Chapter 50: Goodbye Hannah

Sirius and May returned from their honeymoon on the day James brought them the news of Hannah's death. On the whole journey, May did not say a word. She was in shock. Sirius did his best to comfort her but she just pushed him away. "I need to see Remus." She mumbled when they entered their flat.

"I asked James. He said Remus won't see anyone." Sirius explained to her. "I know you want to see him but he won't see anyone."

"I'm going to see him." She growled angrily at her husband and tried to push past him and leave the flat again. "He needs someone with him."

Sirius sighed heavily as he placed their suitcases on the floor, stopping her from leaving. "May, give him time. He needs time to grieve."

"He needs time? I need time!" She shouted at him. "She was my best friend!" She broke down again, tears streaming down her cheeks. "She was my best friend." Her voice trailing off. "My best friend." She sobbed hard and pushed him away as he tried to hold her. "Stop it! Leave me alone!" She stormed away from him and into their bedroom, disappearing quickly into the bathroom and locking the door.

Sirius was close behind her but could not get into the bathroom after her. "May! Open the door!" He knocked on it hard. "You don't have to cope with this on your own. We're all hurting, May. She was my friend too." He leaned against the door frame and slid to the floor. "Please, May. Please open up." He knocked once more. "Please, baby." There was silence.

She didn't come out for two hours. Sirius had stayed in the same place, just waiting for her to come out. She opened the door and sat opposite him. "Please, let me try and see him."

"Tomorrow." He nodded. "Right now, you need to rest." He sat up straight and reached his hand forward, holding her hand.

She turned her hand and held his hand tightly. "She was my best friend, Sirius."

"I know." He rubbed the back of her hand. "I know." He urged her to come to him. She moved and sit on his lap. He wrapped his arms around her and she leant her head against his shoulder. "We'll go and see Remus tomorrow. You need to sleep." He stroked her back. He could feel tears on his shoulder. She was crying. "Come on. Bed."

She nodded and stood up. "I'm tired." She moved towards the bed and kick off her shoes and just climbed into the bed, fully dressed. "I'm so tired." A few minutes after she pulled the covers over her, she was asleep. Sirius smiled sadly as he kicked off his shoes and joined her. Both were fully clothed. He rested his arm over her side, wanting to give her a little comfort as she slept.

"Remus!" Sirius thumped the door to Remus' flat. He and May arrived just before lunch. All morning, May said nothing. She was grieving for her best friend still. "Open the door, mate." There was just silence.

"Let me." She croaked quietly. She stepped forward and gently knocked on the door. "Remus. It's me. Please. Let me in. Sirius will wait out here." She nodded at Sirius, who nodded back. "Please. I need to talk to you. I know you want to talk." She knocked again. "Remus Lupin! I know you are in there. Let me..." She was cut off when the door opened slightly. "I'll see you in a minute." She said to Sirius before she opened the door wider and went inside, closing the door behind her. "Remus?" She walked further into the small flat. It was dark.

"Sitting room." He mumbled in the darkness.

She walked into the sitting room, which was a little brighter than the hallway and saw Remus moving to sit on the couch. He had not shaved. He looked untidy and tired. "Remus." She sighed heavily and went straight to the couch, sitting next to him. "I'm here."

"She's gone. She's gone." He wept, she wrapped her arms around him, pulling him close. "I've lost her! She's gone!"

May found herself crying with him. "I know. I miss her too. I want her back so much. I don't know what to do."

Remus was sobbing in her arms. "I need her!"

"I know." She whispered. "I know. I know." They stayed like that for an hour. They sat there in silence. The only sounds were their soft weeping. She tried to comfort him but her own grief took over her comforting thoughts.

James had arrived at Remus' flat an hour after Sirius and May had arrived. He raised an eyebrow at the sight of his brother-in-law sitting on the floor opposite Remus' front door. "What in the world?"

"He would only let May in there." He sighed heavily. "They've been in there for an hour." He noticed that James was carrying a glass dish, which had some food in it and covered with tin foil. "What you got there?"

"Lily has made him a lasagne." He carefully sat down next to Sirius, placing the glass dish on his lap. "How's May?"

Sirius shook his head. "Not good. She barely slept last night. She didn't have breakfast this morning. I hope she gets through this. For the baby and herself more than anything."

James sighed heavily. "I hope she does. I don't want the same thing to happen to her when Dad died."

"She won't. I'll make sure this time." Sirius nodded and sighed heavily. "I can't believe Hannah is gone." He shook his head and sighed again. "She was always there but we never really noticed. She was the one who made Remus come out of his shell."

He chuckled. "Oh yes. They were made for each other."

The two of them agreed. "True. It's such a shame that this happened. This stupid war." He grumbled and leaned his head against the wall. "Do I get any of that lasagne?"

"No." James laughed. "It's for Remus. Not you." He fell silent when the door opened. Both Sirius and James got to their feet when May stood in the doorway. "Hello, little sister."

"Hi James." She smiled a little. "I'm going to stay here tonight. I don't want him to be alone." She looked at Sirius as she spoke. "Could you run home and get me a few things?"

"Do you want me to stay as well?" Sirius asked.

She shook her head. "No. He doesn't want to see or James."

"Okay." Sirius stepped forward and kissed her softly. "What do you need?"

"Toothbrush, pyjamas and underwear." She gave him a little smile. She turned to James and took the dish from him. "Tell Lily thanks and I'll come and see her tomorrow."

