Never will because only people with great minds and artistic hand would create that. I disclaim GA (is it the right word?)
Be aware of my grammars and tenses. I love to mix things up.
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My beloved,
It must be a bit presumptuous of me to address you with such word but what can I do? Your beauty put me under a spell; the first time our eyes clashed with each other, my mind cannot stop thinking about you. Since then, I always caught myself staring at you; thinking about you; dreaming of your beautiful hair within my reach; your smile, I always want it to be just for me; your eyes I want it to gaze at me like what I always do whenever you are around.
What should I do? So that I can have your heart just like you do to mine. Please tell me, my love.
-Natsume Hyuuga
CHAPTER 4: HER INFLUENCE
He always felt a loser whenever they talked. At the same time, he cannot classify all the emotions that were playing in him whenever they have their confrontation.
Sure there was the irritation and annoyance; it was the highlights of their confrontation a while ago. There was also the curiosity, not that he was interested to that aging freak, but she sounded a lot younger when she offered to explain her letter of reference moreover what had pushed her in this kind of job? Why was she so passionate over the soldiers and the country's sake?
Okay, Natsume, breathe. Don't think about her. You frightened her, right? She'll plead Ruka to get the fastest carriage to make it to town and you'll never see her again.
Never see her again….
What the hell was he thinking? SEE? Heck, he couldn't see. He was blind, remember?
Well that is not the point. Why was he felt agitated after that thought of her leaving this place? She was not special and if she leaves his peaceful days would return, probably.
His mind was reeling on a different thought. He must have swallowed something bad at breakfast earlier. A good rest was what he needed, that's right it was due to exhaustion thinking about her. He kicked his boots off his feet and dive to his smelly, foul odor sheet. Cringing his nose, he forced his mind to stop thinking of what happened earlier. Later, he thought, everything would be back to what it was supposed to be.
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After the bloody battle, she gave a warm smile to the two footmen that were shocked at their master's behavior.
"Miss, we apologized for our master's rude behavior." the fox eyes said, finally recovering from his shocked state.
"You don't have to apologize, Mister…." She gave a quizzical smile.
"I am Kitsuneme but I preferred to be called Kitsu. This is my twin brother, Kokoroyomi." Fox- eyed, Kitsu said.
"You can call me Koko, and please dropped the mister part since we are all employees here" Koko, the one who elbowed his brother a while ago explained while grinning widely.
"I am Mikan Sakura pleased to meet you too, drop the miss or the san and I'll drop the mister part in yours. I hope to get along with you all." She said with obliviousness in her tone.
The two footmen looked at each other's eye. Seemingly communicating their thoughts on how long would she lasts but was interrupted by Mikan.
"I was wondering, can you tell me about…. " She trailed off
"Mikan, believe it or not, our master is really a gentleman." Koko said.
"That's the truth, whenever he passed by, every women cannot resist to look at his direction. From the debutantes who giggled non-stop to the desperate mamas who always want the best for their daughters. Our Natsume-sama is the best choice." Kitsuneme added with a fan-girl type of voice.
It might be an exaggeration but Mikan, at the back of her mind giggled at this image. She managed to control her facial expression by throwing an off-guard question.
"That's an interesting image to see, but what made him so isolated, so distant?"
The two footmen seemed to be speechless for a second, thinking on how to tactfully answer her question.
"We didn't know. Its just after he got home, he just isolated himself and always locked himself in his room." Koko with his eyebrows furrowed said.
"In the first place, we cannot understand why he signed his life in the commission when he has the most comfortable life to live on." Kitsu said while tapping his chin.
"{Sigh} No one can really understand him." Koko and Kitsu shrugged their shoulder. After a minute or two, they were back to their usual self. Chattering and joking with each other while Mikan was just smiling and staring at them.
"Mikan, we would want to tour you around the mansion, but we had duties to do so may be some other time. See Yah~" They simultaneously said, leaving Mikan alone in the dining room.
