Authors notes: Hey all! Sorry about the break, I was really busy with school and needed to catch up with a lot of my NCEA assessments. Anyway during this story I'll be doing four POV'S. Riley's, Lucas's, Maya's and Farkle's! I wanted to switch it up a little bit. Let me know what you think in the reviews! Also comment if you like Riley and Farkle together! I know it's a Lucaya fanfiction but I thought a little Filey in the background wouldn't hurt anyone.

Chapter 19/Riley POV.

(Svorski's bakery.)

As I sat down in the bakery, I debated my relationship with Lucas in my head. It had been three months since I had been dating Lucas, but I wasn't sure what I really felt for him. I had a crush on him ever since we had met that night on the subway, and he was handsome, brave, intelligent and kind, but sometimes it felt like there was something missing in our relationship.

When I was with Lucas I felt, well to be honest, I didn't know what I felt. I knew I could talk with him about some things, but I had always kept him at arm's length. Being with him was different from what I had expected; before we started dating I played out this big 'epic love' fantasy in my head, and after dating him for a few months, I realised that most of my thoughts about him prior to our romantic relationship were merely fantasies of a perfect guy, and a perfect relationship. I felt like a fool because I knew that the perfect guy and perfect relationship didn't exist. I had feelings for him, I knew that, but I had difficulty with realising what type of feelings they were. He was a good friend, someone who was always there for me, and always doing kind things for me. I felt close to him, I trusted him, and he was my boyfriend, but did I want him to be my boyfriend?

I knew what my heart wanted but I was simply too scared; the unknown of the situation made me sweat and feel anxious. I was used to normalcy, things remaining the same, but I could feel deep down that being in a relationship with Lucas was not what I wanted; it wasn't what my heart desired. I knew that I had to break up with Lucas as soon as I possibly could. I couldn't lead him on any longer. Lucas was a wonderful guy, and a good boyfriend but I knew that he deserved someone who was sure about what she wanted.

"Hey Riles!" Maya's familiar voice snapped me out of my thoughts. I turned around to see Maya, Lucas and Farkle.

I managed a small smile. "Hey guys," I looked at Lucas, and suddenly remembered the date; the 27th of June. It was Lucas's birthday and I was so caught up with myself that I forgot all about it. "Happy birthday Lucas!" I smiled, and he returned my smile. I knew that I couldn't break up with him now-not on his birthday.

"Thanks Riley," Lucas sat down next to me and pecked me on the cheek. I turned away from him uncomfortably, but after realising how it must have looked, I turned to face him again and smiled, hoping that he didn't realise how awkward I felt, he then returned my smile, not seeming to suspect anything. Maya eyed me suspiciously, but didn't say anything as she and Farkle went to sit down.

I liked Lucas as a friend, I had feelings for him, but I no longer had romantic feelings for him, my feelings for him were now platonic. I could tell, because whenever we were together, I couldn't stand him touching me in a romantic way. I wanted that fact to be untrue. I wanted to still have that giant crush on him, but it was over. My feelings for him had changed into platonic ones, and I knew that we wouldn't work out as a couple.

"Farkle's throwing Luke a pool party at his mansion this afternoon. It's going to be slay!" Maya exclaimed. I faked a smile, but deep down I was miserable. I had no idea how to deal with the situation at large.

"Yeah should be cool," I stated casually.

I walked into the pool area of Farkle's house, for Lucas's birthday party. I had so many thoughts going on in my head, and the overwhelming noises at the house were causing me to feel overwhelmed and tired. I then glanced over at Lucas. He smiled over at me, walked toward me and went to kiss me on the cheek. I pushed him away subtly.

"Uh, here's your present," I gave him a gift box which had a blue ribbon wrapped around it. Lucas looked down at the gift box, with a calm and grateful manner.

"Oh thanks Riley, you shouldn't have," Lucas stated with his gorgeous, wide-set smile. Did I really want to break up with him? I mean, he was absolutely gorgeous, and I knew that the old Riley would have almost fainted at the sight of his charming smile, but things had changed after dating him for three months. Dating him wasn't a perfect fantasy, it was reality. I had started to get to know Lucas, and we became closer, but with that my feelings started to shift into the friend zone, and I couldn't escape it.

"Riley?" I quickly shook my head, snapping out of my thoughts.

"Oh sorry! I'm going to get myself a drink," I stated with a jumpy tone. Lucas nodded his head, and I went to the drink section. How was I going to keep the façade up?

I had been at the party for two hours, and I was ready to break into little pieces. Lucas kept wanting to spend time with me, but I was avoiding him like the plague.

Maya walked up to me, holding a can of Coca Cola. "You need to stop leading Lucas on," she stated.

"What do you mean?" I questioned, trying to fake oblivion.

Maya raised her right eyebrow at me. "You know exactly what I mean. If you're not into him anymore you need to tell him. It's not fair to lead him on," I was surprised about how caring Maya was being about Lucas. I hadn't realised they had become such good friends.

"It's his birthday. I don't wanna hurt him," I said with a guilty sigh. I wished that I didn't want to break up with him, but I did.

Maya shook her head. "You don't think he notices how weird you're acting right now? Sure, it may hurt for him initially, but you're avoiding him like he's dirt from your shoe. That probably hurts more than you being honest Riles." I knew she was right; I just didn't want to hear it. I didn't want to ruin his birthday.

"Well, if you like Lucas so much, why don't you date him?!" I exclaimed with a sarcastic expression and stormed off. I bumped into Lucas as I walked off into the kitchen quickly.

Lucas POV

Riley had been acting weird all day. It was as if she was angry with me for some reason. I assumed that maybe she was upset about something to do with me, or possibly her parents. I followed her into the kitchen. Riley's back was faced to me, and she was sipping on a glass of water.

