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We knew this day would come, we knew it all along
How did it come so fast?
This is our last night, well it's late and I'm trying not to sleep
Because I know that when I wake I will have to slip away
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Claire Speaks

It was nice to wake up comfortably warm, not feeling like I needed more sleep or like I had slept too much.
Sun light pierced through the blinds and straight into my eyes and I groaned, trying to roll over. Beside me Ben grunted and I froze; our legs too tangled to roll myself over; one of my arms hooked around Bens and his hand dangling in front of my face. I shuffled closer into his chest, sighing as I felt more comfortable than I ever had in this bed. It was early, too early to get up on a day off and besides, Bens soft snoring was hypnotising.

Last night was still playing over in my mind; at least I didn't wake up from a nightmare. I could feel a smile on my face as Ben shifted, his face dropping to the back of my neck. This was the first morning that I was actually staying with a lover, going to wake up with them rather than try and sneak out before things got awkward. How many times had Ben done the same thing? Would he try and sneak out when he woke? I hoped not, but I tried to move too much, keep quiet just to see if he did.
He wouldn't regret this would he? Would I?
Things were getting too comfortable here, this house becoming too familiar and the faces too acquainted. Everything could go so horribly wrong in a second and it made me nervous to think that if we went our separate ways, it would hurt more than losing them.

Bloody hell, it was just sex! Why did I have to over think everything? We were hunters and we were starved of some sort of affection. He was hot and I liked to think I was decent on the eyes; that was half of it, it had to be more than half. Besides, I couldn't sneak away now, not when I couldn't be on my own, who knew where that angel was or what they would do to make me say yes. The more I thought about it, the more I knew that there was nothing that would make me say yes; angels didn't help us on any other hunt or crisis, just because they were at risk as well didn't mean we would work any faster than we could.

A kiss on the back of my neck brought me back and I smiled as Ben chuckled, his hand moving to gently hold my shoulder. I felt happy, all thoughts gone suddenly and I rolled onto my stomach, feeling my hair fall in a tangled mess. His fingers played in the strands, turning onto his side and pressing his back along the wall. I was close to the edge of the bed, two people seemingly being the max and I giggled as Ben blinked his eyes clear a few times.
'Morning.' He said lazily and I sank my head deeper into the pillow to hide a blush, mumbling a morning back. Ben stretched, the blanket pulled further down my back and I watched as his eyes scanned down my bare skin. What was he thinking when he looked at me? When I looked at him… I couldn't think.

Timidly Ben moved closer, a hand either side of my body as he kissed the back of my neck. I just laughed quietly, wondering what the hell he was doing as he moved down my back, kissing softly and dragging his lips along scars I knew that were on my back. Leaning on my elbows, I turned my head slightly as Ben stroked a finger along one particular scar; I could feel it tingle up to my shoulder.
Ben didn't ask, and I thanked him for that; I didn't ask about all of his. It was just part of the job and there was no need to bring up old stories, even his just touching it I could remember the feel of the blade pierce my skin.
His hand moved to my side and I couldn't help but laugh; his feather light touch ticklish. Ben had a smile grow on his face that really made me blush and I buried my face into the pillow to try and smother my laugh as Ben took it upon himself to tickle me.

We struggled for a bit, myself trying to return the favour but there was nothing soft on Ben to be tickled, only getting a reaction when I dragged my nails across his naval. He groaned, not wanting to surrender and tried to roll atop of me but I snarled playfully, somehow managing to get on top of him. I wasn't sure when the struggle had stopped but I kept my grip tight as Ben caught my lips.
Tearing away to catch my breath, I laid my head on his chest and felt him kiss my forehead.
Part of me was reminding myself that this was too intimate, that I should get up and try to carry on like this was just simply what it was.

'What's wrong?' Ben asked, and I stared down at him, wanting to tell him everything that was bothering him. Angels were wanting to possess me like demons, I'm terrified of losing you because I like you more than anything or anyone I have ever come across?
'Nothing.' I gave him a convincing grin and just relaxed on him, sighing contently when he wrapped his arms around me. We were like that for however long; neither of us wanting to be the first to let go, I know I didn't want it to end because I didn't know when we would get to do this again; just near each other and sharing everything we were.

Ben ran his fingers through my hair, getting my attention and I dreaded what he was going to say; I felt my heart go cold and heavy in my chest.
'You're not too hot are you?'
I felt relieved and slumped against him, proving a point that I was comfortable.
'Oh yeah that's right, you're the girl that loves the heat.'
I pushed myself up so I could lean over him.
'Sorry would you prefer to be cold?'
'No, I-' we both laughed, Ben looking a little stressed, 'I don't know what to talk about.'
I shook my head, kissing him quickly as I made myself more relaxed against him.
'Don't say anything.'

