Will have some swearing but nothing am sure people cannot handle

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And so envy will raise its jealous head
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Ben Speaks

For a brief second, I saw my vision go white as Jesse pulled Claire into his embrace.

I was leaning on my car, watching Adam fight with the car to get it started and about to give him a hand when I saw Claire and Jesse, kissing. It took all of me not to honk my horn to make them separate, to hurry them up. I got into my car, shutting the door and keeping my eyes away from the fire, away from the sight. I know I shouldn't have been acting the way I should, I practically asked for what I got, I had every intention of leaving the place for good, but returned in the hope that…

Fuck hope.
Fuck love.
Fuck Jesse.

Adam managed to get the car going and relaxed into the driver's seat, giving me a grin before he noticed the scene in front of us and it dropped from his face. Did he know about my feelings for Claire, or was he just as surprised as I was?
Whatever, it didn't matter, I didn't care. Sure it was a lie, but it was better than thinking that I cared enough that I was practically heartbroken? That would be a girly bloody think to say.

The passenger door opened suddenly and I frowned as Jesse got in, turning to see Claire drive off with Adam and I frowned, getting ready to follow them as Jesse got comfortable.
'Ready to go?'
Jesse nodded, groaning under his breath about stupid metal cars being too slow and I hesitated over the gear stick, so ready to punch his face in. I knew it wouldn't be a good idea; he was after all more powerful than anything in the world, well at least second best to Zeno.
What was I thinking? My rage was getting the better of me and I followed behind the old van.

'Why did you leave?' Jesse asked suddenly and I was tempted to turn the music on, loud, but thought otherwise. I sat in silence for a moment, knowing that if he really wanted the answer to that, he could just read my mind.
'I was never planning on sticking around.'
'Hanging around with Claire or all of us?'
I snarled at the question but he did have a point; if it was just Claire and myself I wouldn't have left because that was just the greedy thing to do. I knew no body owned Claire, no one at all but sometimes I wished I had listened to her and ignored the phone call, continued on hunting together.
'I guess the main thing is that I decided to stay.'

Jesse nodded, resting his head on the window and I wished he would just give up and teleport himself off home; I couldn't stand to look at him. Slipping in a CD, I turned the volume up moderately loud, but just didn't feel like listening to any of the rock music so switched it off.

'What happened to Lance?'
'Demons.' Jesse sighed, 'we just weren't quick enough.'
I gripped the steering wheel tighter; it could have been worse, it could have been Claire and I would not have been there to watch her back. Sure an anti-Christ was pretty helpful, but he had already hurt her once, what if he tried again?
'Are you alright?' Jesse questioned and I grinned, baring my teeth as I chuckled.
'What a question, Claire just lost her best friend and I'm scared to hell and back with this Zenos character.' And you tried to win Claire over you creep. I growled angrily in my mind, hoping he didn't hear it. Jesse nodded and turned away, taking a breath before looking back.

'There could be a case not far from here, I was wondering if you would come with me.'
I raised an eyebrow, looking at him oddly. Was this his way of killing me and getting me out of the way? I mentally slapped myself, pushing my jealousy aside.
'What sort of case? How did you find it?'
'I sense it.' He replied curtly, still watching me with those stupid eyes. I considered it and it was better than being stuck in an old house helping his uncle shift furniture around while they waited for the world to end.
'Suppose Claire will be in the mood for killing something.' I said with a grin.

It was raining heavily when we pulled up in the old drive way, yet none of us made a mad dash to get inside. Once in though, Adam wondered off to his bedroom, patting Claire on the back as he went.
It was just the three of us and I could feel the tense air, I just wondered if it was only me because I was the one left in the dark, or so they thought.

'Ben and I were going on a hunt tomorrow, you up for it?'
Claire unfolded her arms, nodding.
'Yeah I need to kill something.' I smiled at her comment and Jesse chuckled lightly, going to give Claire a hug but paused, just rubbing her shoulder as he also bid good night, going to explain everything to us in the morning. He disappeared around the corner and Claire and I shared an awkward gaze.

'Claire look I am really sorry,' I said, following her up the stairs. She didn't say anything but she folded her arms as she stood in front of her bed room door.
'I suppose I over reacted,' she said but I shook my head, knowing she had every right to be mad.
'No, you needed to. I don't know what I was thinking. But I'm here now, I'm not going anywhere.' She looked at me, her eyes asking why I left in the first place and her mouth was going to ask why I had come back but she shut it tightly, dropping her eyes. I shrugged off my wet jacket, folding it over my arm as I tried to find the words I wanted to ask.

'So, you and Jesse are-'
'No.' Claire almost snapped and I couldn't help but grin in hope- there is was again, that stupid fucking hope- that it was just an empty, shallow, meaningless embrace between the two of them.
'Better get some sleep then,' Claire said gently, relaxing her stance, 'don't know what we're hunting tomorrow.'
'Yes, may as well.'
We both stood there, the air thick with everything we wanted to ask, what we wanted to say; could Claire feel it as well?
She smiled at me and opened her bedroom door, walking slowly through and pausing before shutting it, giving me a smile.
'I'm glad you decided to stay Ben, whatever brought you back must be important to you.'
'You have no idea. Night.'

With that she slowly closed her door and I was stuck watching it, willing the door handle to turn and open, and for Claire to step out. No my timing isn't that bad, I just wanted to comfort her; it hurt me that she was hurting only a few feet from me, feeling that the world had something against her. I must have stayed there for five minutes, but when Claire wasn't coming back out I moved into my own room, quietly shutting my door and missing Claires open.

Ben seems to be taking it alright, maybe his hope is keeping him together for now. I just cannot keep all of my promises can I? I don't want to drag things out, there are plenty more chapters that will more than make up for all these short chapters.

Silver-Kirin
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