She sat there for almost like a year, pondering of what have she gathered about his life. He signed his life for the commission but not for the country, since browsing on his words earlier, it has little thing to do with it. Thinking about it made her felt the pain she kept burrowed deep inside of her but the last words that the twin left was really made her feel envy. Really, they have duties and here she was doing nothing. Her duty looks like sitting and mopping around the mansion for a while.
Sighing and feeling a little upset with herself, Mikan banged her head quite loudly to the scratched door that Natsume used earlier while muttering something under her breathe. She knew that her childishness was her second nature but while she was in here, she cannot afford to expose those. Her friend will chew her ears because of that, probably.
"I am useless, clumsy little fool, idiot, abnormal, baka, baka, baka." She kept on muttering these words while passing the hall way. But then she tripped on her foot making her hit the floor really hard.
"Damn, why was it always dark in here?"
Looking around, like the first time, the window was still covered with dark and heavy colored curtains. The place was too dusty for a person who was supposed to be recovering from his illness. The furniture was arranged in a way that they didn't consider Natsume's circumstances. To sum it up, they were like grieving at the lost of someone important in which the opposite of the reality.
She was supposed to continue her mopping but these arrangements gave her a bright idea. Her cloudy feeling cleared. She started to analyze and plan on what to do. After a minute, she started working on it.
"First, I should yank you." her index finger pointing to the heavy curtains
She knew that she should have his permission first but what can she do? His temper was flaring; attacking from behind was the best idea she could pull up. Her mischievous smile was showing up.
After yanking all the curtains, the rays of the morning sun penetrate through the mansion.
"Lovely, I felt like was inside a horror mansion a while ago and now, it is haven." She squealed with delight, knowing that she was alone and need not be conscious at all.
"Hmmm… I need a broom, dustpan, rags and a pail of water." She was counting the things in her fingers but then she realized that she needed to move all the furniture that might be savage due to the beas- Natsume's way of walking.
"Okay, I should try moving these things to the side."
Mikan was enjoying her time immensely when she saw a maid looking at her as if she was growing another head. She ignored it and pleaded to the maid.
"He-hey, I need some help here would you mind helping me get this fragile but heavy vase across the room?"
Instead of neither answering nor helping her, the maid ran in the opposite direction. Making her stop her worked and scratched her already messy hair.
"I guess I should do it alone. Go Mikan you can do it! Your Grandpa will also be proud of you, yeah!" She smiles widely while raising her arms with closed fist on the air. At least with this she can be herself again.
Meanwhile the other staffs were staying in one room chatting about their master's behavior and his new nurse while doing their task for the day or taking their break.
"Natsume really changed." Ruka said while wiping the sweat forming in his forehead.
"At least, Mikan is not quaking in her boots in the dining table." Koko answered, while eating some apple.
"Yep, I was amazed on how she answered our Natsume. It was fun watching them; you should see it too, Ruka." Kitsu who was polishing the utensils added.
"Oh really, I think it was more fun watching you, Kitsuneme stuttering in front of our dear Nonoko." Hotaru replied while computing the budget that was used for this month.
Koko who was munching his apple choked at Hotaru's word. Ruka cleared his throat, looking smug at how Hotaru kind of indirectly protect his best friend and Kitsu's face was beet red. All of them knew how Kitsuneme acts when Nonoko was around, thus making Kitsuneme's failed attempt to impress Nonoko the new topic while they were working.
They were having their teasing moments when suddenly the door plunged open. Everyone looked up seeing the disoriented expression of Anna Umemiya, the pink wavy haired-girl and Nonoko's twin.
"Ms. Sakura was changing the position of all the furniture and she yanked all the curtains, I don't know what to do." She exclaimed with a hint of uncertainty in her voice.
"What should we do?" Koko asked.
"Should we help her? I think she was having a hard time with all the moving and cleaning up." Anna reasoned out.