I was about to lower my head back onto his chest when there was a knock on the bedroom door. We looked at each other like sprung teenagers; Ben nervously trying to duck behind me. Before I could get them to wait, the door was opened and I tugged the blanket up to cover my chest.
'Are you still here Clai-'
Dean and Adam froze in the door way, myself trying to give a convincing yawn.
'Sorry Claire, good morning, we just Ben and Jesse are missing…' Pearl ran into the room, yapping as she tried to lick my face.
'Jesses gone?' I wasn't too concerned at first, he always popped off to wherever it was he went but I hoped it had nothing to do with me choosing Ben over him would it? He wouldn't be that petty…?

'He's normally fed Pearl by now…' Adams speech slowed as he noticed my bare shoulder and I bit my lip as Ben moved behind me, looking over my shoulder to his father and uncle. My cheeks burnt and Adam adverted his eyes, mumbling an apology and calling Pear.
'At least we know Bens doing alright.' Dean chuckled, giving Ben the thumbs up. I rolled my eyes, elbowing Ben as he gave Dean the thumbs up back and pulled the cover completely over my head.
'We'll leave you guys be a little longer if you like…'
'Dean!' Ben groaned and finally the door shut, myself too humiliated to come out from under the covers.

The bed wobbled a bit as Ben lifted the blanket off me, kissing my cheek and getting off the bed. Groaning I pulled the sheet over me again, keeping it off my face so I could watch as Ben tugged on his pants, muscles flexing as he slipped on his shirt.
'Sorry about Dean.'
I sighed, that was going to be a fun breakfast chat. Hello Mr Winchester, I'm not actually dating your son but we're hunters so you know; things happen.
'He seems pretty… juvenile…' I looked up at him, nervous that I had just insulted his father but Ben also laughed, nodding his head and sitting on the end of the bed.
'Dean only has good intentions, don't worry about him.' He raised an eyebrow at me and I returned it. 'Not going to get dressed?'
'I'm waiting for you to leave.' I said, uncomfortable standing in front of him naked. He chuckled, almost disbelieved and I just widened my eyes.
'What? It's not like I haven't already seen everything, twice.'

I sat up, slapping his shoulder as I remembered my incident at the hospital and I frowned at him.
'That's not the point…' I hissed and smacked his hand away as he tried to pull the blanket down from me.
'I thought we could be past that.' He chuckled, trying to neaten his hair as he stood up and pulled out some clothes from my bag for me, tossing them over. I glared at him and he shrugged.
'I sleep with you and now you dress me?' I kept my tone playful and Ben began to stalk over to me, leaning on the bed as he tried to steal a kiss from me. I bit his bottom lip and he laughed, cupping my cheek softly.
'Get dressed and then we can go see where Jesse is, unless he is in here… under the bed maybe?'
'You're horrid!' I growled, hitting him with the pillow. Ben yelped, jumping back and defending himself.
'I wouldn't be so horrid if you just got dressed. Maybe I should strip again.'
Trying to hold my laugh, I snickered at him and pointed to the door.
'Get out.' Ben began to take another step towards me, dancing as he pulled at his shirt but I threw the pillow at him and he laughed, shutting the door behind him after he ran out the bedroom.

It was quiet in the room now and I sighed, slapping my hand to my forehead as I fell back into bed. I couldn't help the goofy smile that was on my face; my cheeks were starting to ache. I touched my lips, I could still feel Bens ghost like on them, my neck, all over. Rolling over, I felt my smile drop when I saw Lances glasses and for a split second, I was sure I saw those bright eyes behind them. I had given Lance up for Ben, Lance of all people, what was happening to me?

Pushing everything aside, I knew I at least had to get up and have a shower but I think the water barely touched me before I was out and dressed, platting my hair.
As I stepped out from the bathroom, I could hear concerned chatter from the kitchen and I looked towards Jesse's room, wondering where it was he would have nicked off to. In a time like this, with an enemy so strong it wasn't the wisest thing to be going off on your own, cambion or not. Then again I was one to talk, toying with the emotions of my two hunting partners.

I had to admit though; my guilt wasn't as heavy on me as I thought it should be. Feeling satisfied, I made my way down the stairs, disregarding a sick heavy feeling lingering above me.

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And when the daylight comes I'll have to go
but tonight I'm gonna hold you so close
cause in the daylight we'll be on our own
tonight I need to hold you so close
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Sorry guys, pretty uneventful chapter but things are going to start picking up pace very quickly.

SilverKirin
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