The bell rings, I will have 2 more classes and right after launch I will have football training. The class I will have now is science. It is not my favorite but it is less boring. This I can't pay attention to what the teacher is teaching. I feel so horrible, heartless. Those words came out of my mouth. I was so nervous. I guess my brain froze for while. I don't know what I was doing. She looked right at me when I said those words. Those sapphire blue eyes were looking at me when her heart crashed.
Imaging her crying is really painful for me. Years of friendship gone because I was stupid. I don't even know what class she is now. I told so much about my life to her, she did same thing because she trust me. I had her trust. I had. She did so many things for me. I did for her too. When she needed, I was by her side. Now she will leave in a week, and she probably hates me. She will never hear what I have to say but I have to try. I can't imagine I probably killed what we could have. In this moment, I felt a fresh tear rolling in my cheek.
"Alvin! Alvin! Pay attention!" The teacher said.
"Sorry." I replied.
"May I go to the bathroom?" I asked minutes later.
"Go. Come back with more focus to the class." The teacher said.
I need to focus at least on this class. So I go out of the class and I see the lockers, lots of them. I saw someone sat near them. It was a girl, Brittany. She was there, sad, hopeless. Her sisters were trying to confort her. I went to her direction to try to talk to her for moment. I was feeling so guilt. I never imagine I would make her cry like this. When I was getting closer, sha looked at me.
"Now I mean something to you? Asshole!" She said with so much anger in her voice. Then she just got up and left the corridor, followed by her sisters. Now how will I won her again?
I went to the bathroom, with a broken heart. I was lost. I didn't know what to do to make her forgive me. I probably killed my friendship with her, and my future with her. Thinking about that was so painful. I loved her more than best friend.
I enter into the man's bathroom and I found Simon on the sink, cleaning his glasses. That was a perfect time to get some advice from him.
"Simon." I called him.
"Alvin, what are doing here?" He wondered because I was supposed to be in the class.
"I asked the teacher to go to the bathroom because I couldn't focus." I replied, telling the truth.
"Ah. Okay." He replied, putting his glasses. "Did you see Brittany crying?"
"Yeah, I saw her." I tried to hold my tears. "That is what I want to talk about."
"What have you done this time?" He looked at me.
"I had said wrong words to her." I looked down, with so much remorse.
"You know her more than me, Alvin." Simon said, putting his paw on my shoulder. "It will be very hard to make her forgive in time."
"I know." I cried. "I don't what to do."
"Words probably won't work with her." "Simon said, softly. "You should try to show her you were wrong."
"How?" I asked. I was lost without her.
"That is up to you." He said leaving the restroom.
I am totally lost without her. We were best friends but just that mean a lot for me. I wish I could know how to show that for her. I went back to the class and did my best to focus. But I only could think about Brittany. She was so sad, anger and hurt. She could kill me if she wanted.
At lunch time, in the cafeteria I saw her talking with her sisters, I could notice that they were at a table a little away from others and Brittany's eyes were red. That means she cried a few moments ago. I would talk to her at that moment but I didn't have the courage to do it in front of her sisters. Looking around the cafeteria, I found where my brothers were, I went to their table. I pass in front of the table the girl were. I just looked to them. I couldn't hide my sadness on my face. The three looked at me. The facial expressions of Jeanette and Eleanor impressed me. They looked back at me showing some empathy and who seemed to have understood how much sad I was. Brittany just looked faceless.
I jumped over where my brothers were. I didn't talk about what happened with them. I wanted to think about that after the football train. After eating something, I decided I needed some time alone with myself. I would have it right after the football train. I had to tell my brothers about it.
"Guys." I called them, softly.
"Alvin." Simon replied.
"Can you tell Dave that he does not need pick me up after the football train." I asked them, hoping they would understand.
"Why? Don't you want to go home?" Theodore asked, in an innocent way.
"No, I want it, just wanna do it in different way." I said with disappointment.
"That is okay, we will tell Dave about it." Simon said, putting his paw on my shoulder.
"Thanks, guys." I said, leaving their table and turning to the table where some jocks were.
"What's wrong with him?" I heard Theodore asking Simon. I wished I could answer that question.
"He just need some time alone." Simon answered, covering me.
I needed. I was feeling so horrible. I never felt like this before. I know I am a troublemaker, I mocked everyone. I know I can hurt everyone's feelings. I never thought I could lose someone that was so close to me. Someone that was so special for me. Someone I loved besides my brothers and Dave. But this time was different. Chances are I could lose my best friend. I would probably see my brothers dating her sisters and see her alone. I couldn't even imagine that. I know I can be arrogant, childish, selfish, irresponsible, competitive. But I never meant to hurt anyone. I never want to hurt her feelings in that way. I doubt she will forgive me.
My future with her is probably gone.
When I jumped over the jocks' table. I tried to forget all that pain and sadness for a moment.
I saw her passing next to the table I was. She looked at me. Sad, heartbroken. I will never forget that face.
I am sorry I took so much time to post this short chapter. I didn't want to finish this story because I didn't want to write like this. But I will do it one more time for you, dear reader, for you.
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