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xxxxxxxxxxxxxx Alec POV:
I felt the heat of his chest against my back. I could also feel his fingers playing in my hair, which had woke me up. I sighed without realizing it, but he didn't stop.
"Sorry. I didn't mean to wake you."
"It's alright..." i replied, hearing something else under the sincerity in his voice, " is something wrong?"
"...i don't want to ask you, after you were so tore up earlier," he sighed.
I froze up, knowing exactly what he wanted to ask. He must have felt my response, because he sighed again, and ran his fingers down my back making me shiver unconsciously.
I sat up and scooted away from him, hoping that was ease the guilt in my stomach.
"I'm just gonna do ahead and tell you... because i know you want to know," i said blushing slightly and pulling the eccentric cover over my legs and boxers.
"Kyle... was uhm, a boy."
"Okay, stating the obvious is a good start," he said sitting up and shaking his hair.
I was momentarily mesmerized by his beauty, that is, until he saw me watching and quirked one sexy eyebrow.
" Is there a problem?"
"No, no. Uhm, i was 15, this was 2 years ago...," he nodded for me to keep going, "he was dating my sister, Isabelle, and i met him when she invited him over for dinner once."
I shifted my position on the bed.
"He was adorable," i smiled at the memory of the small boy with copper hair, and big confident eyes, "he was short, and cute, and perfect for Isabelle. But you can't judge a book by its cover."
I pulled my legs up and wrapped my arms around them, settling my chin between my knees.
"He was not at all who we thought he was," i shook my head and frowned, "he ended up in Isabelle's bed after 3 weeks of seeing her. She was only 13 and he took her virginity. The funny thing is, i never knew about that until Iz and i were playing 20 questions and i asked who her first was.."
"Yes, but what does that have to do with you?" Magnus asked, confusion masking his beautiful face.
I took a deep breath, and looked at him for the first time since i started talking.
"See, we found out that Kyle looked 14, but he was actually 18. Way too old to be with Iz. Jace was 14, and he was seriously pissed when he found out. I stopped him before he could do anything stupid though, and we called the cops." I said, not looking at Magnus.
"Alexander, you're avoiding the question," he said, scooting closer to me, and lying his hand on my arm before letting it fall.
"The same night that Kyle took Iz's virginity he... he came into my room," i visibly shrunk as i remembered the sound of my bedroom door opening.
"I remember him whispering my name, now that i think back, his voice was different... older sort of; deeper. He said he wanted to talk to me about something. It was 2 a.m. so i figured it had to be really important. He came into the room, closed the door with his foot. He had two cups in his hand, and he handed one to me, before sitting down in the rocking chair by my bed. It was dark and i couldn't see his face... He told me that he knew i liked him. When i didn't say anything, he told me that he liked me too," i took a shuddering breath and rearranged the way i was sitting.
"Again i didn't say anything. He took a drink from his cup, and i took a drink from mine. It was stupid, i should've looked to see what it was i was drinking, but i didn't. The whole situation was creepy enough."
"What happened next, Alexander?" Magnus asked, looking worried.
I signed and closed my eyes.
"I started feeling light-headed, and the glass slipped from my hand. Kyle quickly caught it before it shattered on my hard-wood floor. He calmly sat the two cups down on the night stand, and sat on the bed beside where i was lying down. I managed to say his name weakly and he shushed me. 'It's alright' he'd said. Then he... he."
I choked back a few sobs and wiped my eyes.
"He raped me. He raped me... He raped me because he knew i was saving myself, and also because he knew it's never really have sex with him. I felt so disgusting."
I couldn't hold back the tears anymore and they came pouring down my face. Magnus grabbed me, and held me tightly. He pulled me back up off of him and wiped my eyes with his thumbs. We made eye contact, and i saw his eyes flicker down to my lips. He licked his lips, closed his eyes, and started leaning in.
Then he stopped and closed his eyes.
" I'm sorry... You said we can't." He said leaning back again, and opening his eyes, "can i at least ask why?"
"No... I'm sorry," i said getting up, and walking to the bathroom to wash my face.
"Come back, lets rest for the remainder of study hall. Then we can meet the girls at lunch."
"Okay," i said climbing back into the bed with him; The guilt in my stomach getting worse.
He wrapped his arms around my middle and pulled me back against him.
"Goodnight," he breathed into my ear. I shivered, the guilt in my stomach like a rock, as i noticed the hint of a sexy accent i hadn't noticed before.
"This feels like a dream," i heard him whisper when he thought i was asleep.
"Or a pathetic nightmare," i whispered back before dropping off to sleep from his intoxicating scent.
xxxxxxxxxxxxx Magnus POV:
It made my heart break to see him so broken. He had really trusted that boy, and he had hurt him.
With him here now, in my arms, I felt the way that HE felt safe. It felt good knowing i could have such an effect on someone who wasn't Cam or Rag. I felt like i was meant to be here. With him... Like this.
"This feels like a dream," i whispered into his hair.
"Or a pathetic nightmare," i heard him whisper back, before he relaxed completely.
"Ha," i chuckled lightly, having thought he was asleep.
I knew exactly what he meant... A nightmare. Because we both want to give in to the feelings that i HOPE we both have; but for whatever reasons, we can't be together.
"I'll never let anyone else hurt you, Alec. No matter how big or small they are. No one will ever hurt you again as long as I'm here. I promise."
I kissed his hair again, and snuggled my face into his neck, breathing in his scent.
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