Authors note: Hi all! Sorry for the delay, I just had a bit of a full on week and I wasn't in the right mind set for this chapter but anyway we have it so there is no need to worry much more :D

Okay so it's nearly one in the morning and I start work in five and a half hours so I am not sure how good this chapter is but I tried really hard on it :D Trigger warning I think? I'm not sure if this one qualifies as much. Enjoy anyway!

Now:

From a young age we grow this overwhelming feeling to fear the dark. Our heart rate rises, our breathing becomes and our skin prickles as we plead for the door to be left that little bit open so light could pour in and the monsters of the dark would disappear. We get a little older and we start to pretend it doesn't bother us, we let the door close, we pretend so well that we convince ourselves we aren't scared. We adapt; but adapting doesn't take the fear away, we can learn to swim but that doesn't make us any less scared of drowning. Because if we didn't adapt we wouldn't be able to close our eyes.

Darkness is complex and unexplained it could be anything and everything all at the same time and the fact that we don't know what could be lurking is what builds that fear inside of us. Darkness isn't always the lack of light though, darkness can be something you are, something that consumes you or even a period of your life (a 'dark' chapter of a complex story).

Light (Noun) [mass noun] the natural agent that stimulates sight and makes things visible.

We use light to take away the darkness, to battle our demons for us. Light is something we take for granted. Like darkness, light is complex, it can be natural and unnatural and it can even be a person, someone that takes the darkness from your life and makes breathing that little easier. Someone who makes you think that darkness is temporary and forces you to fight your demons with them because if they've surrendered that much effort then you owe it to them to fight as hard as them.

Blaine had once called Kurt his 'light', Kurt had laughed and shrugged off the comment, never thinking that it could mean as much as it did. But in the moments of panic, as the ambulance drove and Blaine was shocked back to life, Kurt understood. Kurt knew what Blaine had meant and knew that in his moments of fear his light dimmed low enough that Blaine thought the darkness was too much and let it consume him until the darkness was everything and the light had left his eyes.

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Kurt sat by Blaine's bed listening to the music of the hospital machines, the beeping of the heart moniter, the dripping of the IV as it pumped fluid into one vein and blood into another.

Drip, beep, drip.

Kurt added to the sound with the constant tapping of his foot.

Drip, tap, tap, beep, tap, tap, drip, tap, tap.

Kurt could distantly hear the sound of a man coughing, he coughed every couple of second or so, filling the hospital ward with more sound.

Cough, drip, tap, tap, cough, beep, tap, tap, drip, cough.

"Kurt?"

Kurt looked up at Emmet, the older man smiled at him softly before looking down at his brother, his face crumpled but he kept his face as straight as possible as he dragged a chair over to the other side of Blaine's bed. They stayed silent for a while, Kurt hadn't spoken since the ambulance came to pick Blaine up, he could barely remember what his own voice sounded like.

"I got here as soon as I could, once I'd heard," Emmet said.

Kurt cleared his throat before speaking."Dad said you were hard to get a hold of." Kurt didn't recognise his voice at all, it was rough and quiet from lack of use.

"I had my phone turned off, Noah and I were celebrating and phones weren't allowed to be on."

"Celebrating?"

"We're engaged," Emmet said with a small smile.

"That's nice, congratulations," Kurt's words were empty, if he hadn't of spoken Emmet would have wondered if he'd even heard him at all his face showed no recognition of the announcement.

"I haven't spoken to any of the doctors yet so I don't know fully what's going on."

Kurt took a deep breath before speaking, his voice coming out in a distant tone as he recited what he'd been told like someone would recite their grocery list. "He's had twenty seven stitches in his arm, he's on his third bag of blood, during the ambulance ride he went into cardiac arrest and he hasn't woken up since."

"What do the doctors say about it?"

"He's reacting to pain and light, everything is looking good, the chances of him coming out of this is high," Kurt said plainly, Emmet was shocked by the lack of expression in Kurt's voice.

"What about after he wakes up, have they said what kind of things to expect?"

"No, a doctor will be in later though."

Emmet nodded, a few tears dribbled out and he asked what had been on his mind since he'd heard the news from a very grave Burt. "Do you know why he did it, I mean what was leading up to it that caused him to think that this was an option?"

