AN: ok, just a heads up, this chapter will be super intense. and possibly emotional. ENJOY!

Chapter 6:

hiro had gone to a few sessions with his therapist and they were okay. his therapist was as nice as she looked but they hadn't gotten very far. the past few weeks they were just getting to know each other. he had told in great detail how his parents and brother had died and how he was bullied. but this week would be very different. the therapist called him in and he sat in his usual chair.

"Hi, hiro. how are you?"

hiro shrugged, "I don't know...really bored of being stuck here."

"is my office really that boring?" she joked.

"No, i mean this planet. i don't even know why, but everyday, life just gets harder and harder to deal with. every time i start thinking about killing myself, the only thing stopping me is knowing how much it would hurt my aunt. i'm just afraid one day i wont."

"I know why you're afraid of that happening."

"Why?"

"Because deep down, you really don't want to die. you want to find another way out of your troubles, but suicide feels like the only option. right?"

"Ya, i guess. is there another way out?"

"I'll be completely honest with you. there isn't." hiro's face physically fell with sadness and disappointment, " but. it's not about finding a way out."

"What? then what am i supposed to do?"

"Some people will say to wait for the storm to pass. some people will say to do something about it to change the circumstances. but what i've found is the only truth out there, is that: it's not about changing the weather; it's not about waiting for the storm to pass; but it's about learning to dance in the rain."

"How do i do that?"

"That's not something i-or anyone else can help you with-because we've all been through something different. it's something you have to learn to do on your own. people will say to lean on others for support, but as you already know from experience, those people won't always be there for you. they all will have to leave at some point, so it's not about leaning on others. it's about learning to stand on your own. and honestly, that can take a while. it's takes patience-with yourself and others. if you fall, you have to get back upon your own show everyone around you that you're stronger than they think. show yourself that your stronger than you ever thought."

"What if i can't get back up?"

"Someone will always be there. because you are NEVER alone. someone is always thinking about you. someone is always praying fro you. do you know who that is?"

"No."

"It's Jesus."

"Don't pull this religious bull crap-"

"He watches over you every second of every day. his thoughts about you-in one second-are more than the sand grains on the shore of every beach combined. he loves you. he created you. and he created you for a purpose. he's watching over you right now. he always has been. he always will be."

"Where was he, the day my parents died? where was he the day my brother died?! Where was he, the day i nearly died, because he made my life a living hell?"

"the day your parents died, He was begging the bar tender not to give that man another drink. he was begging your parents to stay home that day. he may have let your parents die, but he kept you and your brother safe. he's kept you safe until this very day. if your parents never died and if you never went to live with your aunt she wouldn't have been there to call the hospital when you almost died. if you lived with your parents they may have been out of town that day and you wouldn't be sitting here right now. the day you brother died, he was begging that man not to start the fire. he was begging tadashi not to run inside. he may have let your brother die, but he did it to keep you safe."

"How was that keeping me safe?"

"He knew tadashi had already ran inside and that you were going to follow him. and he knew that by letting the building explode while your brother was in there was the only way to keep you from running in too. everyday you picked up the blade. he was begging you to put it back down. he was begging you not to cut yourself. he was begging you to ask for help. the day you nearly died. he was telling you aunt that your screaming wasn't a prank. he was telling your aunt that you needed help. he was telling her to run up those stairs and help you. he was telling the ambulance driver to floor it. he was telling the paramedics to shock you one. last. time. to bring you back. and it was all worth it. you are worth it. you were worth saving. you are worth more to him than anything else. he planned all of this out so that you would be sitting here right now. if you hadn't almost died that day, you wouldn't have admitted you needed help. and you wouldn't be sitting here right now. and i wouldn't be helping you make better sense if why this has all happened. and all your life, he has been begging those bullies to stop torturing you. he was begging them not to rape you. he was begging them to leave you alone. but they wouldn't listen."

they were both crying now. he never realized how much someone could care about him.

"If he knew this was all going to happen, and he planned it for a reason. why did he beg for it not to happen even if he knew it would turn out okay?"

"have you heard the story of Jesus being crucified?"

"Ya, mu parents and my brother went to church when i was younger, but i wouldn't go. so they ranted about it when they got home, but i just wouldn't buy it."

"When he was in the garden of Gethsemane, he knew the roman soldiers were going to capture him and he knew he was going to be crucified. so he begged his father in heaven to find another way, but he knew he would rise again three days later. he knew that everything would be okay in the end. and it was worth it. now there's a way for everyone to go live in heaven when they die. do you know if your parents or your brother were Christians?"

"Ya, they were. they tried to convince me, but i wouldn't buy it. it just sounded to unrealistically perfect."

"That's what makes it so amazing."

suddenly her alarm went off for the next patient.

"Oh, it's time for the next appointment."

"Ok." hiro got up to leave.

"Hey, before you go, do you think you might want to get saved?"

"I don't know."

"Well, if you do, you'll finally be able to see them when you die."

"Just... i'll think about it."

"Okay, take all the time you need to. i'll see you next week, okay?"

hiro turned around and hugged her.

"Thank you. you really helped me today."

"No problem. it's what i do."

"I'll see you next week." he said as he let go of her.

"Okay, bye,"

"bye."