, right?" Jesse asked.
"Yep." she seemed put off by having to answer this way. He couldn't say he blamed her.
"Umm...if you don't mind me asking," she turned to face him, "but, why are you still with him?"
"Ugh." she was clearly over the whole 'Finchel' thing. "Because if I break up with him, the Glee club will suffer. He'll start doing that whole whiny bitch thing he does, and won't wanna sing. And then Nationals will be a thing of the past." Jesse had to laugh at her term of affection she gave to him. 'whiny bitch'. I like it.
"Well after Nationals what are you gonna do?" he prodded.
"Duh, Jesse. Break up with him so I can be with you." She grabbed his hand, holding it gingerly in hers.
"Ah...well, that's the thing." he pulled the car over to the shoulder. "I don't know if that's the best thing for you." Tears began to build in her eyes. " I don't deserve you. After all the shit I put you though." Jesse let his face contort with the pain of the truth.
"Jesse, its in the past." She touched his face, as hers softened. "Jesse, I want to be with you." He nodded and pulled back onto the road.
He selected a track on his ipod, stage 2 of his plan now in action. All he had to do was sing now.
I think you can do much better than me
After all the lies that I made you believe
And guilt kicks in and I start to see
The edge of the bed where your nightgown used to be
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remembered what it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
While looking through your old box of notes
I found those pictures I took that you were lookin' for
If there's one memory I don't want to lose
That time at the mall, you and me in the dressing room
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remembered what it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
The bed I'm lying in is getting colder
Wish I never would've said it's over
And I can't pretend
I won't think about you when I'm older
'Cause we never really had our closure
This can't be the end
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
And I think you should know this
Finally as his song finished. Rachel has silent tears running down her face. Jesse couldn't keep his from brimming over his lids, either. His plan was backfiring on him, and him alone. It was working perfectly on her, but making him look like a girl. At least thats what he thought. Rachel thought it was because he truly believed the words he had just sang, and truth be told, he did.
"Jesse. In my eyes, no one is better than you." Rachel had to stop herself. She had almost told him she loved him. "What happened doesn't matter anymore. Because, for one that was one...circumstance." That wasn't the word for his planning with Shelby, and breaking her heart but it worked. "And for another, you've changed. You're my other half." she chuckled as she pulled out the cheesy air heart and "You." she bit her lip as she drew the air heart. "Complete me." she giggled, and Jesse chuckled a little too.
She really is perfect, isn't she? That was the moment, that he knew he truly did love Rachel. He had known it was love before, with her, but he thought it was just one of those high school loves. Puppy love, if you will. No, this was real love. She's the one.
Jesse pulled into the airport parking lot. Rachel's eyes brimming over again. Jesse wiped a few tears away, with his thumb.
"Why are you crying Rachel?"
"Because you are leaving. What if when you come back you don't want me?" she sobbed into his chest. He wrapped his arms around her. "I'll never not want you Rachel."
"You mean that?" she asked.
"Yes. I will always mean that." he said leaning down to kiss her. He softly pressed his lips to hers. She smiled against him, causing him to smile.
They exited the car hand-in-hand, Jesse's suitcase in his free hand.
Rachel began to softly sing to him as they walked through the airport.
Bye bye baby, remember you're my baby
when they give you the eye.
Although I know that you care, won't you write and declare
That though on the loose, you are still on the square.
I'll be gloomy, but send that rainbow to me,
Then my shadows will fly
Though you'll be gone for a while,
I know that I'll be smiling with my baby, by and by.
Jesse chimed in, taking over the after parts.
(Bye, bye baby, so long!)
Bye bye baby (just remember that you're my baby when.)
When they give you the eye.
(And although we know that you care, you just write and declare)
That though on the loose, you are still on the square.
I'll be gloomy (gloomy), but send that rainbow to me
(Then the shadows will fly)
Though you'll be gone for a while,
I know that I'll be smiling
With my baby by and by (Bye, bye baby)
Jesse bent to kiss her and was met with passion. He didn't even notice all the people clapping around them. Finally he noticed and they broke apart, waving slightly in embarrassment.
They proceeded to where they were to depart from each other. Jesse wrapped Rachel up in a huge hug.
"I'm gonna miss you so much." she said.
"Well maybe you can come see me." he said and slipped an envelope into her jacket pocket. He knew she would never accept what was in it knowingly.
"Maybe but I doubt my parents will pay for me to go and see a boy who they do not like." she buried her head into the crook of his neck.
"Oh they will. I can feel it." Jesse smirked. Rachel clung closer to him, as his flight was called.
"I don't want you to go." He felt hot tears soaking through his shirt.
"I know, love. I know. I don't wanna go either." he pulled her impossibly closer to him.
Eventually he had to peel her off of him and set off for his plane. "I'll call you when I get there." he said placing a kiss on her forehead. She nodded, and wiped tears from her eyes. She watched as he gave her one last look before disappearing through his gate.
Rachel turned to find her fathers standing behind her. Hiram opened his arms wide for her. She ran to him and collapsed, crying, into his arms.
"He'll be back soon, dear. It's only 3 months. He'll be here all summer then." he assured her. Leroy carried her out to the car, and they rode home in silence.
He's the one. Rachel knew he was.
Jesse's heart clenched when he looked at Rachel for the last time before getting onto the plane. He almost couldn't keep from crying on the plane thinking about how she was probably crying into her dad's shirt right now. He was more worried about her being ok than he was about not crashing and dying in a horrible plane accident. Which wasn't like him. Usually he was worried about malfunctions and terrorists, but today he only cared about Rachel.
His flight didn't last long. Only four and a half hours. As soon as he got back to his dorm, although he would never admit it to anyone, he crumpled on his bed and cried.
A/N: So there it is. Short but sweet. The ending was probably because the song from an earlier chapter was playing while I wrote it, and it makes me sad. It's God Damn You're Beautiful- by Chester See. Look him up on youtube.
Accidentally left some info from the last chapter out so here it is.
Songs Used: As Long As You're Mine- Wicked Soundtrack
People Will Say We're In Love-Oklahoma Soundtrack
Don't Cry for Me Argentina-Evita Soundtrack
Songs used this chapter: Frank Sinatra-Bye Bye Baby
Better Than Me-Hinder
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