"Sad Kiss"
Pairing: NozoEli
I'm sorry, she said, and you wondered if the shimmering in her blue eyes were real, or if it was just the fault of the setting sun.
You never once envisioned how your first kiss would have been, never this way, this was not what you had wanted. The tears wouldn't stop flowing out of her sapphires, it was sloppy, messy and as quick as it came it was over.
I'm sorry, she said.
You didn't stop her when she leaned forward for another, sometime later you realized the salty tears on your face was yours. Your ribbon was cast aside, your shirt top was undone, and she stopped, hands trembling and shaking so badly. And she gave up, just crying now on your shoulders.
I'm sorry, she said.
And you wished she didn't say it, because part of you was screaming that you wanted this too. Though not this way, not like this, not as a replacement. She lightly grasped your hair, you watched as the purple threads slipped out of her hand.
Some part of you was broken, some part of you was screaming, why couldn't you be enough? She buttoned your shirt up and wiped your tears away, her thumb gently caressing your cheeks.
I'm sorry, I won't do it again, she said.
Deep down somewhere inside you, you felt disgusted because you were briefly happy the moment your lips touched hers, and when the lips left you were devastated because those blue eyes were never on you the whole time.
I'm sorry, Nozomi, she said.
You could hear your heart shattering on the inside as she left.