"We should stop her, if Natsume knew this; I don't know how he will react." Ruka answered.
"What do you think Hotaru?" Kitsuneme asked knowing that the genius blackmailer had an idea.
Sighing and pinching her nose, Hotaru answered.
"Let her be she'll get tired of it, but I don't think we should get ourselves involved. You do know how Natsume will erupt if he knew this."
"Okay, if that's what you wish then." Kitsuneme shrugged continuing his work as if nothing happened.
Koko and Ruka knew based on experience that Hotaru was always right that's why they didn't question it. Only Anna was troubled because she saw with her own eyes on how Mikan was sweating and working hard but she can't do anything about it, her housekeeper decided it like on how the criminal should get a punishment.
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"Hotaru-sama, she is at it up to now." Nonoko, the straight-haired twin of Anna, reported. After taking a little peek on where Mikan was.
Actually, after knowing that the new nurse was renovating the mansion the group of friends among the staff was betting on when would she gave up. Apparently, nobody won, even the great Imai loss. She was quite amazed on how stubborn Mikan is. Looks like Hyuuga would have someone equally stubborn as he is.
To be honest, she thought that the little girl would give up but then she was proven wrong. She suggested leaving her alone because she thought she was like the other nurse; she just tested how far Mikan can go. But then, from the very first time they've met she saw something different in Mikan's eye. She just can't pinpoint what it was.
"Everything will definitely turn upside down starting from now, be prepared Hyuuga." she murmured under her breathe.
"I want to take a peek." Hotaru decided.
All the staff followed her, lining up like they were having their own little parade inside the mansion, due to growing curiosity on how the new maid was faring.
Walking up to the entrance, they can see that the table and many things that may be in contact with their master during the trip on the hall were put at the corner; wherein Natsume wouldn't bump in to it. The carpet was rolled leaning at the wall. The light coming from the moon penetrated through the window giving spotlight to the form sleeping due to exhaustion in the couch at the corner.
"Wow! I can't believe that she can mess it up in one day" Kitsuneme exclaimed.
"Stupid, be quiet." Nonoko whispered, making Kitsuneme colored with embarrassment.
"What should we do?" Anna asked.
Looking at the scene Ruka was quite taken, Mikan was thoughtful to pull up an idea wherein she can help and show her concern in Natsume's being. He was then, feeling a little ashamed that they only thought on how Natsume wouldn't want to change anything.
"Koko carry her in her room upstairs now and…"
Hotaru trailed off looking at the expectant face of Anna, knowing all to well that the maid wanted to help Mikan after her running away from Mikan last time.
"Anna, go with Koko and help Mikan be more comfortable in her sleep."
"Get more broom and dustpan. Footmen who have the most strength carry the things that she cannot carry. The maids get a pail of water and clean up the dust." Hotaru ordered.
When no one make a move, and look at her as if she was a traitor. She shouted "Now!"
The staffs' faces were then alighted with joy. Now they can start a real work. Everyone seems to be excited on the idea of doing something for their master.
"But what are we going to tell to Natsume?" Ruka asked, not quite sure on how Hotaru's mind worked.
"We? We are not going to tell him anything. She would." Hotaru answered pointing on the direction on were Mikan was carried on.
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Yay! I've finished another chapter. Hahaha, I love writing the love letter part, because I'm not the type of person who can pull out those cheesy words. I'm quite surprise myself. I know my first unknown reviewer requested me not too write something cheesy, mushy; gushy… all of the ~shy's of life but then it is essential to the letter. I want the readers to know what Natsume was prior to the story. It is a bit OOC but then who would be in their right self when they were in love?
I know that the first part was the only interesting part, but then I just love this chapter I've got the feeling that this is the one with the most effort up until now. Well enough of my ranting. I'm just really happy because many try to critic my work and gave their opinions. I hope in this chapter as well. THANK YOU VERY MUCH even to those who silently read this. I 3 you!
-Pain de au