Her brother nodded and smiled. "Okay. Tell Remus, we're thinking about him."

"I will." She smiled and went back into Remus' flat, closing the door behind her. "Lily has made a lasagne for you. I'll heat it up and we can have it for dinner later."

"Yeah." He muttered from his seat. "Where's Sirius?"

"He's gone to get me things for tonight." She placed the lasagne in the oven, which was not on. "Right, you need to go and shower, shave and get dressed. You need to start getting on with your life. Tomorrow, we're going to go and see Hannah's parents. We can talk about the funeral. I think they want a muggle funeral."

"Yeah." He nodded and stood up. "I'll go and shower. Make yourself at home." He nodded solemnly and left the room.

May sighed heavily and opened the curtains widely. She turned to see that his flat was a right mess. It had only been a few days since Hannah's death but his flat looked like he had been hiding there for days. She sighed heavily and started tidying up. He was eating but it didn't seem to be enough. There were plates of food but only half the food seemed have been eaten. She grabbed a black bin bag and started putting all the rubbish in the bin. She waved her wand and sent the plates, mugs and dishes to the sink, where they started washing themselves. "Oh Hannah." She found a framed picture of Remus and Hannah one new year's eve. "I miss you." She whispered as she placed the picture in the middle of the coffee table. She cleaned the entire sitting room and his bedroom; changing his bedding and opening all the windows.

Remus emerged from the bathroom to see her cleaning the kitchen. He was dressed in clean jeans and a black t-shirt. "You don't need to do that."

"I want to. It's keeping my mind busy." She wiped the surfaces clean. "You all done?"

"Yeah." He nodded and watched her as she continued cleaning. "Come here." He held his arms open. She needed him.

She turned to face him, tears were running down her cheeks. She went straight to his arms and sobbed against his shoulder. "Why her? She had so much ahead of her."

"I know." He sobbed also. The pain was too much. His heart was breaking. He lifted her head up and smiled down at her. "What about that... lasagne?" He kissed her lips softly.

"No." She whispered. "Don't. You're trying to cope with Hannah's loss." She stepped back from him but he stepped back to her, trying to kiss her again. "Stop it."

"Please, May. I love you. I need you." He cradled her face in his and tried to kiss her again.

"Stop it!" She shouted at him. "I'm pregnant!" She pushed him away. "I'm pregnant. I'm having Sirius' baby."

Remus gasped in shock at the news. "Did... when... Did Hannah know?"

"Yes." She nodded. "I told her last week. At the wedding." She smiled a little. "Don't worry. She knew."

"I'm sorry." Remus sobbed as he slid to the floor. "I don't know what came over me. I miss her so much."

May was about to move forward when there was a knock on the front door. "I'll get it. It's Sirius." She stepped around Remus, rubbed the tears away and went to open the front door. As she opened the door, she had her wand ready. She wanted to be ready, just in case it wasn't Sirius. "Hi baby." She smiled when she saw him.

"Everything all right?" He handed her a small bag.

"Yeah." She smiled a little. "He's getting there. We're going to see Hannah's parents tomorrow."

"Okay." He nodded slowly and leant forward, kissing her softly. "Will you be home tomorrow?"

"Probably." She nodded. "I'll let you know if I'm not." She reached up and caressed his cheek. "I love you."

"I love you too." He smiled and kissed her again. "I'll see you tomorrow." May disappeared into Remus' flat, returning to her grieving friend.

There were over 100 people standing around the open grave as Hannah's coffin was lowered into the ground. All her school friends stood behind Hannah's family; her mum, dad, Sarah, and Sarah's husband. May's attention was always turned to Hannah's sister, Sarah. Sarah had gotten married two months ago. Shotgun wedding, Hannah had called it. Sarah was pregnant. Her parents and her husband's parents had made them get married. They didn't care. They were happy. She was heavily pregnant now. You could tell she was in agony from the pain of losing her little sister.

The ceremony was beautiful and the weather was beautiful too. The perfect day to say goodbye to Hannah. Remus was in pieces. He had come to terms with her death the day before. But today, he was lost again. He had not said a word to anyone, not even Hannah's family. He stood next to James and May and stared into thin air.

"Come on." May whispered and tugged on Remus' hand. "Hannah's parents want us to go back to their house for the wake." He just nodded silently and let May and James lead him out of the graveyard. For the rest of the day, he did not say a word. It was too much for him.

A/N: So? Did you think Remus' reaction was right? Yay or nay for this chapter? 6 reviews for the last chapter? Seriously? THANK YOU GUYS!

Responses from chapter 49:

Shailo Leto Lupin: I'm glad you enjoyed it. Hope you enjoyed this chapter.

Forever Siriusly Sirius: I got the idea from the hatred of fry up during pregnancy from my friend. She hated fry-ups during her first pregnancy. Sorry for killing off Hannah. I had planned to kill her off for a while now. Sorry again.

CharlotteBlackwood: Sorry? Seriously, sorry. I have wanted to kill off Hannah for a while now. Just trying to find out the right time. I didn't want to cut off Sirius and May's honeymoon so soon but James would have been the person who insisted on telling them about Hannah's death.

Warewolf-princess558750: Thank you. I can't tell you if Sirius goes to jail or not. ;P Hope you enjoyed this chapter.

HP. mandy. X: This story is going to be canon and will follow JK's stories. I think Sirius would have made a fantastic father if JK had given him a son or daughter.

Roseweasley85: Thank you. Hope you liked this chapter. :)