Kurt opened his mouth to speak, his bottom lip trembled as he tried to think of what to tell Emmet, he didn't know all if any of what was going through Blaine's mind at the time.

"He's been having nightmares," Kurt said simply. "When I spoke to you last he'd broken up with me, he told me that it was because he wasn't good enough for me, he'd spent the night in the storage shed he has all of his stuff in."

Kurt took a few steadying breaths before he continued. "This stuff with your dad has been bringing up really bad memories, every time he's asleep he's in torment, I tried to wake him up the other night and he hit me."

"That's where you got the bruise then," Emmet said simply.

"It wasn't his fault but it ate him up inside, I could see it but I didn't do anything about it, after everything..." Kurt trailed off and Emmet looked at him grimly.

"With Aiden," he offered as explanation and Kurt nodded.

"I just couldn't."

"Kurt, you're blaming yourself, I can feel it from here," Emmet sighed.

"Someone has to be blamed," Kurt said quietly and Emmet sighed, he wanted to tell Kurt that he was wrong that Blaine would never do something like this because of any one thing but a doctor was walking in before he could say anything.

"How is my favourite patient today?" the doctor said as he came into the room, Kurt looked up at him and glared and the doctor had the decency to look sheepish. "I think I might have the wrong chart," he muttered as he shuffled the five charts in his hand. After a moment the doctor found what he was looking for. "Ah yes, Blaine Anderson, attempted suicide."

Emmet looked down as if wounded by the words, Kurt just kept a straight face, it wasn't the first time he would hear it and it wouldn't be the last.

"So I'm doctor Timothy Fraser, I'm just coming in here to let Blaine's next of kin know about the scans," he looked back and forth between Emmet and Kurt before talking again, his words directed at Emmet. "You must be his brother?"

Emmet nodded and muttered a simple yes and a side introduction, his flirty demeanour hidden by the casual behaviour of the doctor.

"Well then that makes you a friend?" he asked Kurt.

"Partner," Kurt corrected.

"Ahh... I figured as much."

"What's that supposed to mean?" Kurt asked, his voice showing his emotions for the first time since Emmet had arrived.

"Well most teen boy suicide attempts we get in here are homosexuals, I guess that's really just what happens," Doctor Fraser said with a shrug and Emmet swallowed thickly and Kurt scowled.

Emmet looked at the doctor, "You say that like my brothers homosexuality is what made him attempt to take his life."

"Well isn't it?"

"As a matter of fact it isn't, Blaine is comfortable in his own skin despite what people like you say against him," Emmet said harshly and the doctor recoiled slightly.

"Well if that's what you say I am going to believe you but the point I need to get across is that unfortunately you need to leave," he said directly to Kurt.

"What?" Kurt asked.

"I need to check over mister Anderson's arm and make sure he is functioning well, I also need to explain confidential information to his brother and you cannot be here, only family is allowed."

"My friends went through a similar thing last year, the ignorance of society hasn't startled me yet but the fact that you think I am going to leave Blaine's sight even for a second is shocking," Kurt said sternly and Emmet smiled proudly.

"I'm sorry but I will not break hospital protocol completely, I respect what you're saying but I still have to do my job, so if you could talk to me outside Emmet and I will go check Blaine's bandages after wards."

Emmet looked at Kurt for confirmation and Kurt sighed "I don't care as long as I can stay here, when he wakes he has to know that I'm here."

"Thank you for understanding, I'm not trying to make you feel uncomfortable I'm just trying to do what I can to make sure my bosses are happy and my patients, their family and their partners are happy, sometimes the two conflict."

"That's fine, thanks for not being as bad some people," Kurt said distantly.

"It's just nice to see this kind of passion burn so brightly in someone, it's shining through you, it's very commendable and not something I see often," Timothy commented with a small smile, Kurt dwelled on his words though.

The words 'brightly' and 'shining' meant light but Kurt knew that the brighter his light burned the bigger the shadow he would cast. Like darkness, light can also be consuming.

Authors note: Well it's not all sunshine and rainbows yet but at least you know Blaine will be moderately okay by the end of all this :D

Okay I am exhausted so I am going to love and leave you.

Here is the love xoxo and here is the leaving. Bye :D

PS sorry to all the people that got two emails, I accidentally put the wrong chapter up :/