"Riley, can you turn around?" I questioned.

Riley turned around. "Hey," she stated while putting her glass down on the bench.

I smiled slightly, and edged close toward her. "Is everything alright? You've been acting kind of distant."

"Don't worry about it," Riley said while shrugging her shoulders.

I sighed a little. "That's the thing Ryles I don't know what IT is. Just talk to me, tell me what's wrong."

"I just want you to have a good birthday okay?" Riley responded quietly.

I nodded my head in response. "Yeah I will, once you tell me what's going on with you."

Riley looked down at the ground, "I don't know where to begin," she whispered.

"Come on Riley. You can trust-"

"I think we need to break up," she stated impulsively while looking up at me.

My relaxed expression quickly turned into a surprised and upset one. "You wanna break up?"

Riley looked at me with a sorrowful expression. "I'm so sorry Lucas, I wanted to tell you after your birthday, but it was too hard…"

I looked at her with a slightly confused expression. "I don't know where this is coming from…"

"I'm out of my depth here Lucas. I've never had a boyfriend before, and maybe there's a reason. Maybe I'm no good at the relationship stuff."

I shook my head, hoping that she was just confused. "Maybe you're just confused, you know, because of what happened with Maya and I? Seriously there is nothing to worry about with that, it was just a kiss." I knew that deep down a break up was what we both needed, but at the same time, I thought of Riley as a good distraction for my growing feelings for Maya. I know that was a stupid reason to stay with her, but I liked not having to stress about my feelings for Maya. I also liked the familiarity I had with Riley. I knew that we were often more platonic then romantic, but I felt safe with her.

Riley shook her head, as tears filled her eyes, "I'm sorry, but it's not because of that."

"Well, like you said, how can you know if you've never been in a relationship before?" I said, fill of hope.

"No Lucas, I know what I want," she said, her voice sounding more confident than before.

I nodded my head slightly. "And that isn't me?" I questioned quietly.

"I really thought you were what I wanted. I guess when I couldn't have you I could create this beautiful, romantic situation in my head. But now that we're really dating…it's different."

"Different how?" I questioned. I knew what her answer was going to be because deep down I felt the same way she did. I just couldn't face it like she was.

Riley took a deep breath. "I think when I find the one I'll go out of my mind thinking about him. He'll become my whole world."

"Is it not like that with me?" I asked.

"No…it's not. I'm so sorry Lucas, but I don't think I have feelings for you anymore." Her words were like a dagger through my heart. Although I felt the same way, it still hurt that she no longer had any feelings for me. It felt like ever since we met she had feelings for me. I supposed it was just going to take some time to get used to. I walked away from Riley, and found an empty seat, and I sat there, thinking about my recent issues.

Maya POV

I saw Lucas sitting alone, and wanted to see if he was alright. Riley told me about breaking up with him, and I couldn't help but feel for him. Yeah, Riley was upset too, but I knew that it would have been harder for Lucas, as he was the one getting broken up with. I walked to where he was sitting, and plopped down next to him.

"You okay Ranger rick?" I questioned softly.

Lucas turned to face me slightly. "You know, don't you?"

I nodded my head. "Yeah, I'm sorry dude."

"Why do you care? You hate me. You should go be with Riley," he said while looking away from me. I shook my head, even though I knew he probably couldn't see.

"No. Lucas, you know I don't hate you. You're one of my closest friends, which is why I'm checking up on you," I stated caringly. Lucas looked back at me with a slight smile.

"Thanks Maya, you're a good person. Sorry about being a jerk, I'm just a little confused about what's happening." I nodded my head and rubbed his back comfortingly.

"Hey, don't worry about it. I bet one day you'll find the perfect girl, and you'll click with her instantly." I smiled, and he returned my smile. For almost one hour Lucas and I sat there, talking about the issues that were going on in our lives. We really bonded, and I told Lucas some of the things that I hadn't told anyone but Riley, and he told me some of the things that he hadn't told any of his other friends. My feelings for him were very much alive, but I was willing to be a friend to him, nothing more.

Farkle POV (later around 5 o'clock. Matthew's apartment: Riley's room.)

I climbed into Riley's bedroom through her window; I knew about the breakup with Lucas and I wanted to see if she was okay. I glanced around for Riley, but she wasn't anywhere within sight. I sat down on the window sill, and waited for her. Around three minutes later she walked in, and saw me.

"Farkle? What are you doing here?" She questioned as she edged closer.

"I just wanted to see if you're okay. You know, after the whole break up with Lucas."

Riley smiled slightly. "Thanks Farkle," she sat down next to me, and we stayed quiet for a couple of minutes.

"Hey Riles?" I asked, finally breaking the two minute silence.

"Yeah?" She questioned, turning to face me.

"Do you mind if I ask why you break up with Lucas?" I was surprised that she broke up with him. I mean, Riley had a big crush on him ever since they first met, and suddenly she wanted to break up with him? I was a little confused about it.

"Yeah, it's okay. The thing is I realised that I no longer had feelings for him. I did feel attracted to Lucas, I mean look at him, but I couldn't go on dating him, because I knew I no longer had feelings for him. And I feel terrible for making Lucas waste three months with me!" I watched as a tear fell down her cheek.

"It's okay Riley," I said as I rubbed her shoulder comfortingly.

"How is that okay?" She asked, shedding more tears.

"Firstly, I really doubt he wasted that time! No one wastes their time with you Riley; you're a ball of sunshine. And second…" I leaned a bit closer. "You're beautiful, inside out and out."

"Thanks Farkle," Riley said with her usual, sweet smile.